my dirty little secrets.
Monday, September 29, 2003
i HATE wonger.totallie sucks. Fu*k her. [k.its censored] i nv use tis word.tis is exception.swear nt to use it agn.bahh.under influence of my frens.dey kp sayin.den ying xiang me lor.nt supposed to use.but heckk.sighh.factor tt reli pisses me is tt she wrongly accused e 9 of us 4 sth which wasnt even our fault.[-ys.gen.jam.esh.anna.yn.nuru.lm.me-] lyk woahh wadd.wow wadd. TSKK hatahtehate =hmpf= i've nvr like lit tt i mux admit.but nw.u muz juz pnt ur finger at us n mk us filled wif hatred eeven more? we were'nt even given a chance to explain.all u did was juz SCOLD.kk.im in a foul mood.heyy.u din even sae we cant haf e same ans ritex?fine! u accused us of copyin.fine la.we admit.happy? u din even tell us to haf diff ans wadd.u even ask us to discuss? so obviously we did it altogether n gt things sorted out? SHIT! y izzit dat other grps knew nt 2 haf e same ans but only My innoncent grp din?okie.juz feel tt its reli unfair kaeshh.juz cant stand u.like woahh wad.i wanna explode.i wanna cry.but its nt the right time...u can juz happily punish us.deductin 2.5 marks wadd.yeaah.we tottalie dun mind at all wad/ finee..it was exact photocopy.e1 juz copied. =// heyy.we did quite well at ferst lehh.den u any-o-hoe flare n blare.fr A2 bcum B4.wow! not badding at all wadd.nt lousy wad. TSKK my results gou lan liao le.den u muz lidat us?..nt even a 2nd chance?idiot la.kayy.im totallie pissed. my life juz too fu*ked up.wusit cos we're purely lazrr thus reulting in tis shittified rubish? =// but pls gif tis matter a lil thot.we showed unity among us while others apparently did their own.okkiie la.at most.. we admit we're in e rong la.still say wadd e 1 guilty pls stand out.keashh.im reli pissed.okie.oh godd.can sum1 pls ged me outta this fix??? Lit always spoil my mood.4 e entire dayy..n every other lessons were pure-- stoning+drfiting.im too listless.den started badmooding n tsking n rolling of eyes at every others.was chao bushuang.kayy.im so sorrie ok.uhh. -moodswings- but this whole matter is nt entirely our fault kayy.juz feel tt dere's seriously sth wrong wif YOUR attitude?kaes.
haikx.think i nd a break.i nd to fa xie badly.wahbiangx.forget it la.doenoe if i shud forgive u n myself.perhaps we were wrong 4 copying n u were wrong 4 nt giving us a chance to explain??? lets give n take? yeahh.world peace. =v= wadeverrr. blahh
sighh.etime wn im down its either frens.t'chers or results.e same things always happen.haik.laoshi sorta ticked me of bcos of my chinese test reults.said i din do as well.haiya.she sees e potential in me to do much better in chinese.yepp.admit i slacked lotsa.dere's was juz sum distractions b4 tis test.yeaa.reli sorry 4 lettin u down laoshi.yep.wad u told me.indirectly tellin me to pull up my socks.nt much time left.promise i study harder.mk u proud of me.-squints-yepp.
sorry for this entry.etg is screwed.abit e nt censoured.reli apologise.mood is totallie eeks.so pls pardon all e vulglarities yea?-begs- thankiew.
life sucks like hell.totallie does.esp when outsiders doesnt noe how bad it feels to be left all alone.stranded.
-wails- *cries* ='(
haikx.think i nd a break.i nd to fa xie badly.wahbiangx.forget it la.doenoe if i shud forgive u n myself.perhaps we were wrong 4 copying n u were wrong 4 nt giving us a chance to explain??? lets give n take? yeahh.world peace. =v= wadeverrr. blahh
sighh.etime wn im down its either frens.t'chers or results.e same things always happen.haik.laoshi sorta ticked me of bcos of my chinese test reults.said i din do as well.haiya.she sees e potential in me to do much better in chinese.yepp.admit i slacked lotsa.dere's was juz sum distractions b4 tis test.yeaa.reli sorry 4 lettin u down laoshi.yep.wad u told me.indirectly tellin me to pull up my socks.nt much time left.promise i study harder.mk u proud of me.-squints-yepp.
sorry for this entry.etg is screwed.abit e nt censoured.reli apologise.mood is totallie eeks.so pls pardon all e vulglarities yea?-begs- thankiew.
life sucks like hell.totallie does.esp when outsiders doesnt noe how bad it feels to be left all alone.stranded.
-wails- *cries* ='(
the girl next door;
Saturday, September 27, 2003
whee-!im sho glad eng paper is over.
*yay* shud b rejoicing budden..im nt too sure if i did well anotx.
erts.paper 1.eeks.gt feeling wrote out of pnt as usual.
oaoer 2 totallie yucks wadd.gws set one i tink.
shud b sinc is so perverted.yucks.
welwell.1 paper down.great.
mananged to finsh studyin dan yuan 6 of chinese.
heehee.winks- so happy.
but tt ys so goody.wad finish all liao.woahh.
-claps- gd tt u started muggin earlier tis time round.hehz.
donoe y i feel kinda relax despite e arrival of exams.
feel as tho im prepared but i havent reli been muggin le.
erpx.eeks.dunno le.juz gt tis funny feeling in me only lahs.
e1 dun believe i can flung my paper.
say wad if i flung dey get lesss den 0.
like woahh waadd.im so guai in their eyes?? -pouts-
yining calls me guai1 guai4.
supposedtly means harworking monster?
haha.rubbish la.oso dunoe.blahh :|
sir talked to me aft el paper ydae.
erts.sighh.dun even noe y e heck he trust me so much.
bleahblahhblehh.heckk.
im juz confused lorh.yeshh.totallie am wad.
he wants me me x-country.
n he muz kp on reminding me time n time n agn.
woww.my memory nt tt badding lah pls.
he wans to trrain all sec 1s tis yr 4 x-country.
go under him or sth lidat?
yeaa.tink we're all capable.but blerghh.
i dunnoe if i shud reli accept tis challenge.
nd time to reconsider.but doubt i even haf e choice.
i dun mind if i can run as fast as...eerrr.june.nicole.sock hoon?
but e fact is i cant lohh.blahh. =//
yeahh.n e ferst ting sir ask me wn he talk to me was like
"wads ur diet liike?"
hahx.my goodness.wow.wow.wow.
okie.this is rather maddening.erpx.
he dun belive i eat alot oke.
yucks.muz mk my classmates stand up 4 me.
how much i eat durin recess.
hehehe.am i tt thin to e1??
y e1 kp sayin i so skinny le?
bahh.puton weight tis wk le.
budden hor.my pants gt looser.
n so did my skirt[as in skl u]
like woahh wadd.
gahh.wonder where all my fat went to. -thinks-
let see.in rgps oso lidat.
still rmber dey call me sth.
err. anorexic? it think? bahh
sth lidat lahh.
yining callsme skeleton. =P
dun even lk like one.
bsides e1 has a skeleton in their body rite? hehx.
haiyahh..gt no comments seriously.
juz tt im 4eva complainin in class.
say skirt so loose.
will drop anytime
i think i wld lorh.juz 1 daee.
totalie loose wadd.but wait..
i dun reli tink i lk thin le.
yinxi + jamie skinner okie.
yeahh.toalie wad.
but no one believe.dey juz say i LOOK thinner.
haik.wadeverr la.think den thin lorhh.
lucky im nt underweight can liao.
hehehe. ; )
muz drink more milk.hmm.
actuallie i do lah.at least half a glass everydae.
if not den fruit juice loh.
hee.cos ive gotta mk up 4 nt eatin veg.
ahahaha.whee-im notty.lalala.
haik.i HATE ART!!!
blahh.totallie horrendous i telll u.
eeks!i cant stand it nemore ok.
i TRIEd startin to do my art 4 exams.
but sighh.no progress at all.
hahx.i decided which stimuli 2 do lahs.
juz cant think of wadda draw.bleahh.
nemind.i will try my bestt.
yeahh.art sucks.
lk myself in e mirror.
n pls kayy.
i where gt lk dao lorhh.
dun haf lah.
perhaps only if i nv smile?
yepp.i only wanted to clarify hor.
cuz its nt bcoz of u dat i dao lah.
sorry if u tink tt wayy.
not yer fault ok?
i juz stime no strength to smile?
hahx.kinda forced.
okok.im totallie rubbishing away.
oolala.kayykayy.shall stop crapping lah.
hah.realised tt my arm swing rather out of plc.
erts.rite arm okie.
e left 1 is totalie swingin across.
oh no..die die die.
no woder mrlin always comment abt my hands.
yea.finally understood.hmm.
i tried to retsirct myself fr swingin too much.
but to no avail.bleahh.
sighsighsigh.oso dunnoe howta chnge mah.
yesh.so dotx...
nvm lah.tink etg tkaes time.shall juz man man xue.
ltr going hai nan huei guan 2 collect my achievemnts.
*yay* so happy.
can get $80.whee-
on top of tt another $50 cos last yr gt A* 2 cheena.
lalala.heehee.on top of the world lah.
yepps.sum1 jolly well stop me fr braggin.
cos tink im goin crazee.
n tis entire entry is lyte totallie crappified kaessh
talk abt loads of crap.
yeah.well.at least better fr suffering fr depression.
hahahaha.yessh.
alrite.good luck to u all 4 ur finals.
u go girl =)
*yay* shud b rejoicing budden..im nt too sure if i did well anotx.
erts.paper 1.eeks.gt feeling wrote out of pnt as usual.
oaoer 2 totallie yucks wadd.gws set one i tink.
shud b sinc is so perverted.yucks.
welwell.1 paper down.great.
mananged to finsh studyin dan yuan 6 of chinese.
heehee.winks- so happy.
but tt ys so goody.wad finish all liao.woahh.
-claps- gd tt u started muggin earlier tis time round.hehz.
donoe y i feel kinda relax despite e arrival of exams.
feel as tho im prepared but i havent reli been muggin le.
erpx.eeks.dunno le.juz gt tis funny feeling in me only lahs.
e1 dun believe i can flung my paper.
say wad if i flung dey get lesss den 0.
like woahh waadd.im so guai in their eyes?? -pouts-
yining calls me guai1 guai4.
supposedtly means harworking monster?
haha.rubbish la.oso dunoe.blahh :|
sir talked to me aft el paper ydae.
erts.sighh.dun even noe y e heck he trust me so much.
bleahblahhblehh.heckk.
im juz confused lorh.yeshh.totallie am wad.
he wants me me x-country.
n he muz kp on reminding me time n time n agn.
woww.my memory nt tt badding lah pls.
he wans to trrain all sec 1s tis yr 4 x-country.
go under him or sth lidat?
yeaa.tink we're all capable.but blerghh.
i dunnoe if i shud reli accept tis challenge.
nd time to reconsider.but doubt i even haf e choice.
i dun mind if i can run as fast as...eerrr.june.nicole.sock hoon?
but e fact is i cant lohh.blahh. =//
yeahh.n e ferst ting sir ask me wn he talk to me was like
"wads ur diet liike?"
hahx.my goodness.wow.wow.wow.
okie.this is rather maddening.erpx.
he dun belive i eat alot oke.
yucks.muz mk my classmates stand up 4 me.
how much i eat durin recess.
hehehe.am i tt thin to e1??
y e1 kp sayin i so skinny le?
bahh.puton weight tis wk le.
budden hor.my pants gt looser.
n so did my skirt[as in skl u]
like woahh wadd.
gahh.wonder where all my fat went to. -thinks-
let see.in rgps oso lidat.
still rmber dey call me sth.
err. anorexic? it think? bahh
sth lidat lahh.
yining callsme skeleton. =P
dun even lk like one.
bsides e1 has a skeleton in their body rite? hehx.
haiyahh..gt no comments seriously.
juz tt im 4eva complainin in class.
say skirt so loose.
will drop anytime
i think i wld lorh.juz 1 daee.
totalie loose wadd.but wait..
i dun reli tink i lk thin le.
yinxi + jamie skinner okie.
yeahh.toalie wad.
but no one believe.dey juz say i LOOK thinner.
haik.wadeverr la.think den thin lorhh.
lucky im nt underweight can liao.
hehehe. ; )
muz drink more milk.hmm.
actuallie i do lah.at least half a glass everydae.
if not den fruit juice loh.
hee.cos ive gotta mk up 4 nt eatin veg.
ahahaha.whee-im notty.lalala.
haik.i HATE ART!!!
blahh.totallie horrendous i telll u.
eeks!i cant stand it nemore ok.
i TRIEd startin to do my art 4 exams.
but sighh.no progress at all.
hahx.i decided which stimuli 2 do lahs.
juz cant think of wadda draw.bleahh.
nemind.i will try my bestt.
yeahh.art sucks.
lk myself in e mirror.
n pls kayy.
i where gt lk dao lorhh.
dun haf lah.
perhaps only if i nv smile?
yepp.i only wanted to clarify hor.
cuz its nt bcoz of u dat i dao lah.
sorry if u tink tt wayy.
not yer fault ok?
i juz stime no strength to smile?
hahx.kinda forced.
okok.im totallie rubbishing away.
oolala.kayykayy.shall stop crapping lah.
hah.realised tt my arm swing rather out of plc.
erts.rite arm okie.
e left 1 is totalie swingin across.
oh no..die die die.
no woder mrlin always comment abt my hands.
yea.finally understood.hmm.
i tried to retsirct myself fr swingin too much.
but to no avail.bleahh.
sighsighsigh.oso dunnoe howta chnge mah.
yesh.so dotx...
nvm lah.tink etg tkaes time.shall juz man man xue.
ltr going hai nan huei guan 2 collect my achievemnts.
*yay* so happy.
can get $80.whee-
on top of tt another $50 cos last yr gt A* 2 cheena.
lalala.heehee.on top of the world lah.
yepps.sum1 jolly well stop me fr braggin.
cos tink im goin crazee.
n tis entire entry is lyte totallie crappified kaessh
talk abt loads of crap.
yeah.well.at least better fr suffering fr depression.
hahahaha.yessh.
alrite.good luck to u all 4 ur finals.
u go girl =)
the girl next door;
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
wad kind of sshitified life i so truly enjoy??
kaos..wadeverr lah.
stayed backk.
WAS supposed to mugg.din in e end.
was juz pure copying of answers.
n ys.gen li.sam wong.quiyi were copyin too.
haha.i so guai oso copy..lala.heckk la
sci n chinese test todae was alrite.
cept 4 cheng yu.totally can flung wadd.
dun gif a damn nemore..
ended up clearin e class aft skl.
hehx.my class is spick n span rite now.
whee- we rocks.lalalala.
even wash the floor lorh.
ferst class 2 arrange tables 4 exams summore.
heeheehee.n i happily pushed in all e chairs neatly..
looks so perfect now..
wisheed my class will b free fr dust edae..like 2dae..
yunheng n hweeboon came my class.
abt art.yeahh.rotted e entire time..
till abt 4.50 when we left?
erts.nemind.so nice cut leaf 4 u still say so plain..
haik.nvm... =//
my door spoil agn.. :( -wails-
dunoe how to explain to fellow classmates.
but anyways i signed e defects file liao..
reli sorry kaee.my life juz so screwed.
etg i do is purely my fault lah pls.
*sob* gonna explode..sighh.
washing e classrm was my idea.
hope e floor dries.if it leaves a stain...
well.dun worry i will take e blame.
cos its my fault.n its my class afterall.
... as for the dorr.im reli sorry, C2
i noe its nt e ferst time lah.
2nd time allady.n it lasted 4 1 wk.
e new screw.erpx.haik.our class so clean.
yet door muz give wayy.
uhhh.sorry..i promise to take the FULL blame..
any tcher ask..u juz say it was lynette ok..
i wun mind.cos u all werent even involved.
n doubt neone is so wei da as to say sth dey din even do..
yeahh.
started bad mooding..
think whoever who tries tokin to me rite now is e biggest fool.
i sure scream at em one..
seriously..i wld..in a horrendous mood.
gt loads of art to do oso.
think will burn the nite..
see if i can stay up only..
will at most develop dark circles lah..
heckk.as if i reli bothered..
sigh.wonder y life sucks?
y e1 so fan le?
den see their faces only i bcum fan..
haik.as a fren oso cant do atg.
shit lah me..wad can i do..
rot n die lahh.
yarhh.n her cuts are so dotx lahh.
nemind..juz pray she takes care..
haiyahs..y u all so fan..??
can tell me not?
else will juz worry 4 ntg.
crazee lah.but wadeva.. :|
continue lidat i oso can do atg rite?
wad u expect me to do?
cant stand this.esp e feelin..
sth swirling..im still thinking..
sorry.yeahh.din mean to let u down la.
juz tt..haik.eh..nvm.
was force myself to sae.
kk.wana clarify things.
im reli alrite ok..
y do u ple always think i kp etg to myself??
like no lorhh.i gt things to sae i will juz spit it out one..
not those kind who hide n hide..
yeaa.SO!!! dunid to worry abt me ok?
yeahh.
hah.cant belive im so NICE
ownself mang bu guo still volunterr help ple do.
hah.u jolly well b thankful.
else i gt ntg to sae..
i made up my mind.
call off my party.
no one's in a mood to celebrate lorh.
like ppleasee.no one even plannin it in e ferst plc.
n e 101 misunderstandings which no one seem to bother.cept me..
is not progressing at al lo.
wadever la..u all oso dun wan me to caree
wad more can i sae?
i rather suffer alone..
so heckk.its alrites.
u all can juz comtinue being who u reli am.
i wun fan u..
cos im gou fan liao le.
okie..think will juz drift only.
bad mood n bad mood.
n mk sum ple sae i dao.
crapp.i dun mind at all.
okie.wed is baddin.
i dun like it.
i never like wed...
sighh.life rawks.totallie does.
eveeryone if free.everyone loves life.
no one is stress.dey take things 4 granted.
2dae so not fair..
never rain le.sobb.
nemind..god dowana pei wo todae..
its alrite.i dun caree.
okie okie.i shall stop now..
muz so art.
so e1 take care.muz cheer up.
n dun think so much abt others.tata =)
kaos..wadeverr lah.
stayed backk.
WAS supposed to mugg.din in e end.
was juz pure copying of answers.
n ys.gen li.sam wong.quiyi were copyin too.
haha.i so guai oso copy..lala.heckk la
sci n chinese test todae was alrite.
cept 4 cheng yu.totally can flung wadd.
dun gif a damn nemore..
ended up clearin e class aft skl.
hehx.my class is spick n span rite now.
whee- we rocks.lalalala.
even wash the floor lorh.
ferst class 2 arrange tables 4 exams summore.
heeheehee.n i happily pushed in all e chairs neatly..
looks so perfect now..
wisheed my class will b free fr dust edae..like 2dae..
yunheng n hweeboon came my class.
abt art.yeahh.rotted e entire time..
till abt 4.50 when we left?
erts.nemind.so nice cut leaf 4 u still say so plain..
haik.nvm... =//
my door spoil agn.. :( -wails-
dunoe how to explain to fellow classmates.
but anyways i signed e defects file liao..
reli sorry kaee.my life juz so screwed.
etg i do is purely my fault lah pls.
*sob* gonna explode..sighh.
washing e classrm was my idea.
hope e floor dries.if it leaves a stain...
well.dun worry i will take e blame.
cos its my fault.n its my class afterall.
... as for the dorr.im reli sorry, C2
i noe its nt e ferst time lah.
2nd time allady.n it lasted 4 1 wk.
e new screw.erpx.haik.our class so clean.
yet door muz give wayy.
uhhh.sorry..i promise to take the FULL blame..
any tcher ask..u juz say it was lynette ok..
i wun mind.cos u all werent even involved.
n doubt neone is so wei da as to say sth dey din even do..
yeahh.
started bad mooding..
think whoever who tries tokin to me rite now is e biggest fool.
i sure scream at em one..
seriously..i wld..in a horrendous mood.
gt loads of art to do oso.
think will burn the nite..
see if i can stay up only..
will at most develop dark circles lah..
heckk.as if i reli bothered..
sigh.wonder y life sucks?
y e1 so fan le?
den see their faces only i bcum fan..
haik.as a fren oso cant do atg.
shit lah me..wad can i do..
rot n die lahh.
yarhh.n her cuts are so dotx lahh.
nemind..juz pray she takes care..
haiyahs..y u all so fan..??
can tell me not?
else will juz worry 4 ntg.
crazee lah.but wadeva.. :|
continue lidat i oso can do atg rite?
wad u expect me to do?
cant stand this.esp e feelin..
sth swirling..im still thinking..
sorry.yeahh.din mean to let u down la.
juz tt..haik.eh..nvm.
was force myself to sae.
kk.wana clarify things.
im reli alrite ok..
y do u ple always think i kp etg to myself??
like no lorhh.i gt things to sae i will juz spit it out one..
not those kind who hide n hide..
yeaa.SO!!! dunid to worry abt me ok?
yeahh.
hah.cant belive im so NICE
ownself mang bu guo still volunterr help ple do.
hah.u jolly well b thankful.
else i gt ntg to sae..
i made up my mind.
call off my party.
no one's in a mood to celebrate lorh.
like ppleasee.no one even plannin it in e ferst plc.
n e 101 misunderstandings which no one seem to bother.cept me..
is not progressing at al lo.
wadever la..u all oso dun wan me to caree
wad more can i sae?
i rather suffer alone..
so heckk.its alrites.
u all can juz comtinue being who u reli am.
i wun fan u..
cos im gou fan liao le.
okie..think will juz drift only.
bad mood n bad mood.
n mk sum ple sae i dao.
crapp.i dun mind at all.
okie.wed is baddin.
i dun like it.
i never like wed...
sighh.life rawks.totallie does.
eveeryone if free.everyone loves life.
no one is stress.dey take things 4 granted.
2dae so not fair..
never rain le.sobb.
nemind..god dowana pei wo todae..
its alrite.i dun caree.
okie okie.i shall stop now..
muz so art.
so e1 take care.muz cheer up.
n dun think so much abt others.tata =)
the girl next door;
Saturday, September 20, 2003
todae was reli screwed up..
hate this entire wk in fact.yucks.
kaeshh.e dae started wif a heavy downpour.
n e wind was blowin freag strongly.
jie was late 4 1/2 hr
made me shiver..hahx.nemind
nt her fault.she got dreched so went hm to chng.
yeahh.it ruined our dayy.
all were moody.cos of e rain.
n it stoped wn we boarded e train.
erts.im unlucky.n i caught a flu.
sighh.*sniff*im fragile.
always lyte tis.haiks.hecck la.
dun reli bother of my health anymore.
was supposed to mugg.but i cldnt concentrate[usual]
n peiting n cynthia were real jokers.
make me luagh till craziee.n dey were playin wif my leaf,
mwahah.cutee.damn farnie lorh.
e1 was laughin.but hb always din seem 2 get e joke.
hah.e1 blamin me 4 bein too council-ly.
erts.sorry.but it my job.i dun wana gif ne1 a dp.
cos i noe how it feels.to b issued 1.
haiyohs.i try.so pls dun mk me bk u ple.
my mood reli unpredictable.
fr happy became to damn bad mood.
bushuang wif myself.
e min i found out..i actually lost jie keychain.
its so chio.i love it e most.
but yett.it muz go n drop.mk me feel so sad.
so ex.$7.sorry.u dun blame me.
but i blame myslef.i feel bad.
its a bdae pressie aftall.
n i hafta lose it.i like it so muchh.
not e ferst time.
1st time i drop it.i realised.so pick it up.
n was thankful to god 4 lettin me notice it.
nw dat its gone.i reli duno wadda do.
so nice.so chio.i love it.
but sigh.i cant geddit replaced.
ahhhhhhhhh.hate myself.
so clumsy.hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate
-hmpf--tsk- myself.
aft tt.kp thinkin.driftin.
i was abt to explode.
my heart sank.felt as tho knife entered.
acted dao.sorry.avioded eye contact too!
tears were allady brimming.
so i wenta toilet to let tgs out.
ntg went into my head ltr liao..
i reli feel extreme sad.
nt baddin at all wadd.
im reli sorry kaee.haik.
e'tg always dun wana go my wayy.
always e case.its nt e ferst
more den a million times liao.
haiya.i've gt ntg to sae..
emotional?sentimental?
wad kind of a person m i??
i reli dunnoe lahs.i nd a break.
to break free fr e'tg... =(
oral wasnt gd.i juz kp thinkin.
of how shi-bai i was.
let down e1.sir.jie.n me.n..
sighh.life sucks.ohnonono.it rawks.
i simply love it.
e stress im handling.
wonder y so mucchh.despite me being only a sec 1.
yeahh.stoned in 2C1 b4 oral.n ms chai kp starin.
i think she recognises me.ever since wad happened on thurs.
eeks!!nemind.she was my invigillator.
mk me so nervous le.so scaryy.so afraid of her.
but seniors say she's nice.
but..i reli dunnoe.
in e end.was tested by ms ang.cos too many ple ion my class
n half of 2S1 was b4 1C2 le.
so its like so long lorh.
was 2nd last to b tested.-time kper
tink i ended arnd 2.40 ++
yeahh.so dao mei.
da 2 pros in chinese were b4 me.speak till so gd.
mk me feel so low-class.
n tanie n kejia speak so loudly.
cld hear their voices.
n heared ms ang praising kejia.
yeahh.she fluent.i muz agree.
my chenna so lan.yuuck.gt no comments.
went back hm alone.mayb wif leemin n emily lahs.
took fotos of e helliconia 4 art.
hate it.gt 3 freag pgs 2 do.n i havent even done 1!!
erts.nemind.hate it.i dun like any'tg kaesh.
wth.wadeverr.dun gif a damn.
said b4..reached a stage where totalie immune
i dun caree.oh..reli dun.
=// aiks.any'tg oso can lahs.
frenship conflicts.oh no..
who likes it.??.no wayy pls.
dunnoe how jie is copin...
misunderstandings juz occur.
e1 seems to b havin misconceptions abt me.
perhaps no one noes me well enuff larhs kk.
haiyoh.nvm.nvm.-shakes head-
dao? fine.if tt's wad u say.sigh.
how can i chng ur thinkin??
my existence in e world.
juz seems to mk things worst each time
i hate myself.
runined every chance,e'tg
spoilt e frenship btwn e1.
let myself down.e1 in factt.
pls pls pls.gt loads on my mind to worry abt.
im nt affected at all wadd.
im perfectly fine..yeahh.
pls doubt me.sigh.if tt's e case.no comments. :|
yarhh.wadever lah.
i act dao in skl.simply cos i bad mood.n nt cos who u are.
i wana clarify things.cos it wasnt meant to turn out tis wayy.
life is horrendous.oh yes it is.or mayb not? -raise eyebrows-
i dun gif a shit wad ple think abt me.
gd or bad.i dun bother.
u all can juz contniue gosspipin behind my back.
i dun mind at all.
wads true n fake.i cant mk it up..
whihx sentence to belive fr whose mouth.
i oso dunoe le.my mind is swirlin once agn.
n i get slpess nites.horrible days.
atrocious minutes.irritatin seconds.
certain ple trust me so much.while others juz doubt me.
comments have been passin.n rumours too.
i dun wan anyone to ged hurt.or suffer.
but juz myself.i mean it pls.
dun like to see e1 feelin down.
i juz wan e1 to b tt happy n carefree gurl dey once used to be...
exams are juz arnd e corner.
n im havin ssci on my bufdae.but glad its e last paper.
still gt art lahh.tt one.dun bother.
i regret 4 all i;ve done.
no time left.veh lil onlyy.
i regret..slackin in term 3.
cry so muchh.term 4 reli fast.
in a flash.u'll noe its over..
tern 3 was reli wasted.feel so freak shi-bai.
sir belive in me.he shldnt haf..
i probably juz end up lettin him down.
i cant meet to his expectations
nt cos im thikin too much.
but guess it reli high.
i do have targets.yeshh.but nt so gd la.
cos my brain cant function.
it has stopped movin liao.n thikin too.
erts.wadevaa.i juz nd to mugg reli hard day n nite.
n pray hard.wish.cross fingers.
tt my efforts will pay off.n score.do well.
thats all i wish 4.ntg less.i hope its nt too much of a wish la.
never mind.at most i juz dream lorh.
time running out.
e clock is ticking.
n im crazzee.
:/ i cant accpet certain things.
cos its far too heart-brokening.
kp-in things in.its nt t wayy.
neither is lettin tgs out.
may feel better.
but e other party worst
cryin is e best..2 fa xie is e thing.
tho it may nt help slov problems.
but..to me.i feel better.winks-
i apologise to e entire world rite now..
SORRY kay *bows sincerely*
i thot i straightened out my thots liao.
no bad moodins
no sad cases.
no more crying.
hayoh.juz let mysefl down agn.waokao.
nemind.life is beautiful
n yes.i will smile =D
so not to worry cos im fine.
im waitin 4 my burfdae
hope all will go well.
its a real long time since i last had a GREAT bdae.
hope my 13th one wld b funn.
n exciting.but if not.i celebrate it myself.
it will b alrite..i dun mind.
a cake.n sing to myself..
hmm.quite gd yea?
i dunnoe wad im murmurin abt.heckk lah.
told ya b4 i dun care.:P
yeshh.i dun.
frens care.lynette dun.
doesnt mk sense.but its alrite.
cos i cant seem to worry abt such trivial stuuff.
dere's more impt matters awaitin me.
yeahh.kayy.im crappified.
i juz nd sum1 by my side rite now..
but sighh.im isolated.
always no one to accompany at e right time
well.well.i understand.
cos all are busy,in preparation for finals.
yepx.gd luck to Crescent.hopw e1 will do well.
n e world rejoices....
hate this entire wk in fact.yucks.
kaeshh.e dae started wif a heavy downpour.
n e wind was blowin freag strongly.
jie was late 4 1/2 hr
made me shiver..hahx.nemind
nt her fault.she got dreched so went hm to chng.
yeahh.it ruined our dayy.
all were moody.cos of e rain.
n it stoped wn we boarded e train.
erts.im unlucky.n i caught a flu.
sighh.*sniff*im fragile.
always lyte tis.haiks.hecck la.
dun reli bother of my health anymore.
was supposed to mugg.but i cldnt concentrate[usual]
n peiting n cynthia were real jokers.
make me luagh till craziee.n dey were playin wif my leaf,
mwahah.cutee.damn farnie lorh.
e1 was laughin.but hb always din seem 2 get e joke.
hah.e1 blamin me 4 bein too council-ly.
erts.sorry.but it my job.i dun wana gif ne1 a dp.
cos i noe how it feels.to b issued 1.
haiyohs.i try.so pls dun mk me bk u ple.
my mood reli unpredictable.
fr happy became to damn bad mood.
bushuang wif myself.
e min i found out..i actually lost jie keychain.
its so chio.i love it e most.
but yett.it muz go n drop.mk me feel so sad.
so ex.$7.sorry.u dun blame me.
but i blame myslef.i feel bad.
its a bdae pressie aftall.
n i hafta lose it.i like it so muchh.
not e ferst time.
1st time i drop it.i realised.so pick it up.
n was thankful to god 4 lettin me notice it.
nw dat its gone.i reli duno wadda do.
so nice.so chio.i love it.
but sigh.i cant geddit replaced.
ahhhhhhhhh.hate myself.
so clumsy.hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate
-hmpf--tsk- myself.
aft tt.kp thinkin.driftin.
i was abt to explode.
my heart sank.felt as tho knife entered.
acted dao.sorry.avioded eye contact too!
tears were allady brimming.
so i wenta toilet to let tgs out.
ntg went into my head ltr liao..
i reli feel extreme sad.
nt baddin at all wadd.
im reli sorry kaee.haik.
e'tg always dun wana go my wayy.
always e case.its nt e ferst
more den a million times liao.
haiya.i've gt ntg to sae..
emotional?sentimental?
wad kind of a person m i??
i reli dunnoe lahs.i nd a break.
to break free fr e'tg... =(
oral wasnt gd.i juz kp thinkin.
of how shi-bai i was.
let down e1.sir.jie.n me.n..
sighh.life sucks.ohnonono.it rawks.
i simply love it.
e stress im handling.
wonder y so mucchh.despite me being only a sec 1.
yeahh.stoned in 2C1 b4 oral.n ms chai kp starin.
i think she recognises me.ever since wad happened on thurs.
eeks!!nemind.she was my invigillator.
mk me so nervous le.so scaryy.so afraid of her.
but seniors say she's nice.
but..i reli dunnoe.
in e end.was tested by ms ang.cos too many ple ion my class
n half of 2S1 was b4 1C2 le.
so its like so long lorh.
was 2nd last to b tested.-time kper
tink i ended arnd 2.40 ++
yeahh.so dao mei.
da 2 pros in chinese were b4 me.speak till so gd.
mk me feel so low-class.
n tanie n kejia speak so loudly.
cld hear their voices.
n heared ms ang praising kejia.
yeahh.she fluent.i muz agree.
my chenna so lan.yuuck.gt no comments.
went back hm alone.mayb wif leemin n emily lahs.
took fotos of e helliconia 4 art.
hate it.gt 3 freag pgs 2 do.n i havent even done 1!!
erts.nemind.hate it.i dun like any'tg kaesh.
wth.wadeverr.dun gif a damn.
said b4..reached a stage where totalie immune
i dun caree.oh..reli dun.
=// aiks.any'tg oso can lahs.
frenship conflicts.oh no..
who likes it.??.no wayy pls.
dunnoe how jie is copin...
misunderstandings juz occur.
e1 seems to b havin misconceptions abt me.
perhaps no one noes me well enuff larhs kk.
haiyoh.nvm.nvm.-shakes head-
dao? fine.if tt's wad u say.sigh.
how can i chng ur thinkin??
my existence in e world.
juz seems to mk things worst each time
i hate myself.
runined every chance,e'tg
spoilt e frenship btwn e1.
let myself down.e1 in factt.
pls pls pls.gt loads on my mind to worry abt.
im nt affected at all wadd.
im perfectly fine..yeahh.
pls doubt me.sigh.if tt's e case.no comments. :|
yarhh.wadever lah.
i act dao in skl.simply cos i bad mood.n nt cos who u are.
i wana clarify things.cos it wasnt meant to turn out tis wayy.
life is horrendous.oh yes it is.or mayb not? -raise eyebrows-
i dun gif a shit wad ple think abt me.
gd or bad.i dun bother.
u all can juz contniue gosspipin behind my back.
i dun mind at all.
wads true n fake.i cant mk it up..
whihx sentence to belive fr whose mouth.
i oso dunoe le.my mind is swirlin once agn.
n i get slpess nites.horrible days.
atrocious minutes.irritatin seconds.
certain ple trust me so much.while others juz doubt me.
comments have been passin.n rumours too.
i dun wan anyone to ged hurt.or suffer.
but juz myself.i mean it pls.
dun like to see e1 feelin down.
i juz wan e1 to b tt happy n carefree gurl dey once used to be...
exams are juz arnd e corner.
n im havin ssci on my bufdae.but glad its e last paper.
still gt art lahh.tt one.dun bother.
i regret 4 all i;ve done.
no time left.veh lil onlyy.
i regret..slackin in term 3.
cry so muchh.term 4 reli fast.
in a flash.u'll noe its over..
tern 3 was reli wasted.feel so freak shi-bai.
sir belive in me.he shldnt haf..
i probably juz end up lettin him down.
i cant meet to his expectations
nt cos im thikin too much.
but guess it reli high.
i do have targets.yeshh.but nt so gd la.
cos my brain cant function.
it has stopped movin liao.n thikin too.
erts.wadevaa.i juz nd to mugg reli hard day n nite.
n pray hard.wish.cross fingers.
tt my efforts will pay off.n score.do well.
thats all i wish 4.ntg less.i hope its nt too much of a wish la.
never mind.at most i juz dream lorh.
time running out.
e clock is ticking.
n im crazzee.
:/ i cant accpet certain things.
cos its far too heart-brokening.
kp-in things in.its nt t wayy.
neither is lettin tgs out.
may feel better.
but e other party worst
cryin is e best..2 fa xie is e thing.
tho it may nt help slov problems.
but..to me.i feel better.winks-
i apologise to e entire world rite now..
SORRY kay *bows sincerely*
i thot i straightened out my thots liao.
no bad moodins
no sad cases.
no more crying.
hayoh.juz let mysefl down agn.waokao.
nemind.life is beautiful
n yes.i will smile =D
so not to worry cos im fine.
im waitin 4 my burfdae
hope all will go well.
its a real long time since i last had a GREAT bdae.
hope my 13th one wld b funn.
n exciting.but if not.i celebrate it myself.
it will b alrite..i dun mind.
a cake.n sing to myself..
hmm.quite gd yea?
i dunnoe wad im murmurin abt.heckk lah.
told ya b4 i dun care.:P
yeshh.i dun.
frens care.lynette dun.
doesnt mk sense.but its alrite.
cos i cant seem to worry abt such trivial stuuff.
dere's more impt matters awaitin me.
yeahh.kayy.im crappified.
i juz nd sum1 by my side rite now..
but sighh.im isolated.
always no one to accompany at e right time
well.well.i understand.
cos all are busy,in preparation for finals.
yepx.gd luck to Crescent.hopw e1 will do well.
n e world rejoices....
the girl next door;
Thursday, September 18, 2003
hate 2dae...reli sucked kaes.
please.gif me a break.
n every1 were commentin i wasnt usual
erts.sorrie.felt horrible inside le.
aiks.wadever lahs.
avoided eye contact wif every1 aft mass run.
cldnt bring myself to look.
hee.;) sorry.reli wasnt feeling gd.
i cried in e toilet b4 going baq to class.
hha.n yining said i was so quiet throughtout sci.
yepp.stimes.kp-in tgs inside mk me feel worst.
but heckk lahs.too sadd liao.
daoing came.evrery1 started beign so concerned.
say my behaviour damn fake.
wn i act wad my heart desires.u all kp askin things.
den i b hyper.so i siao.
waolaoehx.juz wad on earth u all wan me to do le.
waddever lahh.sighh.
yepp.my eyes were v red zit?
oops.sorry..neways..
uhh.thanks 4 all ur concern.
but i juz cldnt brin myself to say wadever happne.
cos will most probably break down agn.
i did wn sir asked.hehz.
but yeahh.thankiew!!
noe u all care 4 me larhs.
but yarhh.stimes its wiser to leave me alone.
dun tink i wil ever wana flare up in frnt of my frens.
sorry 4 bad-moodin too.
uhmm.yeah.dun like todae..
but perhaps was happened.wasnt that bad..
hahx.wonder wad e rest in same plight are thinkin.
haiks.sighh.yeaa.once agn..
thanks to all those who ask if i was alrite.
i was..aft uhh.recess?
tot to ged over it.n el lesson was lame n funn.
hahhaah.summary wasnt dat fun b4
all e changed words are totallie funkayy.
mw3ahaha.baptized a chicken.
haha.cos e passage was abt hens n chicks
llalala.okies.im going crazy.
aft all e tormentment in me.
hehe.n sir had 1to1 tok todae.
erpx so scary leh.haha.yepp.
yeahh.every1 take care.
mm.dun like me lidat.anytime oso can explode.
hahx.okok.shall stop crappin.
n im okies.so pls dun worry 4 me..
cos i dun tink i will ever confide in anyone anymore?
erts.wadever lahs.dun wna burden any1 liao.
tc loadies.smile forever. :p
please.gif me a break.
n every1 were commentin i wasnt usual
erts.sorrie.felt horrible inside le.
aiks.wadever lahs.
avoided eye contact wif every1 aft mass run.
cldnt bring myself to look.
hee.;) sorry.reli wasnt feeling gd.
i cried in e toilet b4 going baq to class.
hha.n yining said i was so quiet throughtout sci.
yepp.stimes.kp-in tgs inside mk me feel worst.
but heckk lahs.too sadd liao.
daoing came.evrery1 started beign so concerned.
say my behaviour damn fake.
wn i act wad my heart desires.u all kp askin things.
den i b hyper.so i siao.
waolaoehx.juz wad on earth u all wan me to do le.
waddever lahh.sighh.
yepp.my eyes were v red zit?
oops.sorry..neways..
uhh.thanks 4 all ur concern.
but i juz cldnt brin myself to say wadever happne.
cos will most probably break down agn.
i did wn sir asked.hehz.
but yeahh.thankiew!!
noe u all care 4 me larhs.
but yarhh.stimes its wiser to leave me alone.
dun tink i wil ever wana flare up in frnt of my frens.
sorry 4 bad-moodin too.
uhmm.yeah.dun like todae..
but perhaps was happened.wasnt that bad..
hahx.wonder wad e rest in same plight are thinkin.
haiks.sighh.yeaa.once agn..
thanks to all those who ask if i was alrite.
i was..aft uhh.recess?
tot to ged over it.n el lesson was lame n funn.
hahhaah.summary wasnt dat fun b4
all e changed words are totallie funkayy.
mw3ahaha.baptized a chicken.
haha.cos e passage was abt hens n chicks
llalala.okies.im going crazy.
aft all e tormentment in me.
hehe.n sir had 1to1 tok todae.
erpx so scary leh.haha.yepp.
yeahh.every1 take care.
mm.dun like me lidat.anytime oso can explode.
hahx.okok.shall stop crappin.
n im okies.so pls dun worry 4 me..
cos i dun tink i will ever confide in anyone anymore?
erts.wadever lahs.dun wna burden any1 liao.
tc loadies.smile forever. :p
the girl next door;
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
wenta watch turn right turn left.
hmm.quite nice.n farenie.but lame.
ahhha.i enjoyed it lah.
n e1 was commenting dat i ferst time go out wif em.
ys.genli.anna
haha.took neoprint.
i din pay 4 it.:P sollie
totallie brokee.hehx
touchin show.mwahahha.
not too bad larhs.whee-!
reach home ratehr late.
felt so bad.
so slept at 11pm/
haha.mugg all e wayy..
guai guai guai.
lalala.im going crazee
heheh.yepp.
this entry totally siao.
i oso dunnoe wad imsayin le..
heheh.pardon me.yea.
hmm.quite nice.n farenie.but lame.
ahhha.i enjoyed it lah.
n e1 was commenting dat i ferst time go out wif em.
ys.genli.anna
haha.took neoprint.
i din pay 4 it.:P sollie
totallie brokee.hehx
touchin show.mwahahha.
not too bad larhs.whee-!
reach home ratehr late.
felt so bad.
so slept at 11pm/
haha.mugg all e wayy..
guai guai guai.
lalala.im going crazee
heheh.yepp.
this entry totally siao.
i oso dunnoe wad imsayin le..
heheh.pardon me.yea.
the girl next door;
Sunday, September 14, 2003
sighh.been havin sleepless nites ever since i returnned fr cruise.
bound to wake up 5-6 times each nite.
wifout even noe-ing y.
haiyohs.gt loads on my head.
nt too sure juz hu to turn to.
feel that i've let e entire world down.
let myself down
let my frens down
let me t'chers down
let my parents down
let track+council down.
sighh.i reli donnoe wadda to at a situation lyte tis.
juz have loads to sae.
but all is kept within me.
sorta decided nt to let things out..
n its nt cos i dun wana confide.
but rather..its nt reli good if things start to spread.
cos ahh.if i were to tell sumone.
she may tells sumone else.
n everyy1 will soon get to noe.
n will add wadever rubbish into wad they've heard.
so e story sorta bcums sum kind of plus pepper n salt.
kayy.makin no logic here.
neminds.sighh.
dun even think im e right person to confide in.,
yepps.wells.it alrite.i dun mind at all.
yeshh.probably make things worst if i ever knew.
n e consequneces one desired.
ayiahs.to i;ve gt plenty to brood abt.
i reli dun mind noeing more..
its alrite if u ple wana spill ur troubles.
n lemme take all e burdens instead
cos tink abt this:
wld u rather see tis world filled wif person smiling n juz 1 soul frownin
den e world wif every1 sad n 1 person happy???
i chooses 1 kaes.
n i'll b dat person feelin down...
i rei dun mind at all kayy.
i put my frens b4 me.that i muz admit..
i rather see u all in smiles all dae long n leave me the only one sorrowful.
ehx.dun reli bother ant myself anymore.
juz irritated fer who i am.
n i came to realised..
dat perhaps.all along..e'tg was purely my fault.
im juz a jinx to e single thing lahs.
heck.class conflicts.
misunderstandings.
everything u can even name.
hmm.not too sure wadda do liao.
erpx.im juz pure frustrated.
esp wif e person who came up wif --> rumours.
wth.makes things worst.
rumours are such that,
its not true.cos if it was..
it shud ba a FACT.
yepps.it lies in ur hands,whtr u believe anotz.
but yet.even if u knew e truth.
u choose the believe these.rumours.
woahh.im juz afraid.
it will hurt u even more.
u may nt say this.or even show.
but to b placed in ur shoes.
i understand juz how heart broken u will b..
haik.whoever started this.i reli hate lahs.
i wun blame anyone.
but jux myself.cos im a real jinx.
kaox.tink i reach this stage where im completely immune to all feelings lahs.
grr.no comments abt this.erts.
sumtimes.i wonder y ple say such hurtful stuff.
yepp.wonder if dey reli mean it.
perhaps.it wasnt meant fer my ears lahh.
dey tink my heart is made of stone rite..
so hard.no matter wad dey sae.i wun feelt a'tg
goshh.as tho it deosnt show a trace of crack.
yepp.n i wun get affected at all wadd.
nemind.cry in my heart.
tok to my heart.
yarhh.shall juz continuin bottlin e'tg up..
erts.speak to e bottle.
till its full.replaced it wif another.
one by one.it stacks.one dae dunnoe grow how tall.
till fill up my mind.till no space.
juz BOMB.n explode lorhs
juz wishta stop my blood circulation kaes.
or let blood ooze out oso cann.
den can stop tinkin all sorts of rubbish.
wadever la.wonder wad kind of crap m i murmuring abt.
heckk.
wellwellwell.im sucha beeg fat slacker lah.
wonder where all my guai-ness n hardworking-ness haf juz vanished too.
erts.changed person.i muz admit.
it wasnt lidat wn in rgp.
was so..dotx.oh..nvm.i dunnoe wad im crappin abt too.
slack n rot.no mood to study anymore.
even wn i get serious.
one look at a bk.n i put it away..
studyin doesnt interest me anymore.
blahh.i reli dunnoe wadda sae abt lynette.
juz nd a bang on my head n crack!
n e'tg will juz flow..uhh.
so worried..
school gonna reopen tmr.
wonder if its sth to rejoice or moan abt.
well.any'tg beats stayini at hm all dae long.n drift yae?
but..dere are certain things in wish.i nv wanna face..
i've let sir down.
im reli worried..frustrated.scared.
he probably gif me dat look agn.
things haf changed ever since i was promoted le.
he given me tt look.
damn eerie.mks me so afraid.
juz wonder wn i'll break down.
shud i regret all i haf done??
perhaps..i shud haf juz continue being e chair uh?
things wld go better dat way lah.
now..trng clashes wif meetings.
i reli dunno wadda choose le.
whihc is better?
which dream i shud pursue?
i noe ntg at this point of time.
track?council?hse?
kaox.dun wish to gif up any.
but the fact is..
i wun b able to handle far so many things le.
im nt any superwoman.
yeahh.he thinks im slackin.
in trngs too.sighh.
how on earth can i change his mindset?
running seem to b e best way to destress huh?
hayohs.heahache larh.erpx.
i dun like e way things are going rite now.
it reli sucks kayy.to the core.
but i guess.at a time like this.
its nt meant to regret.
but rather.mk full use of e opportunity.
ermm.finally makin sum sense uh?
but i dunnoe wada choose.
n i nd to mk it quick.
things cant continue draggin..anymore.
pls lorh.i reli hope 4 e better.
muz continue prayin..
wishinguponastar.
4amiracletohappen
yesshyeshh.pls.juz hope my lil prayer will b heard.
haik.so scared.of sir.i darent face him anymore.
i oso dunnoe y.
juz damn stressed up.cos of track n council le.
e fact he thinks i gave up track of council.
mk me more tense.
tt wasnt e case kayy.
i still love track.i still do.
e passion is still in me kaes.
please.who dun fall in love wif track?
wadever larh.i dun mean to let u down.
wonder how things will progress as time goes by.
leave it to tk its own time?
im so scared..reallie am.
haik.haik.haik =//
im juz a real jinx.bahh.bahh.
ntg going my way.
wadever lahs.please.dun gif a damn wadd.
told ya i've reach i stage i dun reli care.bahh.
who noes wads reli inside?
perhaps.u al will tink i've allady let e;tg out huh?
but tell u e truth.erts.here n dere.
portion of e bottle only.
pls.sum things i dun evem dare to sae.
im afraid it will do my frens more harm le.
its alrite.
i;ve decided anyways.
not to trust juz anyone.
n oso.kp things inside.
uhh.yessh.crappified.
realised loads of stuff.
all those reassuring words.comfortin words.
were all but juz a pack of lies.
ple sae it 4 e sake of sayin.
hopin e other will feel better.
but will u truy noe..
juz how it feels.wn e truth unveils?
more hurting.kayy.but i dun mind suffering.
n i noe juz who are true to me..
those who reli care.yepp.*winks*
juz hope to have world peace.
hope e1 feelin alrite.
n not 2 brood over e past.
its simply nt worth it uh?
duhh.hope u cheer up.pls.
hate to see u in tis state.
givin me no peace.
but will continue worryin 4 u.
its worth it after all.
but 4 a useless n crazee nana like me.
oh pls..i straight NO..
and please.u al cant blame me 4 thinkin negatively yea?
perhaps u too noe e truth.but wun wanna sae.
scared to see me hurt.
wadever.i rather noe e truth den to b kp in e dark.
seriously.yeps.but its up to u to sae..
haf yet to straightened out my thots.
my mind is juz in a swirl.
spinnin n spinnin.....
.explosion is sooner or ltr.meanwhile.e1 take care yea?pls.things are juz stuck in my brain.oh well.juz leave me alone.to slack n rot n die.everyone gettin e rong perception of me.but... life is beautiful.e'tg is covered wif a smile like this-- =) =] =D
bound to wake up 5-6 times each nite.
wifout even noe-ing y.
haiyohs.gt loads on my head.
nt too sure juz hu to turn to.
feel that i've let e entire world down.
let myself down
let my frens down
let me t'chers down
let my parents down
let track+council down.
sighh.i reli donnoe wadda to at a situation lyte tis.
juz have loads to sae.
but all is kept within me.
sorta decided nt to let things out..
n its nt cos i dun wana confide.
but rather..its nt reli good if things start to spread.
cos ahh.if i were to tell sumone.
she may tells sumone else.
n everyy1 will soon get to noe.
n will add wadever rubbish into wad they've heard.
so e story sorta bcums sum kind of plus pepper n salt.
kayy.makin no logic here.
neminds.sighh.
dun even think im e right person to confide in.,
yepps.wells.it alrite.i dun mind at all.
yeshh.probably make things worst if i ever knew.
n e consequneces one desired.
ayiahs.to i;ve gt plenty to brood abt.
i reli dun mind noeing more..
its alrite if u ple wana spill ur troubles.
n lemme take all e burdens instead
cos tink abt this:
wld u rather see tis world filled wif person smiling n juz 1 soul frownin
den e world wif every1 sad n 1 person happy???
i chooses 1 kaes.
n i'll b dat person feelin down...
i rei dun mind at all kayy.
i put my frens b4 me.that i muz admit..
i rather see u all in smiles all dae long n leave me the only one sorrowful.
ehx.dun reli bother ant myself anymore.
juz irritated fer who i am.
n i came to realised..
dat perhaps.all along..e'tg was purely my fault.
im juz a jinx to e single thing lahs.
heck.class conflicts.
misunderstandings.
everything u can even name.
hmm.not too sure wadda do liao.
erpx.im juz pure frustrated.
esp wif e person who came up wif --> rumours.
wth.makes things worst.
rumours are such that,
its not true.cos if it was..
it shud ba a FACT.
yepps.it lies in ur hands,whtr u believe anotz.
but yet.even if u knew e truth.
u choose the believe these.rumours.
woahh.im juz afraid.
it will hurt u even more.
u may nt say this.or even show.
but to b placed in ur shoes.
i understand juz how heart broken u will b..
haik.whoever started this.i reli hate lahs.
i wun blame anyone.
but jux myself.cos im a real jinx.
kaox.tink i reach this stage where im completely immune to all feelings lahs.
grr.no comments abt this.erts.
sumtimes.i wonder y ple say such hurtful stuff.
yepp.wonder if dey reli mean it.
perhaps.it wasnt meant fer my ears lahh.
dey tink my heart is made of stone rite..
so hard.no matter wad dey sae.i wun feelt a'tg
goshh.as tho it deosnt show a trace of crack.
yepp.n i wun get affected at all wadd.
nemind.cry in my heart.
tok to my heart.
yarhh.shall juz continuin bottlin e'tg up..
erts.speak to e bottle.
till its full.replaced it wif another.
one by one.it stacks.one dae dunnoe grow how tall.
till fill up my mind.till no space.
juz BOMB.n explode lorhs
juz wishta stop my blood circulation kaes.
or let blood ooze out oso cann.
den can stop tinkin all sorts of rubbish.
wadever la.wonder wad kind of crap m i murmuring abt.
heckk.
wellwellwell.im sucha beeg fat slacker lah.
wonder where all my guai-ness n hardworking-ness haf juz vanished too.
erts.changed person.i muz admit.
it wasnt lidat wn in rgp.
was so..dotx.oh..nvm.i dunnoe wad im crappin abt too.
slack n rot.no mood to study anymore.
even wn i get serious.
one look at a bk.n i put it away..
studyin doesnt interest me anymore.
blahh.i reli dunnoe wadda sae abt lynette.
juz nd a bang on my head n crack!
n e'tg will juz flow..uhh.
so worried..
school gonna reopen tmr.
wonder if its sth to rejoice or moan abt.
well.any'tg beats stayini at hm all dae long.n drift yae?
but..dere are certain things in wish.i nv wanna face..
i've let sir down.
im reli worried..frustrated.scared.
he probably gif me dat look agn.
things haf changed ever since i was promoted le.
he given me tt look.
damn eerie.mks me so afraid.
juz wonder wn i'll break down.
shud i regret all i haf done??
perhaps..i shud haf juz continue being e chair uh?
things wld go better dat way lah.
now..trng clashes wif meetings.
i reli dunno wadda choose le.
whihc is better?
which dream i shud pursue?
i noe ntg at this point of time.
track?council?hse?
kaox.dun wish to gif up any.
but the fact is..
i wun b able to handle far so many things le.
im nt any superwoman.
yeahh.he thinks im slackin.
in trngs too.sighh.
how on earth can i change his mindset?
running seem to b e best way to destress huh?
hayohs.heahache larh.erpx.
i dun like e way things are going rite now.
it reli sucks kayy.to the core.
but i guess.at a time like this.
its nt meant to regret.
but rather.mk full use of e opportunity.
ermm.finally makin sum sense uh?
but i dunnoe wada choose.
n i nd to mk it quick.
things cant continue draggin..anymore.
pls lorh.i reli hope 4 e better.
muz continue prayin..
wishinguponastar.
4amiracletohappen
yesshyeshh.pls.juz hope my lil prayer will b heard.
haik.so scared.of sir.i darent face him anymore.
i oso dunnoe y.
juz damn stressed up.cos of track n council le.
e fact he thinks i gave up track of council.
mk me more tense.
tt wasnt e case kayy.
i still love track.i still do.
e passion is still in me kaes.
please.who dun fall in love wif track?
wadever larh.i dun mean to let u down.
wonder how things will progress as time goes by.
leave it to tk its own time?
im so scared..reallie am.
haik.haik.haik =//
im juz a real jinx.bahh.bahh.
ntg going my way.
wadever lahs.please.dun gif a damn wadd.
told ya i've reach i stage i dun reli care.bahh.
who noes wads reli inside?
perhaps.u al will tink i've allady let e;tg out huh?
but tell u e truth.erts.here n dere.
portion of e bottle only.
pls.sum things i dun evem dare to sae.
im afraid it will do my frens more harm le.
its alrite.
i;ve decided anyways.
not to trust juz anyone.
n oso.kp things inside.
uhh.yessh.crappified.
realised loads of stuff.
all those reassuring words.comfortin words.
were all but juz a pack of lies.
ple sae it 4 e sake of sayin.
hopin e other will feel better.
but will u truy noe..
juz how it feels.wn e truth unveils?
more hurting.kayy.but i dun mind suffering.
n i noe juz who are true to me..
those who reli care.yepp.*winks*
juz hope to have world peace.
hope e1 feelin alrite.
n not 2 brood over e past.
its simply nt worth it uh?
duhh.hope u cheer up.pls.
hate to see u in tis state.
givin me no peace.
but will continue worryin 4 u.
its worth it after all.
but 4 a useless n crazee nana like me.
oh pls..i straight NO..
and please.u al cant blame me 4 thinkin negatively yea?
perhaps u too noe e truth.but wun wanna sae.
scared to see me hurt.
wadever.i rather noe e truth den to b kp in e dark.
seriously.yeps.but its up to u to sae..
haf yet to straightened out my thots.
my mind is juz in a swirl.
spinnin n spinnin.....
.explosion is sooner or ltr.meanwhile.e1 take care yea?pls.things are juz stuck in my brain.oh well.juz leave me alone.to slack n rot n die.everyone gettin e rong perception of me.but... life is beautiful.e'tg is covered wif a smile like this-- =) =] =D
the girl next door;
Thursday, September 11, 2003
whhee~!im back liao..heh..enjoyed myself freag lot dere/
hmms.splendid.shud haf belived yx i wld enjoy.
bu wells.nemind.at least i had fun rite???
but quite ji mo at times larhh.
lemme update u all a lil..
see how lar.dunoe if i gt mood to sae etg out.hee ;)
8 Sep [mon]
cruise docked at langkawi.
ohh.juz hate this dayy.
e rain..spolit our mood n trip.
made my shoes soakin wet kaeshh.
wth.tskk.so freagin heavy.den e waves were oso rough.
food on tables were even movin.
how kwel ritex?hahx.
make me feel chao nauseua.yucks.
was more of sight seeing lahhs.
roamed abt.here n dere.
but nt fun at all.cos of e rain.
den had a beeg flood.
e water level was up to ur knee
my goodness.can faint sia.
so scary.wonder wad wld happen if i were 2 drown in der.
ahhah.rubbishy lahh.
so e tour guide oso damn sucky kayy.
nt fun at all.her voice mk ple wanna slp.
den mk us pay so ex 4 lunch.hate here lahh.
i prefer it in e cruise.
at least it was better yarhh???
but we went to underwater world at langkawi.
hmms.quite alritex.
saw 3 unique fishes.
damn chio loorhh.hee.
gt abt 5000 species but these 3 caught my attention.
uhh.yepp.e purple one so attractive lorhs.
totallie rawks.wahahaha. :P
nice.nice.nice.heehehehe.
saw dory n nemo too!!!
woohoo~!but no squirt.hah.
unless tortoise oso considered as squirt lah.
den haf lorh.but v old n ugly leh.erpx. =||
went baq to cabin after tt.
e others went to disco..
yupp.was all alone.
e hyperness died off.
din reli haf mood 2 do anytg lahh.
so slept chao early.
hmmms.
9 Sep [Tues]
woke up reli early.. 6am.yeahh.
catch enuff slp.mm.
went Phuket.yeshh.totallie funkayy.
simple loved it.hole day was pure shopping.
ahahah.juz loved 2 shop.funn.enjoyment.
but only no excitemnet.
ahhha.wadever la.
next time can bcum typical taitai liaoz.
wahhaha. =/
bougth hellalot of stuff.yeshh.
spent lotsa $$$ alomost went broke..erts.
shop till u drop..
wells.dats was on our itinery.
anyone who din drop.wasnt allowed 2 go baq 2 e cruise.hah.
boutgh lotsa keropok.hmm.thailand one...
nt found in s'pore.yumyumm.*slurrpps*
oh yarhh.e things dere were reli cheapp.
herseys were sold at 14 baht.
which is abt less den 50cents sgd.
cheapp huh??lolipop too.
but i wasnt feein well.so missed this great chance.
visited tis jewellery shop too!
my birthstone si opal.
veh chio..so nicee.e best.lalala.
but damn ex laghh.cldnt afford 2 purchase it. *sniff*
haf a stone at hm.eug gave it to me.
btu donoe wad kind it is only.but its nice..
ate baskin robbies ice cream.yumyum.
we always eat dat whenever we visited thailand.
heehee.n i happily ate it n kana my shirt.
was wearin white further more.
den gt this patch stained.
alamak.had to wash it in e bathrm.
cos was farr too obv.erts. =//
phuket's a real good place to shop..
things are so freag chaep
hmms.dun mind goin agn uh.
last stop was at patong beach.
yesshh.hole startech of shops.
nt genuine.heex
wanted to braid my hair kaesh.
budden.veh troublesome lahh.
btu its chioo.ahha.
my il cousin did it.so cutee.
but ex lahh.dey charge 10 baht 4 a strand of hair.woahh lorhh.
can oso do it myself.but it juz tks time.
yepps.saw this shirt.damn chio too!
wahhaha.love at ferst sight.but it wasnt meant 4 me wadd.
e younger generation.
2 small of a size lahh.
tskk!!so nice kayy.*sigh*
we returned baq 2 ship soon aft dat.
yeahh.den visted e foto gallery.
cos lotsa photographers here n dere.
takin pic mahz.mine looks quit nice [ego]
sorry to sae tt.ahha.family one oso chio enuff.
but damn ex lorh.
fancy payin $10 fer a foto or a keychain.
whihc is nt tt beeg wadd?
haiks.else i wldnt mind buy8in if it was i lil cheaper.
yepp.went 4 Gala Dinner at nitezx.
so freakin formal.
e angmohs were wearin tie[man] n shwal[women]
mk us feel so low class dere.whoops.we din noe wadd =|
nemind.it wasnt dat badd.cos we went to e chinese instead of western.
heex.so okie la.den partied in e nite till abt 2am??
woahh.ferst time in century slp so late wake up so early.
ahhahh.e1 was like dancing.but i wasnt lah.
hee.wasnt supporty at all.*shakes head*
we won a champange.cos of my cousins.
yessh.dressed sth into Cesar.lalala.cutee.
shudnt haf gone sumhow.
as in me..cos of my age lahh.
under 12 one category. abv 18 e other.
wondere wad dey expect e others to do..
kids--> child care adults--> casino.
ntg really caters 4 my age loh..
toally.so i always v extra.those of my same agn grp din go mahs.
haiyohs.so dao mei cann?
wadever lahh.it wasnt tt bad being alone sumhow.
10 Sep [wed]
all day in sea..
hmms.ntg to do..cept 4 sum hawaii stuff.
went to jog in e mornign.
wif my plum cousin.
din noe she cld actually run.
tink shes better dan my bro.haha.
i ran 10rnds.on top deck.
cos i felt bad nt trng on tues.
n legs start to ache whenever im short of trng le
wth.nemind.at least i ran a lil rite??
yeaps.played Bingo.. [gambled]
ahhha.as only a no.to bingo lorh.
den sumone else muz win.
haiyohs,so cham.gt haf won dunoe how much larh.
nvm.was only a game.but muz pay $12.50
woww.oso nt i pay one.lalala.
kids wenta swim.
uhmm.i din bring swimsuit.
so juz sat dere.lked aft belongings
nt fun at all.erts.20mins lehh.
so bored lorhh.no one to tok to oso.
cant sms or anytg.haiks.*shakes head*
n 4 dat.i kana sunburnt.
face turn red..alamak.mk my face so itcky..
den scratch lk like monkey.*grins*
doenoe wadda sae leh.hehx.
uhh.packed our baggae n gt ready to leave liao.
sarted missin e cruise.ahah.how lame can i get??
tinkin of my frens.den wanted to get baq to s'pore asap le
dinner was chao rushh.
no one wenta check.ended up only havin 10 mins to eat
waokaoox.i was like practically forcing etg to my mouth???
all restauranst were closed left buffet only.
entered at abt 5.50pm.was closin at 6pm.
woahh lorhh.cant stand dat time.
n dey were chasing us out wn we havent finsihed our food,
haik.but oso cant blame em
cos we din check e time properly.
took abt an hr to clear e immigration thingy
nt long at all wad.nt stuffy at all wadd.
haiyohss.went hm after tt.
n i had 'roadsick'
ahha.wad logic rite??
realy lorh.v long nt on e road mahh.on sea.
ahaha.mk a itsy bitsy sense.lalalala.
n phone kp ringin e min i reached hm.
ahahhahaha.slp at 10pm.
*yawns*
n sad to find out tt e trip to sentosa was cancelled.ughh.
sadd... was kinda lkin forward to it :(
but at least i haf a day more to do my hw.
heeheehehee.gd n bad lahh.
okies.todae managed to finish at least half e work.
but only to find out dat dere hellalot of maths to do
cos i missed e lesson on mon.wthh.
allot lehh.my god lor.wonder how long i wld ever tk to complete it.
erpx.did art liao.*claps*turned out quite nice la.
hhhahaha. :P
n i cooked my one dish meal 4 homec e 2nd time.
yay!!bang!!! successful le.
woahh.yumms.only short of fishcake.
din haf it at home mah
but can do wifout it.
bro said it improved.yeshh.:)
goes to show tt my cookin isnt tt bad afterall uh?
ahaha.nt too worried anymore.
but scared nt enuff time only.
yahh.tk so freag long to cut half a carrot.
10min leh.ahaha.as if i wld b given so much time,
n i cheeky added 1 full spoon of lemon chili.
tian arhh.gt my deserts.
face turn red n started tearin.
nt hot at all wadd.
drink 3 glasses of water oso no use.
ahha.started sniffin away.thnks 2 myself lahh.
wadever..learnt my lesson liao.hahz.
shall continue muggin once agnn..
gt a long list more to go..hmm.
hope i can complete it.
startin to worry.
afraid i'll slack..
realli.. wad if i reali do le?
results like shit lidat how?? =/
wells.wanna do well.hu dun wan rite?
sighh.beter buck up lynette.
haiyohs.no comments larhh.
my holidays arent holidays.
cept fer e ferst 4 days.hahaha
wn i gt to relax n thots flew free.
a gd experience i muz admit,,
yepps.mugging time..
happy holidays ple.. :D
oh yarhh.jie..take care of urself loadies uh?
please lorhh.dun b so sadd.
rumours arent true.e1 noes dat.
only so gulible ple will belive it ok..
n those nt in favour of u too.
so please.cheer up lahh.
no use gettin so fan over tis.
i noe its nt easy..
i've gone thru this b4 wadd.
twice in fact.
yepps.i rather u tk care of urslef.
den worry all day long..
till hair turn white how??
u always dere wn im feeling down.
at least mots of e time lahh.
so now its my turn to repay tis beeg favour.
please girll.dun frown yea?
no tinkin allowed.
juz like wad u told me once..
u told me to let it go n only tink of it aft CT
now its really ur turn.
give both of urslef sumtime gall.
im sure u're up to it..
relax.kp it to aft streaming..times flies.tt u noe..
it b over in a twinkle
trust me..i wun set any deadline.
cos it most probably mk things worst only mahh
tt time..yahh.wadever.dun wish to bring unyappy memories upp.
so al i can tell u is nt to tink abt it..
mugg more.u've gt ur streamin.
u belive in urself.u noe u wanmna do well n mk it up dere.
uhh.yesshh.i cant gif u anytg more den juz my ears n shoulders n care.
im sorry alhh.wadver u wann.
juz cum to me oke?
im sure to be here 4 u always.i promise.
i gurantee u.u will feel beter lettin etg out..
tho u nt one who reli confides.
but uhmm.yahh.try to let it out.
it better.reli.muz trsut mei rte??
as i said.i went thru it b4 *winks*
yepps.take care thses few days.
wun b seein u till sat le.
erps.nemind.daoing doesnt help.tt's all i can say.
no position to convince u to do anytg.
juz belive in urself.
follow ur heart.go where u realli belong.
smile lahh.chio-er wadd
rather see e hyperific u den e gloomy n badmoddin u.
yesshh.reli cute to c u smile. like tis :D rmber homerun.
laalala.smiel kayy.nt e fake one.e genuine one.heex.
tc loadies.rmber:im always here hors.
will put my stuff down if im reli busy juz fer u.smile more
hmms.splendid.shud haf belived yx i wld enjoy.
bu wells.nemind.at least i had fun rite???
but quite ji mo at times larhh.
lemme update u all a lil..
see how lar.dunoe if i gt mood to sae etg out.hee ;)
8 Sep [mon]
cruise docked at langkawi.
ohh.juz hate this dayy.
e rain..spolit our mood n trip.
made my shoes soakin wet kaeshh.
wth.tskk.so freagin heavy.den e waves were oso rough.
food on tables were even movin.
how kwel ritex?hahx.
make me feel chao nauseua.yucks.
was more of sight seeing lahhs.
roamed abt.here n dere.
but nt fun at all.cos of e rain.
den had a beeg flood.
e water level was up to ur knee
my goodness.can faint sia.
so scary.wonder wad wld happen if i were 2 drown in der.
ahhah.rubbishy lahh.
so e tour guide oso damn sucky kayy.
nt fun at all.her voice mk ple wanna slp.
den mk us pay so ex 4 lunch.hate here lahh.
i prefer it in e cruise.
at least it was better yarhh???
but we went to underwater world at langkawi.
hmms.quite alritex.
saw 3 unique fishes.
damn chio loorhh.hee.
gt abt 5000 species but these 3 caught my attention.
uhh.yepp.e purple one so attractive lorhs.
totallie rawks.wahahaha. :P
nice.nice.nice.heehehehe.
saw dory n nemo too!!!
woohoo~!but no squirt.hah.
unless tortoise oso considered as squirt lah.
den haf lorh.but v old n ugly leh.erpx. =||
went baq to cabin after tt.
e others went to disco..
yupp.was all alone.
e hyperness died off.
din reli haf mood 2 do anytg lahh.
so slept chao early.
hmmms.
9 Sep [Tues]
woke up reli early.. 6am.yeahh.
catch enuff slp.mm.
went Phuket.yeshh.totallie funkayy.
simple loved it.hole day was pure shopping.
ahahah.juz loved 2 shop.funn.enjoyment.
but only no excitemnet.
ahhha.wadever la.
next time can bcum typical taitai liaoz.
wahhaha. =/
bougth hellalot of stuff.yeshh.
spent lotsa $$$ alomost went broke..erts.
shop till u drop..
wells.dats was on our itinery.
anyone who din drop.wasnt allowed 2 go baq 2 e cruise.hah.
boutgh lotsa keropok.hmm.thailand one...
nt found in s'pore.yumyumm.*slurrpps*
oh yarhh.e things dere were reli cheapp.
herseys were sold at 14 baht.
which is abt less den 50cents sgd.
cheapp huh??lolipop too.
but i wasnt feein well.so missed this great chance.
visited tis jewellery shop too!
my birthstone si opal.
veh chio..so nicee.e best.lalala.
but damn ex laghh.cldnt afford 2 purchase it. *sniff*
haf a stone at hm.eug gave it to me.
btu donoe wad kind it is only.but its nice..
ate baskin robbies ice cream.yumyum.
we always eat dat whenever we visited thailand.
heehee.n i happily ate it n kana my shirt.
was wearin white further more.
den gt this patch stained.
alamak.had to wash it in e bathrm.
cos was farr too obv.erts. =//
phuket's a real good place to shop..
things are so freag chaep
hmms.dun mind goin agn uh.
last stop was at patong beach.
yesshh.hole startech of shops.
nt genuine.heex
wanted to braid my hair kaesh.
budden.veh troublesome lahh.
btu its chioo.ahha.
my il cousin did it.so cutee.
but ex lahh.dey charge 10 baht 4 a strand of hair.woahh lorhh.
can oso do it myself.but it juz tks time.
yepps.saw this shirt.damn chio too!
wahhaha.love at ferst sight.but it wasnt meant 4 me wadd.
e younger generation.
2 small of a size lahh.
tskk!!so nice kayy.*sigh*
we returned baq 2 ship soon aft dat.
yeahh.den visted e foto gallery.
cos lotsa photographers here n dere.
takin pic mahz.mine looks quit nice [ego]
sorry to sae tt.ahha.family one oso chio enuff.
but damn ex lorh.
fancy payin $10 fer a foto or a keychain.
whihc is nt tt beeg wadd?
haiks.else i wldnt mind buy8in if it was i lil cheaper.
yepp.went 4 Gala Dinner at nitezx.
so freakin formal.
e angmohs were wearin tie[man] n shwal[women]
mk us feel so low class dere.whoops.we din noe wadd =|
nemind.it wasnt dat badd.cos we went to e chinese instead of western.
heex.so okie la.den partied in e nite till abt 2am??
woahh.ferst time in century slp so late wake up so early.
ahhahh.e1 was like dancing.but i wasnt lah.
hee.wasnt supporty at all.*shakes head*
we won a champange.cos of my cousins.
yessh.dressed sth into Cesar.lalala.cutee.
shudnt haf gone sumhow.
as in me..cos of my age lahh.
under 12 one category. abv 18 e other.
wondere wad dey expect e others to do..
kids--> child care adults--> casino.
ntg really caters 4 my age loh..
toally.so i always v extra.those of my same agn grp din go mahs.
haiyohs.so dao mei cann?
wadever lahh.it wasnt tt bad being alone sumhow.
10 Sep [wed]
all day in sea..
hmms.ntg to do..cept 4 sum hawaii stuff.
went to jog in e mornign.
wif my plum cousin.
din noe she cld actually run.
tink shes better dan my bro.haha.
i ran 10rnds.on top deck.
cos i felt bad nt trng on tues.
n legs start to ache whenever im short of trng le
wth.nemind.at least i ran a lil rite??
yeaps.played Bingo.. [gambled]
ahhha.as only a no.to bingo lorh.
den sumone else muz win.
haiyohs,so cham.gt haf won dunoe how much larh.
nvm.was only a game.but muz pay $12.50
woww.oso nt i pay one.lalala.
kids wenta swim.
uhmm.i din bring swimsuit.
so juz sat dere.lked aft belongings
nt fun at all.erts.20mins lehh.
so bored lorhh.no one to tok to oso.
cant sms or anytg.haiks.*shakes head*
n 4 dat.i kana sunburnt.
face turn red..alamak.mk my face so itcky..
den scratch lk like monkey.*grins*
doenoe wadda sae leh.hehx.
uhh.packed our baggae n gt ready to leave liao.
sarted missin e cruise.ahah.how lame can i get??
tinkin of my frens.den wanted to get baq to s'pore asap le
dinner was chao rushh.
no one wenta check.ended up only havin 10 mins to eat
waokaoox.i was like practically forcing etg to my mouth???
all restauranst were closed left buffet only.
entered at abt 5.50pm.was closin at 6pm.
woahh lorhh.cant stand dat time.
n dey were chasing us out wn we havent finsihed our food,
haik.but oso cant blame em
cos we din check e time properly.
took abt an hr to clear e immigration thingy
nt long at all wad.nt stuffy at all wadd.
haiyohss.went hm after tt.
n i had 'roadsick'
ahha.wad logic rite??
realy lorh.v long nt on e road mahh.on sea.
ahaha.mk a itsy bitsy sense.lalalala.
n phone kp ringin e min i reached hm.
ahahhahaha.slp at 10pm.
*yawns*
n sad to find out tt e trip to sentosa was cancelled.ughh.
sadd... was kinda lkin forward to it :(
but at least i haf a day more to do my hw.
heeheehehee.gd n bad lahh.
okies.todae managed to finish at least half e work.
but only to find out dat dere hellalot of maths to do
cos i missed e lesson on mon.wthh.
allot lehh.my god lor.wonder how long i wld ever tk to complete it.
erpx.did art liao.*claps*turned out quite nice la.
hhhahaha. :P
n i cooked my one dish meal 4 homec e 2nd time.
yay!!bang!!! successful le.
woahh.yumms.only short of fishcake.
din haf it at home mah
but can do wifout it.
bro said it improved.yeshh.:)
goes to show tt my cookin isnt tt bad afterall uh?
ahaha.nt too worried anymore.
but scared nt enuff time only.
yahh.tk so freag long to cut half a carrot.
10min leh.ahaha.as if i wld b given so much time,
n i cheeky added 1 full spoon of lemon chili.
tian arhh.gt my deserts.
face turn red n started tearin.
nt hot at all wadd.
drink 3 glasses of water oso no use.
ahha.started sniffin away.thnks 2 myself lahh.
wadever..learnt my lesson liao.hahz.
shall continue muggin once agnn..
gt a long list more to go..hmm.
hope i can complete it.
startin to worry.
afraid i'll slack..
realli.. wad if i reali do le?
results like shit lidat how?? =/
wells.wanna do well.hu dun wan rite?
sighh.beter buck up lynette.
haiyohs.no comments larhh.
my holidays arent holidays.
cept fer e ferst 4 days.hahaha
wn i gt to relax n thots flew free.
a gd experience i muz admit,,
yepps.mugging time..
happy holidays ple.. :D
oh yarhh.jie..take care of urself loadies uh?
please lorhh.dun b so sadd.
rumours arent true.e1 noes dat.
only so gulible ple will belive it ok..
n those nt in favour of u too.
so please.cheer up lahh.
no use gettin so fan over tis.
i noe its nt easy..
i've gone thru this b4 wadd.
twice in fact.
yepps.i rather u tk care of urslef.
den worry all day long..
till hair turn white how??
u always dere wn im feeling down.
at least mots of e time lahh.
so now its my turn to repay tis beeg favour.
please girll.dun frown yea?
no tinkin allowed.
juz like wad u told me once..
u told me to let it go n only tink of it aft CT
now its really ur turn.
give both of urslef sumtime gall.
im sure u're up to it..
relax.kp it to aft streaming..times flies.tt u noe..
it b over in a twinkle
trust me..i wun set any deadline.
cos it most probably mk things worst only mahh
tt time..yahh.wadever.dun wish to bring unyappy memories upp.
so al i can tell u is nt to tink abt it..
mugg more.u've gt ur streamin.
u belive in urself.u noe u wanmna do well n mk it up dere.
uhh.yesshh.i cant gif u anytg more den juz my ears n shoulders n care.
im sorry alhh.wadver u wann.
juz cum to me oke?
im sure to be here 4 u always.i promise.
i gurantee u.u will feel beter lettin etg out..
tho u nt one who reli confides.
but uhmm.yahh.try to let it out.
it better.reli.muz trsut mei rte??
as i said.i went thru it b4 *winks*
yepps.take care thses few days.
wun b seein u till sat le.
erps.nemind.daoing doesnt help.tt's all i can say.
no position to convince u to do anytg.
juz belive in urself.
follow ur heart.go where u realli belong.
smile lahh.chio-er wadd
rather see e hyperific u den e gloomy n badmoddin u.
yesshh.reli cute to c u smile. like tis :D rmber homerun.
laalala.smiel kayy.nt e fake one.e genuine one.heex.
tc loadies.rmber:im always here hors.
will put my stuff down if im reli busy juz fer u.smile more
the girl next door;
Sunday, September 07, 2003
its reli early rite nw..bahh.n here i am bloggin.
wadever laa.yeshh.got lotsa sayy.perhaps my last words.
crapp kayy.erts! =|
trng ydae was rather funn i muz admit..
quite bang in fact.wasnt tt strenous
n tought as i expected.
was more den funn.hee hee :)
my sumhow..my entire body seems 2 b aching rite nw..
haiyohs.perhaps din do cool-down tt's y.
yeshh.den went JP 4 lunch wif jie n hweeboon.
uhmm.dunoe wadda sae abt tt..
both of em mk me feel so paiseh,
ewkks!! n dey happily send tis sms 2 *ahem.
wth lorh.*tsk* its reli nt bcos of her tt i chng ok!!!
i better clarify here.erpz... =/
pls dun ged e rong ides hor... thankw
we went home aft tt..veh fast one..uhh.yarhh
tk a shower n started muggin..
all e way.. 4 freag long hrs..
yepp.quite n achievement i suppose.
*claps* but still feel shi bai lah.
results havent been gd..
tt's a fact i cant deny..
i walys havent been consistent either..
4eva flungin my papers.
juzz wonder how many more steps to ged As???
*sighh* im juz nt gd enuff 2 deserve it i guess.
din noe y i strted driftin in e midst.
i juz thought.n thought.
endless thoughts juz swam thru my mind.
puttin a halt 2 my studiess.
i cldnt concentrate..
i felt fan. wanted 2 let out e'tg.
but sighh.cldnt.juz let myself to tearr.
suddenly juz gt tis yi yi bu she de feelin 2 leave
wn i havent even left yett.haiks.
e missin of my fresn juz flowed thru me..
alamak.wad e heck is this lorhh.
juz dun feel like goin anymore..
feel lyk stayin here in spore.at least ged 2 tok 2 my fren
scullie go dere.suffer fr s'pore sick den i noe lahh
how am i suppose 2 enjoy myself when im aching n sick???
no enjoymeny at all loh.
haiyahs.juz goin 4 e sake of it only.
if u ask me..seriously i rather stay in s'pore.reallie..
tink i suffered e most ydae..
i din noe y..
i simply wanted 2 tok to sumone..
but no one called.. so i juz toked to myself..
byt wrting e'tg out on paper..
noe its lamee.its suposed to help me fa xie.
but it din do any help at all.
i was still tinkin..abt...*
haiks..i reli donoe wadda do le..
suddenly feel so demoraelised,depressed n e'tg
n its only a few hours n i will leave..
want 2 see her 4 e last time.. :|
*cries* this trip to i dunoe where.
hope it'll bring my soul to sumwhre.
where troubles seem 2 disappear.
n wn im baq.i pray.reli hard..
to b e merry-go-happy lynette i once was..
i reli do hope so..i dun wanna suffer fr anymore depression liao.
let my troubles ran away fr free.
hopefullyy..e'tg gets better as days goes by..
while i simply continue wishing upon a star.
4 a miracle to happen.
4 another start 2 find me..
or else.i doubt i'll ever live in e same world as b4... :(
i reli wonder..y on earth am i feelin tis way..
everyone says dey'll b dere wn im feelin down.
n yet.. ydae.. i was all alone..
in this isloated place --> my room.
felt as tho no one reli bothered or cared..
abt how i really feel deep down inside..
*sighh* usually recieve a few calls a dae.
but ydae.nt even one.. was reli v diff.
sumtimes i muz admit.im annoyed wif e no. of calls.
cos dey call at e wrong time..
but juz wn i needed sumone to listen to my troubles i all along bottled in me..
no one was arnd...all i noe was im alone...
so saddening.but its alritex.guess i juz hafta suffer in silence as usual.
haiyohs.life's nt gettin any better.n i simply dread a min goin outta here.
dere are sum things which i've kept in me 4 a realli long timee
i wonder if its time to let it out???
but to who? i question..
dere isnt sumone suitable i can itnk of..
e day she left me..life seems so different.i reli gt no idea to y?
anyways.i shant gif a damn..
i dun even haf a say.. in my freedom.i cant choose.
i wanna relax myself.nt tinkin abt anytg else.
but juz HOLIDAYYY
sighh.tt's sth i tink wld b a moracle if i can do dat.
*sniff* feelin so ...... inside.doenoe how to put tis in words..
nemind.shall juz gf tis up..
n carry on wif my "slendifirous beautiful" life..
life is perfect.. no one has a better life den me...
yepps.everyone agrees wif dat.hah. =S
dun balme me if im a changed person.cos i gt ntg to comment on dat.
shall juz continue wearin dat mask of mine..
changin as e days seems to drfit by..
im nt too sure.how im gonna react.
but all i noe.. is tt i needed a shoulder to cry on...
i need sumone's love
i needed sumone 2 hold e sky
i needed sumone to cry wif me
but as i said.all are impossible.
no one seems 2 b as compassionate.
its okayy.shal juz comforted myself..
b e victim n e helper..
wadever.. shall juz continue to rott.
in tis wonderful life i've nv had b4.
.... .... .. .. ... ..... .... ...
im missing everyone rite now..
reali am..
as thoughts n truth continue to daunt me..
i still mis u ple..
all are impt in my life.esp... *
okies.wadever.shall stop being so crappy.
yepps.love u ple..*muacks*
*cries* reli wishh 2 bring u wif me.... :'(
take care yarhh??? i noe it doesnt mk a diff if im arnd u ple anotx..
yeshh.but juz to let u noe.. im always here 4 you...
sayonara..hope to see u ple soon..
-no matter wad happens 2 u,dere are forces in e world dat will support u.if u belive in e goodness of e world,it'll b dere fer u,even in hard times-
wadever laa.yeshh.got lotsa sayy.perhaps my last words.
crapp kayy.erts! =|
trng ydae was rather funn i muz admit..
quite bang in fact.wasnt tt strenous
n tought as i expected.
was more den funn.hee hee :)
my sumhow..my entire body seems 2 b aching rite nw..
haiyohs.perhaps din do cool-down tt's y.
yeshh.den went JP 4 lunch wif jie n hweeboon.
uhmm.dunoe wadda sae abt tt..
both of em mk me feel so paiseh,
ewkks!! n dey happily send tis sms 2 *ahem.
wth lorh.*tsk* its reli nt bcos of her tt i chng ok!!!
i better clarify here.erpz... =/
pls dun ged e rong ides hor... thankw
we went home aft tt..veh fast one..uhh.yarhh
tk a shower n started muggin..
all e way.. 4 freag long hrs..
yepp.quite n achievement i suppose.
*claps* but still feel shi bai lah.
results havent been gd..
tt's a fact i cant deny..
i walys havent been consistent either..
4eva flungin my papers.
juzz wonder how many more steps to ged As???
*sighh* im juz nt gd enuff 2 deserve it i guess.
din noe y i strted driftin in e midst.
i juz thought.n thought.
endless thoughts juz swam thru my mind.
puttin a halt 2 my studiess.
i cldnt concentrate..
i felt fan. wanted 2 let out e'tg.
but sighh.cldnt.juz let myself to tearr.
suddenly juz gt tis yi yi bu she de feelin 2 leave
wn i havent even left yett.haiks.
e missin of my fresn juz flowed thru me..
alamak.wad e heck is this lorhh.
juz dun feel like goin anymore..
feel lyk stayin here in spore.at least ged 2 tok 2 my fren
scullie go dere.suffer fr s'pore sick den i noe lahh
how am i suppose 2 enjoy myself when im aching n sick???
no enjoymeny at all loh.
haiyahs.juz goin 4 e sake of it only.
if u ask me..seriously i rather stay in s'pore.reallie..
tink i suffered e most ydae..
i din noe y..
i simply wanted 2 tok to sumone..
but no one called.. so i juz toked to myself..
byt wrting e'tg out on paper..
noe its lamee.its suposed to help me fa xie.
but it din do any help at all.
i was still tinkin..abt...*
haiks..i reli donoe wadda do le..
suddenly feel so demoraelised,depressed n e'tg
n its only a few hours n i will leave..
want 2 see her 4 e last time.. :|
*cries* this trip to i dunoe where.
hope it'll bring my soul to sumwhre.
where troubles seem 2 disappear.
n wn im baq.i pray.reli hard..
to b e merry-go-happy lynette i once was..
i reli do hope so..i dun wanna suffer fr anymore depression liao.
let my troubles ran away fr free.
hopefullyy..e'tg gets better as days goes by..
while i simply continue wishing upon a star.
4 a miracle to happen.
4 another start 2 find me..
or else.i doubt i'll ever live in e same world as b4... :(
i reli wonder..y on earth am i feelin tis way..
everyone says dey'll b dere wn im feelin down.
n yet.. ydae.. i was all alone..
in this isloated place --> my room.
felt as tho no one reli bothered or cared..
abt how i really feel deep down inside..
*sighh* usually recieve a few calls a dae.
but ydae.nt even one.. was reli v diff.
sumtimes i muz admit.im annoyed wif e no. of calls.
cos dey call at e wrong time..
but juz wn i needed sumone to listen to my troubles i all along bottled in me..
no one was arnd...all i noe was im alone...
so saddening.but its alritex.guess i juz hafta suffer in silence as usual.
haiyohs.life's nt gettin any better.n i simply dread a min goin outta here.
dere are sum things which i've kept in me 4 a realli long timee
i wonder if its time to let it out???
but to who? i question..
dere isnt sumone suitable i can itnk of..
e day she left me..life seems so different.i reli gt no idea to y?
anyways.i shant gif a damn..
i dun even haf a say.. in my freedom.i cant choose.
i wanna relax myself.nt tinkin abt anytg else.
but juz HOLIDAYYY
sighh.tt's sth i tink wld b a moracle if i can do dat.
*sniff* feelin so ...... inside.doenoe how to put tis in words..
nemind.shall juz gf tis up..
n carry on wif my "slendifirous beautiful" life..
life is perfect.. no one has a better life den me...
yepps.everyone agrees wif dat.hah. =S
dun balme me if im a changed person.cos i gt ntg to comment on dat.
shall juz continue wearin dat mask of mine..
changin as e days seems to drfit by..
im nt too sure.how im gonna react.
but all i noe.. is tt i needed a shoulder to cry on...
i need sumone's love
i needed sumone 2 hold e sky
i needed sumone to cry wif me
but as i said.all are impossible.
no one seems 2 b as compassionate.
its okayy.shal juz comforted myself..
b e victim n e helper..
wadever.. shall juz continue to rott.
in tis wonderful life i've nv had b4.
.... .... .. .. ... ..... .... ...
im missing everyone rite now..
reali am..
as thoughts n truth continue to daunt me..
i still mis u ple..
all are impt in my life.esp... *
okies.wadever.shall stop being so crappy.
yepps.love u ple..*muacks*
*cries* reli wishh 2 bring u wif me.... :'(
take care yarhh??? i noe it doesnt mk a diff if im arnd u ple anotx..
yeshh.but juz to let u noe.. im always here 4 you...
sayonara..hope to see u ple soon..
-no matter wad happens 2 u,dere are forces in e world dat will support u.if u belive in e goodness of e world,it'll b dere fer u,even in hard times-
the girl next door;
Friday, September 05, 2003
ponned maths class 2dae juz 2 c a doc.
ahhh.but nemind.dey said it was boring anw.
n guess i din miss much lahs
was feelin damn sick lorh.*sniff*
used 2 pkts of tissues.til my nose so red.
hahahaha.cogh cough cough e hole dae.
yepps.den gt headache.n i started bad-mooding
all thx 2 yining lah.go pass me e flu.
*argh*haha,haf been blamin u since wed.lalalalala :)
mk me tk disgustin medicine.
totaly horrid cann? EWKK!
but hu likes medicine muz b a real physcho
haha.no offence.5 kinds le.
wth.so yucks.mk mi life so xing ku.
*sighh* dun wana tk e medicine nemoore.
dreads it like anytg rite nw ok.
imagine eating 5 at one short!!!mytian.
den all so bitter summore.yuxyuxyux. :P
fine lahh.shant tok abt medicine.mk u all more sick only.
hah.*ahem* feelin so dead.
but aft tis must continue muggin le.
slack so freag much,
n got baq my maths paper.
mk me feel so chao demoraelised.
tink im 2nd fr e back of my class kayy,
wth.e1 was complainin abt thier results
y ms habeebah -3 marks.
say if nt can ged A1 liaox.
n me.sat at table n stone.
at most can only wish 4 a B3 / A2
*sighh* totallie shi-bai cann???
so failure.i've nv done so badly in my maths b4.
even Sar gt 32 le.sigh sigh sigh
guess she muz haf stardied reli hard..
doeno wadda sae abt me lahh.
but e only thing im damn statisfied is homec
tink it rawks man.tho ple dun like it.
cos i did pretty well in it wadd.hee -ego-
yeshh.so tt e only thing gt A1 so far.hmms.-happy- :)
juz feelin damn stressed lately.
yepp.but i shant elaborate abt it.
tho im nt supposed 2 b broodin abt such stuff.
-shakes head-
haiyohs.goin on a hol on sun.till wed.
3 days gone juz lidat.
im gonna miss all my frens.cant kp in contact summore.
n i wun b able 2 mug.
den cum my exams.results wld totali b bad kayy,
at e rate im at now.reli no comments la.
thurs gt "council camp" at sentosa.
yeahhh.so left wif fri onli.
tt dae i tink i will mug fr morning till nite man.
reli lorh.i mean it kaes.cos i tink i nowadays oso dunoe y gt no md to do lotsa stuff.
yarhh.so suckkyy lah.
gt so many things 2 b done this hol.n its only 1wk ok!!!
tink i super woman ah.will b able 2 complete etg
i reli donoe lahh.damn mang jiu dui le lah.
aiyahs.havnt decided whether 2 go trng anotx tmr.
but if i dun go...scared sir ged e rong idea agn
n lin too.i havent been attending his trngs.mk me feel so guilty.
n dey always do hurdles.n i wanna learn!!!
i wana do hurdles okie!
so i shall juz go lahh.since its e last trng aftrall.
altho im still sick.i dun gif a damn lahh.
n most bcum more sick only wadd.
i din tell my mum.bet she wun allow me 2 go if i were 2 say i was goin 4 trng.
wil juz say goin 2 skl.n hope she dun probes.hee -cheeky-
cant help being so ... wad.let dunno hellalot of ple down liao.
n i cant afford 2 mk e same mistakes.
yepps.n im determined to buck up kayy.
track wise.n results wise.
wad is doen cant be undone.
so wells.guesss i juz hafta buck up lorh.
mugg harder.
tire myself out.
n if i still cant ged wad i deserve 2 ged.
*faints* owell.den dun tink i can do anytg lorh.
sighh.life totallie nt sucky at all wadd.
so sian man.nose irritatin me agn.wth.
wadever lahh.feel as tho im juz gona slp n die.
hah.wad crap is tt.
voice so nt sound like me.
gt sore thraot.den doc say gt slight fever summore.
okie.nemind.dun even tink i will enjoy my tis sep hol lahh.
sick where gt fun liao.
n e min skl reopens will b el exam veh quickly one.
yepp.my term 3 was totally slack.
so i cam let history repeats itself lorh.
uh-huh.wad can i say lahh.
*yawns* e medicine makin me so sleepy.
but i cant slp.lynette muz go on.
must go study.cannot slack anymore liaoo.
i wana study til late tonite.
but tmr trng at 8.30 le.so freag early leh.
so see how larh.see my mood.
feel so tite deep down inside lorh.
like all e past memories kp appearin whnever im reli in2 sth.
haiyohs.haikx.haiyahs.
so sick of tis kayy.ahahaha.crap larhh.
ohyarhh.btw.hope u managed 2 complete ur homec ppj in time.yeshh.tho e websites i gave u dun seem 2 b much of a help fer ya but yarhh.nemind larhhx.take care loadies.smile :D
ahhh.but nemind.dey said it was boring anw.
n guess i din miss much lahs
was feelin damn sick lorh.*sniff*
used 2 pkts of tissues.til my nose so red.
hahahaha.cogh cough cough e hole dae.
yepps.den gt headache.n i started bad-mooding
all thx 2 yining lah.go pass me e flu.
*argh*haha,haf been blamin u since wed.lalalalala :)
mk me tk disgustin medicine.
totaly horrid cann? EWKK!
but hu likes medicine muz b a real physcho
haha.no offence.5 kinds le.
wth.so yucks.mk mi life so xing ku.
*sighh* dun wana tk e medicine nemoore.
dreads it like anytg rite nw ok.
imagine eating 5 at one short!!!mytian.
den all so bitter summore.yuxyuxyux. :P
fine lahh.shant tok abt medicine.mk u all more sick only.
hah.*ahem* feelin so dead.
but aft tis must continue muggin le.
slack so freag much,
n got baq my maths paper.
mk me feel so chao demoraelised.
tink im 2nd fr e back of my class kayy,
wth.e1 was complainin abt thier results
y ms habeebah -3 marks.
say if nt can ged A1 liaox.
n me.sat at table n stone.
at most can only wish 4 a B3 / A2
*sighh* totallie shi-bai cann???
so failure.i've nv done so badly in my maths b4.
even Sar gt 32 le.sigh sigh sigh
guess she muz haf stardied reli hard..
doeno wadda sae abt me lahh.
but e only thing im damn statisfied is homec
tink it rawks man.tho ple dun like it.
cos i did pretty well in it wadd.hee -ego-
yeshh.so tt e only thing gt A1 so far.hmms.-happy- :)
juz feelin damn stressed lately.
yepp.but i shant elaborate abt it.
tho im nt supposed 2 b broodin abt such stuff.
-shakes head-
haiyohs.goin on a hol on sun.till wed.
3 days gone juz lidat.
im gonna miss all my frens.cant kp in contact summore.
n i wun b able 2 mug.
den cum my exams.results wld totali b bad kayy,
at e rate im at now.reli no comments la.
thurs gt "council camp" at sentosa.
yeahhh.so left wif fri onli.
tt dae i tink i will mug fr morning till nite man.
reli lorh.i mean it kaes.cos i tink i nowadays oso dunoe y gt no md to do lotsa stuff.
yarhh.so suckkyy lah.
gt so many things 2 b done this hol.n its only 1wk ok!!!
tink i super woman ah.will b able 2 complete etg
i reli donoe lahh.damn mang jiu dui le lah.
aiyahs.havnt decided whether 2 go trng anotx tmr.
but if i dun go...scared sir ged e rong idea agn
n lin too.i havent been attending his trngs.mk me feel so guilty.
n dey always do hurdles.n i wanna learn!!!
i wana do hurdles okie!
so i shall juz go lahh.since its e last trng aftrall.
altho im still sick.i dun gif a damn lahh.
n most bcum more sick only wadd.
i din tell my mum.bet she wun allow me 2 go if i were 2 say i was goin 4 trng.
wil juz say goin 2 skl.n hope she dun probes.hee -cheeky-
cant help being so ... wad.let dunno hellalot of ple down liao.
n i cant afford 2 mk e same mistakes.
yepps.n im determined to buck up kayy.
track wise.n results wise.
wad is doen cant be undone.
so wells.guesss i juz hafta buck up lorh.
mugg harder.
tire myself out.
n if i still cant ged wad i deserve 2 ged.
*faints* owell.den dun tink i can do anytg lorh.
sighh.life totallie nt sucky at all wadd.
so sian man.nose irritatin me agn.wth.
wadever lahh.feel as tho im juz gona slp n die.
hah.wad crap is tt.
voice so nt sound like me.
gt sore thraot.den doc say gt slight fever summore.
okie.nemind.dun even tink i will enjoy my tis sep hol lahh.
sick where gt fun liao.
n e min skl reopens will b el exam veh quickly one.
yepp.my term 3 was totally slack.
so i cam let history repeats itself lorh.
uh-huh.wad can i say lahh.
*yawns* e medicine makin me so sleepy.
but i cant slp.lynette muz go on.
must go study.cannot slack anymore liaoo.
i wana study til late tonite.
but tmr trng at 8.30 le.so freag early leh.
so see how larh.see my mood.
feel so tite deep down inside lorh.
like all e past memories kp appearin whnever im reli in2 sth.
haiyohs.haikx.haiyahs.
so sick of tis kayy.ahahaha.crap larhh.
ohyarhh.btw.hope u managed 2 complete ur homec ppj in time.yeshh.tho e websites i gave u dun seem 2 b much of a help fer ya but yarhh.nemind larhhx.take care loadies.smile :D
the girl next door;
Monday, September 01, 2003
ahhaha.todae tchers dayy.uhmm.den public hol.
so wells.guess we juz hafta take a break.
did my homec ppj.rushed thru it.erts.totalie sucked.yucks!!!
prepared e beehoon.ferst time le.
successful tho.*clapsclaps*
it tasted quite goody tho..yepp.i rawk la.
-nt ego at all wadd- hahahaha *grins*
yinxi came over to my house.yepps.had loads of fun.
promised myself to study in order to buck up.
but i din kayy, how saddening.
was fooling arnd most of e time.
woahh lorhs.*tsktsk*
lynette so shi-bai lahh.
time n time n agn.aww.
*sighh*went beneath my hse to stardiee.
sat at bench.cldnt concentrate kaes.
wif me sms-ing all e wae..
ahahah.but i can multi task lahh.
juz tt gt no md to mugg only,.
wif yx arnd ahh.wells.hahaha.
she n her ego-ism.
4eva sayin thankw thankw.hahahaha :P
my jie so..erts.haha... no offence horx.
n half e time was teasing her abt *ahem* mwahahaha
cam abt 12++ den mug till abt 3++
achievement *clapsclaps*
but i'vfe yet to complete my hw yet.mytian.still gt cheena.
*arghhs*nemind.can juz rush thur aft this.
uhmm.we gave up after a whiel lah.
so returned hm lorh.yeshh.n decided to go jp.
heehee ;0 juz did any'tg in order to escape muggin.
lalalala.hee hee.lynny so pro.harharhar.
tk bus dere.n yx was tokin abt my bufdae celebration.
sae haf it at my hse.but she will plan everytg.
wad --> LTBO (Lynette Tan Bufdae Organisation)
ahhhah.but sounds like Lynette Tan Body Odour.
mwahahahah.so lameo.im so crappified. :P
okie.jie u can continue plannin it kayy.
but muz tell me abt e plans.
no surprises ah. *shakes head*
roamed arnd jp.roamed arnd 3 level twice
haha.wenta gif a name shop i tink.
den she made tis keychain fer me.
woahh lorh.so chio man.love it love it.
falls in love at ferst sight.damn bang kae.
jie is e best.n tt's my burdae pressie.hee *winks*
den wanted 2 tk neoprints.
but queue damn long.
so decided gif it a miss.yepp.
toured arnd.feeling hungry,so ate crepes.
yumyum.so nicee.so shuang kuai.lalala.
oohh.todae juz a GREAT dae.oh my...
went popular.n 37 degrees.
decided to check out e neoprint shop agn.
tis time no one.so wenta take.
5 bucks.cheaper den heeren.
whoops! e neoprint.
woohoo.chio si ren.totallie.
juz tt i wasnt lkin at cam.:( bahh.nemind lah.
but e bg nt tt nice kayy,damn limited.
but nvm..gt 2 chiobus to mk it chio-er
mwahaha *egoistic*
lalala.im so hyped up todae.
life's so beautiful TODAE only i guess
heehehee. ;)
ohwells.how i wish i wish i wish.
tt everydae cld b liddat.
but guess.muz juz continue to wish upon a star.
yeps.lemme list down my wishes:
1.ged back wif [her]
2.do well in my yr-end exams
3.cope all track.council.hse well enuff
4.new pencil case.wallet.waterbottle
5.haf surprises cumin up
6.go out wif frens more often
7.smile more often.tc of myself.dun kp e'tg inside (tis one quite hard)
8.be chio-er.mwahaha.tis one nt counted lahh *winks*
ohwells.guess tt's abt it.gt summore actualie lah.
but lazee to list it out..hmm. :)
okies.shall go now..lalala.hyepr hyper hyper.
lynny must smile more.else ple say tings agn.
-parents can only gif advice or put em on e rite paths,but e final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands-
so wells.guess we juz hafta take a break.
did my homec ppj.rushed thru it.erts.totalie sucked.yucks!!!
prepared e beehoon.ferst time le.
successful tho.*clapsclaps*
it tasted quite goody tho..yepp.i rawk la.
-nt ego at all wadd- hahahaha *grins*
yinxi came over to my house.yepps.had loads of fun.
promised myself to study in order to buck up.
but i din kayy, how saddening.
was fooling arnd most of e time.
woahh lorhs.*tsktsk*
lynette so shi-bai lahh.
time n time n agn.aww.
*sighh*went beneath my hse to stardiee.
sat at bench.cldnt concentrate kaes.
wif me sms-ing all e wae..
ahahah.but i can multi task lahh.
juz tt gt no md to mugg only,.
wif yx arnd ahh.wells.hahaha.
she n her ego-ism.
4eva sayin thankw thankw.hahahaha :P
my jie so..erts.haha... no offence horx.
n half e time was teasing her abt *ahem* mwahahaha
cam abt 12++ den mug till abt 3++
achievement *clapsclaps*
but i'vfe yet to complete my hw yet.mytian.still gt cheena.
*arghhs*nemind.can juz rush thur aft this.
uhmm.we gave up after a whiel lah.
so returned hm lorh.yeshh.n decided to go jp.
heehee ;0 juz did any'tg in order to escape muggin.
lalalala.hee hee.lynny so pro.harharhar.
tk bus dere.n yx was tokin abt my bufdae celebration.
sae haf it at my hse.but she will plan everytg.
wad --> LTBO (Lynette Tan Bufdae Organisation)
ahhhah.but sounds like Lynette Tan Body Odour.
mwahahahah.so lameo.im so crappified. :P
okie.jie u can continue plannin it kayy.
but muz tell me abt e plans.
no surprises ah. *shakes head*
roamed arnd jp.roamed arnd 3 level twice
haha.wenta gif a name shop i tink.
den she made tis keychain fer me.
woahh lorh.so chio man.love it love it.
falls in love at ferst sight.damn bang kae.
jie is e best.n tt's my burdae pressie.hee *winks*
den wanted 2 tk neoprints.
but queue damn long.
so decided gif it a miss.yepp.
toured arnd.feeling hungry,so ate crepes.
yumyum.so nicee.so shuang kuai.lalala.
oohh.todae juz a GREAT dae.oh my...
went popular.n 37 degrees.
decided to check out e neoprint shop agn.
tis time no one.so wenta take.
5 bucks.cheaper den heeren.
whoops! e neoprint.
woohoo.chio si ren.totallie.
juz tt i wasnt lkin at cam.:( bahh.nemind lah.
but e bg nt tt nice kayy,damn limited.
but nvm..gt 2 chiobus to mk it chio-er
mwahaha *egoistic*
lalala.im so hyped up todae.
life's so beautiful TODAE only i guess
heehehee. ;)
ohwells.how i wish i wish i wish.
tt everydae cld b liddat.
but guess.muz juz continue to wish upon a star.
yeps.lemme list down my wishes:
1.ged back wif [her]
2.do well in my yr-end exams
3.cope all track.council.hse well enuff
4.new pencil case.wallet.waterbottle
5.haf surprises cumin up
6.go out wif frens more often
7.smile more often.tc of myself.dun kp e'tg inside (tis one quite hard)
8.be chio-er.mwahaha.tis one nt counted lahh *winks*
ohwells.guess tt's abt it.gt summore actualie lah.
but lazee to list it out..hmm. :)
okies.shall go now..lalala.hyepr hyper hyper.
lynny must smile more.else ple say tings agn.
-parents can only gif advice or put em on e rite paths,but e final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands-
the girl next door;
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