my dirty little secrets.
Monday, December 29, 2003
yawns.im super sleepy'_'
was hoping to catch up on my slp todae.
den daddy woke me up so early.sians.
nw im so friggin lethargic.half asleep.
came back not say very late last nite la.
but over at bangkok.
was lik slp at 12(bkk time) den wake up at 6.
theirs is one hr behind us.
yarhh.so i gt damn lil slp.yupp.
first day on xmas eve.reached at 1 lorh.
den by e time settle down 3 liao.
muz wake up at 6.so lik totally no time for rest.haik.
sumtimes tts e worst ting abt holidays.bahh =/
u noe i tis kind slp damn l0ng one.heh
day 2.went floating market n chao praya river.
very hot lorh.den the boat so rickety one.
okie.tink i full of complains lor.tsktsk.
aiyah.den went wat arun temple n four buddah face.
yepp.got long long history kaes.
n i listen to e tour guide till i feel aslp on e coach.
haha.so pigg..bleah. :))
proceeded to the tiger zoo after tt.
was quite a long journey alrite.
as usual i feel aslp.
cos the coaxh ar.make me so drowsy one.eh.
the tigers are so cutee kies.
but i din dare to touch it still.
its lik the pigs.dogs.tigers all livin tgt.
yupp.so unusual.den tigers feed on pigs' milk.
hahha.cool ehs? =)
uhh.got some crocodile show.damn freaky.
imagine puttin ur head into e crocodile.
yucks.yuck.aft it eats ur head.haha.
went pattaya aft tt.2 hrs journey.
so bored in teh coach lorh.so sleep agn.
went shopping at nite den went back hotel.
the hotel was super rundown.
etg was so old n dirty.sighs.
only e bed was nice.hah.slpt very well at hotels.
day 3.was a exciting day lah.hee.
went para-sailing.woo.so fun.abit scary la.
in the sky.look down so afraid i wld fall into e sea n die.
blahh.tokin nonsense lah pls.
den coral island sat banana boat.
hahahah.so fun fun fun.
dey purposely mk u fall into the sea.
very cold.grr.n e water super salty.
e1 was coughin when dey got up.
but it was nice lah.very cold only larh.
teh sand over there was so fine..
so i decieded to walk bare-foot.
n i got all wet.cos i played wf e water.heh.
so went back hotel ferst.to shower.
den go Nong Nooch Village.
see so folk dance n elephant show.
wasnt that bad lah.
but i fell sick aft going to coral island.
so i wasnt enjoyin atg at all.
felt so uncomfortable.since i was sick afterall.bleah.
so the whole day i was kinda grouchy n moody.
day 4.went to dreamworld.whee.teh rides very bang one.
but only had abt 2 hrs to sit etg lor.
totally not enuff kays.
cos teh queue for etg was damn damn long.
den ended up the ride lik only 1-2 mintes.
sians man.sat the super splash.got all drenced.
soaking to teh skin.but very fun lah.
n my dad was kind of obliged to sit e hanging roler coaster.
cos afraid my bro was very scared.
den aft tt.he felt nausea n etg.
n summore all his organs were misplaced..
haha.thats was he claims.but obv nt true la.hee.
uhmm.went chatuchak later.weekend market.
got over 9000 shops.wow.very crowded.
can get lost easily one.but dere were lotsa tgs over dere.
all for shopping one lah.
den was maboonkrong.e biggest shopping centre.
we all bought hellalot of tgs.bcos dere was so much to buy.
but among em.i was the one who spent e most.
i bought so many tgs.actually mostly clothes la.
yupp.in the nite went patong.ntg much lor.
quite boring.was more conscious of the ple arnd dere only.
all very bian tai one.so scary.
den only my sis n i went mah.so even more not safe.
n sum idiot scared me wif a fake snake.
bahh.i was lik so freaked out.gee.
we were already back in bangkok.
so the hotel so much nicer kay..
bed was lik gold in colour??
so shiok.teh pillow oso nice.
etg oso nice lah.better den e one at pattaya.haha. =p
day 5.not much time left to shop lorh.
cos we hata leave at 12.30 wadd.
so very lil time to shop oso.
juz go all the nike n sports shop n pack up liao.
yeahh.the trip passed so fast kay.
it din even feel lik 5 days le..
sighs.but perhaps i rather i came back sooner.
cos e air there was super dirty n dry.
make my lips crack n skin peel n so cringed up.
haikx.i got reali so much probs lorh.tsk.
up to now.im stil sick.yikes.
but i may swim or run ltr la.
cos i havent trained at all.
im sure my stamina n speed dropped damn alot.
tmr still have trng i tink??
dunnoe la.n i oso dunno whtr to go notx.
but i shudd.since so long no train liao.
but only afraid to lagg behind.sigh.
i dowan trng.for once..?
hope trng in e afternn.but i doubt so lah.
haix.reli dunnoe la.see can wake up first not.
haiyo.im really tired n sleepy.
n dere.s no one at hm cept me.k.
this is eerie.bleah.sigh.im so lei..=//
was hoping to catch up on my slp todae.
den daddy woke me up so early.sians.
nw im so friggin lethargic.half asleep.
came back not say very late last nite la.
but over at bangkok.
was lik slp at 12(bkk time) den wake up at 6.
theirs is one hr behind us.
yarhh.so i gt damn lil slp.yupp.
first day on xmas eve.reached at 1 lorh.
den by e time settle down 3 liao.
muz wake up at 6.so lik totally no time for rest.haik.
sumtimes tts e worst ting abt holidays.bahh =/
u noe i tis kind slp damn l0ng one.heh
day 2.went floating market n chao praya river.
very hot lorh.den the boat so rickety one.
okie.tink i full of complains lor.tsktsk.
aiyah.den went wat arun temple n four buddah face.
yepp.got long long history kaes.
n i listen to e tour guide till i feel aslp on e coach.
haha.so pigg..bleah. :))
proceeded to the tiger zoo after tt.
was quite a long journey alrite.
as usual i feel aslp.
cos the coaxh ar.make me so drowsy one.eh.
the tigers are so cutee kies.
but i din dare to touch it still.
its lik the pigs.dogs.tigers all livin tgt.
yupp.so unusual.den tigers feed on pigs' milk.
hahha.cool ehs? =)
uhh.got some crocodile show.damn freaky.
imagine puttin ur head into e crocodile.
yucks.yuck.aft it eats ur head.haha.
went pattaya aft tt.2 hrs journey.
so bored in teh coach lorh.so sleep agn.
went shopping at nite den went back hotel.
the hotel was super rundown.
etg was so old n dirty.sighs.
only e bed was nice.hah.slpt very well at hotels.
day 3.was a exciting day lah.hee.
went para-sailing.woo.so fun.abit scary la.
in the sky.look down so afraid i wld fall into e sea n die.
blahh.tokin nonsense lah pls.
den coral island sat banana boat.
hahahah.so fun fun fun.
dey purposely mk u fall into the sea.
very cold.grr.n e water super salty.
e1 was coughin when dey got up.
but it was nice lah.very cold only larh.
teh sand over there was so fine..
so i decieded to walk bare-foot.
n i got all wet.cos i played wf e water.heh.
so went back hotel ferst.to shower.
den go Nong Nooch Village.
see so folk dance n elephant show.
wasnt that bad lah.
but i fell sick aft going to coral island.
so i wasnt enjoyin atg at all.
felt so uncomfortable.since i was sick afterall.bleah.
so the whole day i was kinda grouchy n moody.
day 4.went to dreamworld.whee.teh rides very bang one.
but only had abt 2 hrs to sit etg lor.
totally not enuff kays.
cos teh queue for etg was damn damn long.
den ended up the ride lik only 1-2 mintes.
sians man.sat the super splash.got all drenced.
soaking to teh skin.but very fun lah.
n my dad was kind of obliged to sit e hanging roler coaster.
cos afraid my bro was very scared.
den aft tt.he felt nausea n etg.
n summore all his organs were misplaced..
haha.thats was he claims.but obv nt true la.hee.
uhmm.went chatuchak later.weekend market.
got over 9000 shops.wow.very crowded.
can get lost easily one.but dere were lotsa tgs over dere.
all for shopping one lah.
den was maboonkrong.e biggest shopping centre.
we all bought hellalot of tgs.bcos dere was so much to buy.
but among em.i was the one who spent e most.
i bought so many tgs.actually mostly clothes la.
yupp.in the nite went patong.ntg much lor.
quite boring.was more conscious of the ple arnd dere only.
all very bian tai one.so scary.
den only my sis n i went mah.so even more not safe.
n sum idiot scared me wif a fake snake.
bahh.i was lik so freaked out.gee.
we were already back in bangkok.
so the hotel so much nicer kay..
bed was lik gold in colour??
so shiok.teh pillow oso nice.
etg oso nice lah.better den e one at pattaya.haha. =p
day 5.not much time left to shop lorh.
cos we hata leave at 12.30 wadd.
so very lil time to shop oso.
juz go all the nike n sports shop n pack up liao.
yeahh.the trip passed so fast kay.
it din even feel lik 5 days le..
sighs.but perhaps i rather i came back sooner.
cos e air there was super dirty n dry.
make my lips crack n skin peel n so cringed up.
haikx.i got reali so much probs lorh.tsk.
up to now.im stil sick.yikes.
but i may swim or run ltr la.
cos i havent trained at all.
im sure my stamina n speed dropped damn alot.
tmr still have trng i tink??
dunnoe la.n i oso dunno whtr to go notx.
but i shudd.since so long no train liao.
but only afraid to lagg behind.sigh.
i dowan trng.for once..?
hope trng in e afternn.but i doubt so lah.
haix.reli dunnoe la.see can wake up first not.
haiyo.im really tired n sleepy.
n dere.s no one at hm cept me.k.
this is eerie.bleah.sigh.im so lei..=//
the girl next door;
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
hahha.registration was rather fun todae.
hehs.kinda enjoyed myself ehs?
anyway..got so many juniors come crez lorhs.
den my mum's collegue's daughter in 1c2
hee.so you yuan. =) mms.but she very quiet one la.
got 9 rgps in 1C2.
but no malays or indians in my class.
pure chinese lehs.so kwel.
was doing ushering duty.not bad..
i got used to wearin a tie afterall.winkwink.
yahh.my legs aching alot now.
uhmx.yupp.mdm kala their form tcher.
hope they not very gual one.
must me siao siao lik me one.heh.
tink its so exciting to b a snr.har. :D
den aft it.met these 2 students who came late.
n they from china summore.
make me speak chinese.
n u noe how power my chinese is.
can juz go and die lorh.
sounded freaking weird.hahha.
n they were laughin at me b4 jamie came
den say dunnoe wad i sec 1 so neng gan liao.
haha.hmms.helped a number of parents todae.
i feel so great.bang.happy.cranky.lalala.
now i cant wait for sch to reopen.whee.
hoping tt 1c2'04 will win cheer agn.
n get the least demerits points as usual.
anw..i trained aft that.
nicole left me alone.sobs.
but was so friggin slack after all.
might as well dun train lor.tsk.
then went home alone after that.
packed my stuff for tmr's flight.
yup.got mixed feelings abt tmr.
she bu de and cant wait to go.
well.i noe i will enjoy myself lah.
yeah.shopping craze eh? hehs.
haik.i spent 2++ hrs doing my brochure lehs.
so lei kays.stare at e com.bleah.
hope it'll turn out nice only lorh.
else eofforts will b wasted.haix.
yupp.anw.ethel arh.
your cookies are very nice lehs.
altho we all said it was soft ans 'elastic'
haha.but its reli bang lahs.
yepyep.thanks =) merryxams. =)
hehs.kinda enjoyed myself ehs?
anyway..got so many juniors come crez lorhs.
den my mum's collegue's daughter in 1c2
hee.so you yuan. =) mms.but she very quiet one la.
got 9 rgps in 1C2.
but no malays or indians in my class.
pure chinese lehs.so kwel.
was doing ushering duty.not bad..
i got used to wearin a tie afterall.winkwink.
yahh.my legs aching alot now.
uhmx.yupp.mdm kala their form tcher.
hope they not very gual one.
must me siao siao lik me one.heh.
tink its so exciting to b a snr.har. :D
den aft it.met these 2 students who came late.
n they from china summore.
make me speak chinese.
n u noe how power my chinese is.
can juz go and die lorh.
sounded freaking weird.hahha.
n they were laughin at me b4 jamie came
den say dunnoe wad i sec 1 so neng gan liao.
haha.hmms.helped a number of parents todae.
i feel so great.bang.happy.cranky.lalala.
now i cant wait for sch to reopen.whee.
hoping tt 1c2'04 will win cheer agn.
n get the least demerits points as usual.
anw..i trained aft that.
nicole left me alone.sobs.
but was so friggin slack after all.
might as well dun train lor.tsk.
then went home alone after that.
packed my stuff for tmr's flight.
yup.got mixed feelings abt tmr.
she bu de and cant wait to go.
well.i noe i will enjoy myself lah.
yeah.shopping craze eh? hehs.
haik.i spent 2++ hrs doing my brochure lehs.
so lei kays.stare at e com.bleah.
hope it'll turn out nice only lorh.
else eofforts will b wasted.haix.
yupp.anw.ethel arh.
your cookies are very nice lehs.
altho we all said it was soft ans 'elastic'
haha.but its reli bang lahs.
yepyep.thanks =) merryxams. =)
the girl next door;
Sunday, December 21, 2003
trngs was pretty alrite lar.
im gettin more hapy wif myself.
cos apparently.i've been improving.
my timing was 1 min better.
hmms.really great.
juz hope it cld continue this way lorh.
n let me b satisfied forever.
but its impossibe larh.
but well.juz let nature take its course.
as long as i;ve tried my best.
dere's ntg else to comment on.
perhaps the route aint tt bad after all.
it quite okie.
now i duno y im beginnin to lik it.
hehs.i only pray my speed dun drop.
esp when i wun b trng for about a wk.
aww..better hope so.
but im lookin forward so much to my trip lorh.
heehee.
and getting excited abt registration?heh
spent about a $100 yest.
wow.so power sia.. =)
went town aft trng.
met my family.
did quite alot of shopping.
but its not for christmas lorh.hahha.
n its been quite sum time my family all went out tgt.
yupps.but aft running n shopping.
came back home super tired.bleah.
n to add on it.i had a bad tummyache. =/
tink haf diarhoeea since wed?
erts.sighs.dunoe wads wrong with me.
im gettin more hapy wif myself.
cos apparently.i've been improving.
my timing was 1 min better.
hmms.really great.
juz hope it cld continue this way lorh.
n let me b satisfied forever.
but its impossibe larh.
but well.juz let nature take its course.
as long as i;ve tried my best.
dere's ntg else to comment on.
perhaps the route aint tt bad after all.
it quite okie.
now i duno y im beginnin to lik it.
hehs.i only pray my speed dun drop.
esp when i wun b trng for about a wk.
aww..better hope so.
but im lookin forward so much to my trip lorh.
heehee.
and getting excited abt registration?heh
spent about a $100 yest.
wow.so power sia.. =)
went town aft trng.
met my family.
did quite alot of shopping.
but its not for christmas lorh.hahha.
n its been quite sum time my family all went out tgt.
yupps.but aft running n shopping.
came back home super tired.bleah.
n to add on it.i had a bad tummyache. =/
tink haf diarhoeea since wed?
erts.sighs.dunoe wads wrong with me.
the girl next door;
Friday, December 19, 2003
hmms.had class gathering yday.
wellwell.its wasnt that bad larh.
but very few ple turned up lorh.
mstan n mdmyap came anw..
n mstan permed her frizzy hair agn.
i dunnoe wad to cumment abt it .=/
we played a no. of games larh.
laughed damn alot.
n i went very crazy went mstan came.
hehs.was tokin to jamie.
abt sum watermelon we're eating.
den started the colours..
whtr watermelons tt are yellow are called yellow watermelons?
haha.n snow pear is white??
at the end of the day.
we din come to a conclusion afterall.
harhar.n apparently the others din get the joke n left the mph.
hahaah..so we laughed n laughed.
n when all left at abt 9pm.
i ended up havin a sore throat.bleaughs.
i hope the others enjoyed themselves.
but i tink i made em eat alot.
but i ate 4 sevings afterall lehs.
heeh.n ys n i packed damn alot of food for mstan n mdmyap.
yupps.thurs was quite fun. :)
went trng wif nic todae.
as usual.slacked.was normal.
there wasnt juz any enthusiasm in me.esp.
yups.heckk larhs.
was supposed to go nearby coffee shop for lunch.
but went cine to eat yoshi in the end.
yumyums.
den went to heeren to buy rubberbands n etc.
yarhh.roamed arnd.
drool at the clothes.roxy.ripcurl.hehx.
den we left at abt 12+ i tink?
crapped alot in teh train.
i laughed n laughed.wif nic.
started abt the pram n umbrella.
den trolley.n sum rubbish larh.
damn lame tho.but it was funny?
hah.yup.came back.
n fell asleep for an hour.
yepp.studied.n im goin back to study now.
juz dun feel lik going trng tmr.
a race?a selection?
sighs.no mood.i cant run.no confidence pls.
im afraid i wun b able to run well tmr.
wth.sigh.i cross my fingers n pray real hard.
wellwell.its wasnt that bad larh.
but very few ple turned up lorh.
mstan n mdmyap came anw..
n mstan permed her frizzy hair agn.
i dunnoe wad to cumment abt it .=/
we played a no. of games larh.
laughed damn alot.
n i went very crazy went mstan came.
hehs.was tokin to jamie.
abt sum watermelon we're eating.
den started the colours..
whtr watermelons tt are yellow are called yellow watermelons?
haha.n snow pear is white??
at the end of the day.
we din come to a conclusion afterall.
harhar.n apparently the others din get the joke n left the mph.
hahaah..so we laughed n laughed.
n when all left at abt 9pm.
i ended up havin a sore throat.bleaughs.
i hope the others enjoyed themselves.
but i tink i made em eat alot.
but i ate 4 sevings afterall lehs.
heeh.n ys n i packed damn alot of food for mstan n mdmyap.
yupps.thurs was quite fun. :)
went trng wif nic todae.
as usual.slacked.was normal.
there wasnt juz any enthusiasm in me.esp.
yups.heckk larhs.
was supposed to go nearby coffee shop for lunch.
but went cine to eat yoshi in the end.
yumyums.
den went to heeren to buy rubberbands n etc.
yarhh.roamed arnd.
drool at the clothes.roxy.ripcurl.hehx.
den we left at abt 12+ i tink?
crapped alot in teh train.
i laughed n laughed.wif nic.
started abt the pram n umbrella.
den trolley.n sum rubbish larh.
damn lame tho.but it was funny?
hah.yup.came back.
n fell asleep for an hour.
yepp.studied.n im goin back to study now.
juz dun feel lik going trng tmr.
a race?a selection?
sighs.no mood.i cant run.no confidence pls.
im afraid i wun b able to run well tmr.
wth.sigh.i cross my fingers n pray real hard.
the girl next door;
Thursday, December 18, 2003
im in a damn super hyperific mood.
*yay* its been quite sum time since i felt lidat.
hehs.finally. im satisfied wif my performance todae.
whee-.i was careful enuff not to sprain my ankle like tues.
i kept telling myelf to go on..
i would not stop.n yipee.I DID IT
harhar.sorry im so crazee today. =P
ohwells.i guess all it takes is to push a lil harder when i run n tgs will be fine.
cos i learnt my lesson liao.
shall b careful not to repeat same mistakes.heehee.
sat having race.
lin selecting team.
got no hope for myself.
but i wil still try to go on.
hopeing my timing wld b better then todae.yups.
its only abt 2.5 hours n my frens are coming.
whhee-i cant wait.
n i haf no idea at all why the hell m i so excited.
lala.really gone siao liao.
but i prefer it this way.
den... yupps.haha. =)
oh yahh.i seriosuly encourage u ple to watch Lord of the Rings 3.
the Return of the King.
super bang lorhs.
watched sneak preview last nite.
damn nice.cept for the fightin part.
was freaked out kaes.yuck.
gollum bit frodo's fingers.eeks.harhar..
yeahh.juz go n watch larh.
doubt u will regret it tho.
n besides mine movie tickets were free.
so hehx.. ;) yupyup.
okie.shall go n get busy liaox.
mus prepare the food for later.
n i haven eaten lunch yet.aww.. :|
*yay* its been quite sum time since i felt lidat.
hehs.finally. im satisfied wif my performance todae.
whee-.i was careful enuff not to sprain my ankle like tues.
i kept telling myelf to go on..
i would not stop.n yipee.I DID IT
harhar.sorry im so crazee today. =P
ohwells.i guess all it takes is to push a lil harder when i run n tgs will be fine.
cos i learnt my lesson liao.
shall b careful not to repeat same mistakes.heehee.
sat having race.
lin selecting team.
got no hope for myself.
but i wil still try to go on.
hopeing my timing wld b better then todae.yups.
its only abt 2.5 hours n my frens are coming.
whhee-i cant wait.
n i haf no idea at all why the hell m i so excited.
lala.really gone siao liao.
but i prefer it this way.
den... yupps.haha. =)
oh yahh.i seriosuly encourage u ple to watch Lord of the Rings 3.
the Return of the King.
super bang lorhs.
watched sneak preview last nite.
damn nice.cept for the fightin part.
was freaked out kaes.yuck.
gollum bit frodo's fingers.eeks.harhar..
yeahh.juz go n watch larh.
doubt u will regret it tho.
n besides mine movie tickets were free.
so hehx.. ;) yupyup.
okie.shall go n get busy liaox.
mus prepare the food for later.
n i haven eaten lunch yet.aww.. :|
the girl next door;
Sunday, December 14, 2003
confidence.hope.faith.
sighs.taunting me damn alot.
i really got no idea wad to do.
my mind is in a swirl..
always thinkin abt tgs which perhaps,
not worth my time.
yest trng felt better den thurs.
or at least i felt better.
mayb its cos my timing improved a lil huh?
but still..its not as good.i still nd to improve.
yups.i'll try.hopin tt e determination stays thru-out.
e weater was the total opp. of thurs.
rain.hmms.i tink its cooler.so its better to run wif.
i really wonder wad i shud expect of myself.
too many qns rushing thru in n out of my head.
cant contain anymore.
until i find the correct ans..
i wish.i wish.i wish i knew juz who to trust.
a fren that cld juz spare me a lil of her time.
i feel left out ewhere.
be it in sch,track,council or any other grp.
its lik.sum ple always so fake lorhs..
or mayb its juz how i feel abt em la.
bring on my guard always.
afraid that sumone may juz go against me anytime.
yups.i admit im afraid.
to lose my frens n stuff.
n i dunoe if im being one good fren.
good enuff for others.
well.one cant b perfect.
but at least i need sum1 to tell me wads wrong wif me.
my faults n etg.
i dun always wana mk me upset or scream at em
but stime.u reli hafta c my mood.
yeahh.sorry if i've let u down.over n over agn.sorry =|
i dunnoe wad to say.
i dunnoe wad i can do.
but all i knoe is that..
i will be willing to spare u my time.
regardless of when and how.
as long as i;ve the time.
i'll do anytg for my frens.
yup.i dun make empty promises.
but i hope i will b able to gain ur trust.
perhaps i dun reli lik how tgs are..
but oh well..we all live wif it la..
okay.okay.sighs..
well.i tink dere's sum tgs i can look forward to.
*yay* finally.at last.
i studied alot the first few wks.
but started to slack
in academic n track.but nvm,
uhms.next week.
tues got time trial lehs.yuckyuckyuck.
at turfcity.i tink im gonna b damn friggin slow pls..
ohmy..not lookin forward to this.-bleaghs*
watchin lord of the rings 3 on wed.
whhe-*gt free tickets fr sum lucky draw thingy.
so bang please.heehee.free etg summore.
den thurs having class gathering.
so long never see my wonderful class liao.
so quite excietd lah.
dey comin to my hse mahs.
got quite alot og tgs to prepare..
i hope mos6t fo them wld turn up.
else so few ple not fun liao.
den ys n jamie had thot of sum fun games too.
yupyup.so if u're free on 18 juz come yea?
anytime after abt 4pm larh.
my hse at boon lay there.
for directions.can ask me.
or come as a grp.
i tink ys oso know how to cum.yeps.
err..following wk.gt sec 1 registration.
cant wait for it oso.hehs.
see how many of my juniors cum to crescent.
hope 1c2'04 wld be a guai but cute batch.
hee.juz like my class this year.
follow their seniors.mms.
but still cant belive im gonna b a seniors,seriously.yuck.
den 24 i fly liao..
going bangkok.
probably a place i will really enjoy.
leaving troubles behind
or shudd it be bring it dere n dun bring back here.
hahha.i dunoe larh.will see to it.
yups.i haven finished my hw yet.
omg.die liao.
left tha stupid english essay to do lorh.
tsktsk.dun even wanna touch it.
cos i simple dun lik english.
hmms.but thus wk gt quite an achievement liao..
read 3 books lehs.
not bad.in a week..
usually is 1 book 2 weeks.haha..
and oh yah.i read this bk n saw sth which refers to me.
a person that is afraid of failure has a KOKRRHAPHIOPHOBIA
iwishtolivealifethatissolelymine.
andnotanyoneelse.
sighs.taunting me damn alot.
i really got no idea wad to do.
my mind is in a swirl..
always thinkin abt tgs which perhaps,
not worth my time.
yest trng felt better den thurs.
or at least i felt better.
mayb its cos my timing improved a lil huh?
but still..its not as good.i still nd to improve.
yups.i'll try.hopin tt e determination stays thru-out.
e weater was the total opp. of thurs.
rain.hmms.i tink its cooler.so its better to run wif.
i really wonder wad i shud expect of myself.
too many qns rushing thru in n out of my head.
cant contain anymore.
until i find the correct ans..
i wish.i wish.i wish i knew juz who to trust.
a fren that cld juz spare me a lil of her time.
i feel left out ewhere.
be it in sch,track,council or any other grp.
its lik.sum ple always so fake lorhs..
or mayb its juz how i feel abt em la.
bring on my guard always.
afraid that sumone may juz go against me anytime.
yups.i admit im afraid.
to lose my frens n stuff.
n i dunoe if im being one good fren.
good enuff for others.
well.one cant b perfect.
but at least i need sum1 to tell me wads wrong wif me.
my faults n etg.
i dun always wana mk me upset or scream at em
but stime.u reli hafta c my mood.
yeahh.sorry if i've let u down.over n over agn.sorry =|
i dunnoe wad to say.
i dunnoe wad i can do.
but all i knoe is that..
i will be willing to spare u my time.
regardless of when and how.
as long as i;ve the time.
i'll do anytg for my frens.
yup.i dun make empty promises.
but i hope i will b able to gain ur trust.
perhaps i dun reli lik how tgs are..
but oh well..we all live wif it la..
okay.okay.sighs..
well.i tink dere's sum tgs i can look forward to.
*yay* finally.at last.
i studied alot the first few wks.
but started to slack
in academic n track.but nvm,
uhms.next week.
tues got time trial lehs.yuckyuckyuck.
at turfcity.i tink im gonna b damn friggin slow pls..
ohmy..not lookin forward to this.-bleaghs*
watchin lord of the rings 3 on wed.
whhe-*gt free tickets fr sum lucky draw thingy.
so bang please.heehee.free etg summore.
den thurs having class gathering.
so long never see my wonderful class liao.
so quite excietd lah.
dey comin to my hse mahs.
got quite alot og tgs to prepare..
i hope mos6t fo them wld turn up.
else so few ple not fun liao.
den ys n jamie had thot of sum fun games too.
yupyup.so if u're free on 18 juz come yea?
anytime after abt 4pm larh.
my hse at boon lay there.
for directions.can ask me.
or come as a grp.
i tink ys oso know how to cum.yeps.
err..following wk.gt sec 1 registration.
cant wait for it oso.hehs.
see how many of my juniors cum to crescent.
hope 1c2'04 wld be a guai but cute batch.
hee.juz like my class this year.
follow their seniors.mms.
but still cant belive im gonna b a seniors,seriously.yuck.
den 24 i fly liao..
going bangkok.
probably a place i will really enjoy.
leaving troubles behind
or shudd it be bring it dere n dun bring back here.
hahha.i dunoe larh.will see to it.
yups.i haven finished my hw yet.
omg.die liao.
left tha stupid english essay to do lorh.
tsktsk.dun even wanna touch it.
cos i simple dun lik english.
hmms.but thus wk gt quite an achievement liao..
read 3 books lehs.
not bad.in a week..
usually is 1 book 2 weeks.haha..
and oh yah.i read this bk n saw sth which refers to me.
a person that is afraid of failure has a KOKRRHAPHIOPHOBIA
the girl next door;
Thursday, December 11, 2003
i dun lik todae's trng.
ohwells.it juz me.that damn mentality.
no more will..to fight on.
i cant survive..seriouusly cant.
sigh.since christmas is near.
wld juz lik to make a wish.
crossing my fingers.praying it'll come true.
i really hope so.cos i dun lik e way tgs are now.
timing was lik yucks!
n lin was sayin that he cld see that SUM of us haven been trng.
well.i suposed it was ME.ok.i accept e fact.
but the truth is.i HAVE been trng lehs.
but i dunnoe why the outcome is lidat.
i wonder if its bcos of the swop to sir's trng?
thta made my speed and stamina drop so much?
but.haiz.i wun blame any1 larh.
gt no right to.
have only myslef to blame.yups.sigh..
super duper hot todae.
almost dehydrating me.
but one tg..i was glad that dere was heat.
cos it dried up my tears in my eyes b4 it even had time to flow down..
felt very bad..felt that i cld do better.
i wanted to gain more confidence in myself.
but stimes.etg juz seem so impossible.
haikx.i dun dare to face wif reality.
i wanna escape.i wana run away.
guess.i shudnt even existed in this world.
screwing tgs up..makin ple feel horrid.
wad kind of a fren am i?
perhaps.sth that words cant describe..
sth.that no one ever wld noe..
juz how black-hearted i am..
etime..i trained so hard..
but yet.still unable to achieve.
i pray.i wish.i hope.
den sum day..miracles cum true.
tho i dun belive in it.
juz hope to see a shooting star.
n den.it make changes higher for my wish to cum true.
i dream.dream n dream..
tgs will never be teh same agn..
im feeling reli demoraelised..
very heart-broken.
ntg cld patch up that crack in my heart.
i wished for so much ...
but each time..it only leaves me wif more tears.
i dowana go on..i cant.i cant..
negative i shall remain..
the stregth will drift away from me..
i dun deserve all these do i?
another test??? i dunnoe..
but all i noe is that..
i wun survive thru it..
trngs are lik .. i've slacked damn alot.
left wif ntg but crap..
now i wish.icoulddie.
sobs.
going sock hoon's bday party ltr.
mms.suddenly.gt no mood.
after my horrendous result 4 trng earlier.
yups.but im not that mean afterall.
i'll stil enjoy myself dere.
forgetting all my toubles once agn.
a smile is all it takes.
winks-.
ohwells.it juz me.that damn mentality.
no more will..to fight on.
i cant survive..seriouusly cant.
sigh.since christmas is near.
wld juz lik to make a wish.
crossing my fingers.praying it'll come true.
i really hope so.cos i dun lik e way tgs are now.
timing was lik yucks!
n lin was sayin that he cld see that SUM of us haven been trng.
well.i suposed it was ME.ok.i accept e fact.
but the truth is.i HAVE been trng lehs.
but i dunnoe why the outcome is lidat.
i wonder if its bcos of the swop to sir's trng?
thta made my speed and stamina drop so much?
but.haiz.i wun blame any1 larh.
gt no right to.
have only myslef to blame.yups.sigh..
super duper hot todae.
almost dehydrating me.
but one tg..i was glad that dere was heat.
cos it dried up my tears in my eyes b4 it even had time to flow down..
felt very bad..felt that i cld do better.
i wanted to gain more confidence in myself.
but stimes.etg juz seem so impossible.
haikx.i dun dare to face wif reality.
i wanna escape.i wana run away.
guess.i shudnt even existed in this world.
screwing tgs up..makin ple feel horrid.
wad kind of a fren am i?
perhaps.sth that words cant describe..
sth.that no one ever wld noe..
juz how black-hearted i am..
etime..i trained so hard..
but yet.still unable to achieve.
i pray.i wish.i hope.
den sum day..miracles cum true.
tho i dun belive in it.
juz hope to see a shooting star.
n den.it make changes higher for my wish to cum true.
i dream.dream n dream..
tgs will never be teh same agn..
im feeling reli demoraelised..
very heart-broken.
ntg cld patch up that crack in my heart.
i wished for so much ...
but each time..it only leaves me wif more tears.
i dowana go on..i cant.i cant..
negative i shall remain..
the stregth will drift away from me..
i dun deserve all these do i?
another test??? i dunnoe..
but all i noe is that..
i wun survive thru it..
trngs are lik .. i've slacked damn alot.
left wif ntg but crap..
now i wish.
sobs.
going sock hoon's bday party ltr.
mms.suddenly.gt no mood.
after my horrendous result 4 trng earlier.
yups.but im not that mean afterall.
i'll stil enjoy myself dere.
forgetting all my toubles once agn.
a smile is all it takes.
winks-.
the girl next door;
Sunday, December 07, 2003
Your Brain Usage Profile
Auditory : 35%
Visual : 64%
Left : 61%
Right : 38%
lynette, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
got this from.gen's blog.uhh.abit true larh.. =|
Auditory : 35%
Visual : 64%
Left : 61%
Right : 38%
lynette, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
got this from.gen's blog.uhh.abit true larh.. =|
the girl next door;
track camp is over.yup.expected it to b boring.n it was.
haik.n trng at turfcity was lik how sucky.sigh.dun xpect to run nex yr.
but yest trng was lik shit..those gym stuff.havin damn bad butt cramps.
very very pain.cant run.sit.squat.arghs.tis is so irritating.yuck.
muz take a break..yepp.really shud.but i cant b anymore slack.
or else..i reli wld regret the outcome.
sir's lectures..brainwashing.all din help till now.haikx.
tink no one is able to help me besides myself..
no more power to go on.
no more will to survive.
i wonder y i never knew she was lidat..
i wanted to know the truth.
improvement is damn freag great..
really din expect tis to happen..i relly din.
but since it did.doubt i can do atg.
jux let tgs me.as long as i;ve tried my best..
well.nvm abt wad wld happen last..
afterall.im always not consistent.
so whtr i lose or win the race.it doesnt matter..
juz a short camp.yet many tgs cld actualy happen.
yupp.n etg happens for a reason..
its GOD's will.but juz stimes.i duno wad he reli wanted.
dun lik all e sufferings..
dun lik the look ple gimme.
haiyohs..nvm.at the end of the day..
it shud be worth it..uhms..guess so?
i dun care.i juz wanna die...
haik.n trng at turfcity was lik how sucky.sigh.dun xpect to run nex yr.
but yest trng was lik shit..those gym stuff.havin damn bad butt cramps.
very very pain.cant run.sit.squat.arghs.tis is so irritating.yuck.
muz take a break..yepp.really shud.but i cant b anymore slack.
or else..i reli wld regret the outcome.
sir's lectures..brainwashing.all din help till now.haikx.
tink no one is able to help me besides myself..
no more power to go on.
no more will to survive.
i wonder y i never knew she was lidat..
i wanted to know the truth.
improvement is damn freag great..
really din expect tis to happen..i relly din.
but since it did.doubt i can do atg.
jux let tgs me.as long as i;ve tried my best..
well.nvm abt wad wld happen last..
afterall.im always not consistent.
so whtr i lose or win the race.it doesnt matter..
juz a short camp.yet many tgs cld actualy happen.
yupp.n etg happens for a reason..
its GOD's will.but juz stimes.i duno wad he reli wanted.
dun lik all e sufferings..
dun lik the look ple gimme.
haiyohs..nvm.at the end of the day..
it shud be worth it..uhms..guess so?
i dun care.i juz wanna die...
the girl next door;
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