my dirty little secrets.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
why must you treat me like that?
dont i derserve something better?
did you even consider my feelings?
do you know how heart broken i am?
dont i derserve something better?
did you even consider my feelings?
do you know how heart broken i am?
the girl next door;
freaked out today agn.
juz scaring myself wif etg i need to study.
everyone else seemed relax?
i dunno lor.seemed too stressed ler.
:/ tuesdayys were supposed to be NICE
but i juz dampened my spirits.
im suchaa pigg.
feel lik im drifting..
n so cornered in class.
okies.isolated perhaps?
no idea.juz feel so alone lately.
maybe it juz me
unwilingly to b more kai lang.
whole day keep to myself.
suddenly feel lik im reli gonna explode.
dunno lar.
juz worried i will break down in class.
den juz now sam w still say she nv see me cry b4.
made me recall last yr aft maths paper.
when we got back results.
totally cried for 3 fraking hours.
cos a series of events happened.
arghs.too sians lers.
i need the time to sit and tink
n too stardiee too..
24hours per day its simply too short.
or at least for me.
i think 48 hrs oso not enuff.
aiyohs.fed up.
tink im an idiot.
i shud be happier.
n i shud mix arnd more.
no pt sittin at my plc not talkin all the time.
will only mk ple tink im....
ohwell.i tink im self-centered.
i tis kind.no worth to be a friend please.
saddening.
i a m s a d.
ohwadeverr.
wad kind of a freak m i?
t h e s k i e s f e l l o n m e
juz scaring myself wif etg i need to study.
everyone else seemed relax?
i dunno lor.seemed too stressed ler.
:/ tuesdayys were supposed to be NICE
but i juz dampened my spirits.
im suchaa pigg.
feel lik im drifting..
n so cornered in class.
okies.isolated perhaps?
no idea.juz feel so alone lately.
maybe it juz me
unwilingly to b more kai lang.
whole day keep to myself.
suddenly feel lik im reli gonna explode.
dunno lar.
juz worried i will break down in class.
den juz now sam w still say she nv see me cry b4.
made me recall last yr aft maths paper.
when we got back results.
totally cried for 3 fraking hours.
cos a series of events happened.
arghs.too sians lers.
i need the time to sit and tink
n too stardiee too..
24hours per day its simply too short.
or at least for me.
i think 48 hrs oso not enuff.
aiyohs.fed up.
tink im an idiot.
i shud be happier.
n i shud mix arnd more.
no pt sittin at my plc not talkin all the time.
will only mk ple tink im....
ohwell.i tink im self-centered.
i tis kind.no worth to be a friend please.
saddening.
i a m s a d.
ohwadeverr.
wad kind of a freak m i?
t h e s k i e s f e l l o n m e
the girl next door;
Monday, April 26, 2004
arghs>superr tensed up now
its only now when i realised therea damn alott of things to study.
shit man.
so much things yet so lil time.
im afraid i cant do it.
stress.its killing me.
thinking tt i'll be buried wif piles of books.
life's a tortue.
so hard to pass it meaningfully.
aiya.i dunoh lor.
got hellalot of other stuff affectin me too.
super worried kies.
scared lehs.
exams are so near.
i cant relax.
and e1 telling me to chillout.
stimes aft e exam
think i need to sit down n talk.
to anyone it may be.
but i tink i must juz rantle n let go..
hours or days..
tgs juz hafta gett outta me
mstan talked to our class today
put me into deep thots
being in 2c2 juz has too much pressure.
or n i giving myself?
sickko man.
i cant take it anymore.
i know i'll explode sooner or ltr.
since anw.i dun confide.
idiot lar please.
i know its sucha shittified life.
huh.i hate it when it comes to life?
ohh wadevver.
im juz being another failure...
i need to cry my hearts out..
its only now when i realised therea damn alott of things to study.
shit man.
so much things yet so lil time.
im afraid i cant do it.
stress.its killing me.
thinking tt i'll be buried wif piles of books.
life's a tortue.
so hard to pass it meaningfully.
aiya.i dunoh lor.
got hellalot of other stuff affectin me too.
super worried kies.
scared lehs.
exams are so near.
i cant relax.
and e1 telling me to chillout.
stimes aft e exam
think i need to sit down n talk.
to anyone it may be.
but i tink i must juz rantle n let go..
hours or days..
tgs juz hafta gett outta me
mstan talked to our class today
put me into deep thots
being in 2c2 juz has too much pressure.
or n i giving myself?
sickko man.
i cant take it anymore.
i know i'll explode sooner or ltr.
since anw.i dun confide.
idiot lar please.
i know its sucha shittified life.
huh.i hate it when it comes to life?
ohh wadevver.
im juz being another failure...
i need to cry my hearts out..
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 25, 2004
this week is rather screwed lor.
partly bcos i was sick n bad mood damn alott.
yeah.its already a week.yet i haven recover.
arghs.hadta visit the blardie doctor agn yest.
n i got more disgusting tasting medicine.
blehx.i hate it when im sickk.
e feeling is ultra gross n makes me drowsy.
sighs.cough till thraot sore.
n sound lik a damn frogg.
tt nicole loves calling me FROG.
oh wadeverr.
im pissed.sick makes me feel weak.
n i juz cant get my head to function properly.
yeah.so the whole point is..
dun get sick.
exams are lik this week?!?
its suchaa crucial period to fall sick.
but i must wad.tskk.
im not at all prepared.
prepared to flung.thats all.
but i hope my hardwork wld reli pay off.
all these time i studied so hard.
but end up doing worst then everr.
disappointed.marks doesn nt meet expectations.
aiyohs.no havin any idea y all these are happening.
n so many other factoes contributin to my failure.
've got so much stuck in me.
yeah.its obvious i dun say also..
who i can confide.i still dunnoe.
yeah.so etg's within me.
i cant stand my life.
ohwells.i shall juz hafta continue decieving myself.
haix.
why must i be sick?
now mummy dun let me go down n support
but can not.i'll force
cos today's nic.mq.let's race.
i must must go down no matter wad.
past few times nv go support ethel.yx.grace le.
guilty enuff lor.
sighs.its only for that one race tt im so concerned.
yeahh.i wanna give them my luck.
whtr it helps anot i dunoh lar.
but.its good to cheer them on..
at least they noe there's sum1 supporting them.
yeah.sad sad sad..
my head spinning.i cant think..
oh goodness.
i feel tt tgs are forever occuring at the wrong time.
of the 365 days i have.
it chose to happen right now.
idioit lar pleasse...
so irritated lor.
i dun even wana be distracted or affected.
i juz wana put in my best for the exams.
sighs.i promise myself not to be affected.
n yes.i wun.
im so masked up everytime.
its so unlike me nowadays.
i dunnoe wad im feeling inside.
juz very nan shou or wadsoeverr.
haiyahs.thats juz the life i have..
i shant be bothered..
okay.perhaps since my jie has returned fr hongkong.
im slightly happier.
but tis time round.she nv buy me alott of tgs.
sighs.nvm.im not in the mood to celebrate anw.
sighs.im juz wondering why is love so powerful???
why is it tt everyone can be intimitated by it.
or maybe juz pure affected.
is all this sacrifice really worth it???
i need to have the answers.
yesh.i cant stop lying to myself.
juz to cover up the truth.
i've got so many tgs to let go.
each day.i can only talk to the wall.
not even a living tg.
cos those arnd me dun seem to care..
haix.wad kind of a fren m i???
too isolated alreadys.
perhaps im able to cheer others up.
but one tg for sure......
i'll never be able to kp myself happy.
i juz need that ONE angel fr heaven to be with me...
why must He take away sth from me???
partly bcos i was sick n bad mood damn alott.
yeah.its already a week.yet i haven recover.
arghs.hadta visit the blardie doctor agn yest.
n i got more disgusting tasting medicine.
blehx.i hate it when im sickk.
e feeling is ultra gross n makes me drowsy.
sighs.cough till thraot sore.
n sound lik a damn frogg.
tt nicole loves calling me FROG.
oh wadeverr.
im pissed.sick makes me feel weak.
n i juz cant get my head to function properly.
yeah.so the whole point is..
dun get sick.
exams are lik this week?!?
its suchaa crucial period to fall sick.
but i must wad.tskk.
im not at all prepared.
prepared to flung.thats all.
but i hope my hardwork wld reli pay off.
all these time i studied so hard.
but end up doing worst then everr.
disappointed.marks doesn nt meet expectations.
aiyohs.no havin any idea y all these are happening.
n so many other factoes contributin to my failure.
've got so much stuck in me.
yeah.its obvious i dun say also..
who i can confide.i still dunnoe.
yeah.so etg's within me.
i cant stand my life.
ohwells.i shall juz hafta continue decieving myself.
haix.
why must i be sick?
now mummy dun let me go down n support
but can not.i'll force
cos today's nic.mq.let's race.
i must must go down no matter wad.
past few times nv go support ethel.yx.grace le.
guilty enuff lor.
sighs.its only for that one race tt im so concerned.
yeahh.i wanna give them my luck.
whtr it helps anot i dunoh lar.
but.its good to cheer them on..
at least they noe there's sum1 supporting them.
yeah.sad sad sad..
my head spinning.i cant think..
oh goodness.
i feel tt tgs are forever occuring at the wrong time.
of the 365 days i have.
it chose to happen right now.
idioit lar pleasse...
so irritated lor.
i dun even wana be distracted or affected.
i juz wana put in my best for the exams.
sighs.i promise myself not to be affected.
n yes.i wun.
im so masked up everytime.
its so unlike me nowadays.
i dunnoe wad im feeling inside.
juz very nan shou or wadsoeverr.
haiyahs.thats juz the life i have..
i shant be bothered..
okay.perhaps since my jie has returned fr hongkong.
im slightly happier.
but tis time round.she nv buy me alott of tgs.
sighs.nvm.im not in the mood to celebrate anw.
sighs.im juz wondering why is love so powerful???
why is it tt everyone can be intimitated by it.
or maybe juz pure affected.
is all this sacrifice really worth it???
i need to have the answers.
yesh.i cant stop lying to myself.
juz to cover up the truth.
i've got so many tgs to let go.
each day.i can only talk to the wall.
not even a living tg.
cos those arnd me dun seem to care..
haix.wad kind of a fren m i???
too isolated alreadys.
perhaps im able to cheer others up.
but one tg for sure......
i'll never be able to kp myself happy.
i juz need that ONE angel fr heaven to be with me...
why must He take away sth from me???
the girl next door;
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
cough cough.
im so sickk kays.
n no one is so nice as to go see a doctor wif me
boohoohoo.
so sadsad.
i wish i died
hehe.
im not kidding
was serious when i said it
okies.
cs now.throat so pain.
n yining make me drink so much water
dilute my brain.
mswong say one.hohohoh.
yeah.wadeverr.
shall not go trng today.
cant anyways.
din even do mass run lohs.
sigh.
i miss trng tho :P
shall leave early n go see a doctor.
tho got no one to pei wo.
nevermind..
shall let nurul use her com lers.
heehee.
im so nice =)
still feeling SICK
im so sickk kays.
n no one is so nice as to go see a doctor wif me
boohoohoo.
so sadsad.
i wish i died
hehe.
im not kidding
was serious when i said it
okies.
cs now.throat so pain.
n yining make me drink so much water
dilute my brain.
mswong say one.hohohoh.
yeah.wadeverr.
shall not go trng today.
cant anyways.
din even do mass run lohs.
sigh.
i miss trng tho :P
shall leave early n go see a doctor.
tho got no one to pei wo.
nevermind..
shall let nurul use her com lers.
heehee.
im so nice =)
still feeling SICK
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 18, 2004
This wk has been exciting =)
Hurhurz..lemme recap a bit lar.
[160404] sports day
early morning go stadium.
Yupp.damn excited coz last yr dun haf sports day ma.
Surprisingly I wasn’t exactly worried abt my 4 by 4 race.
Din have any hope to vye for top 3 positions anw.
Not say im a defeatist or wadsoever.
But the other teams r indeed better.
Yupp.had interhse game ferst.
mms.jamie n I fell.
Oops.so malu.we still say cant fall.
Aiyo,wad rubbish lar pls.
It left a beeg bruise on my knee.
Ouch.painn lehs.sobs
Den cheered n cheered.
Shout till throat very itchy.
N time soon came for 4 by 4.
Reported.n I still wasn’t afraid.
But slowly got influenced by mq.
Heh.last runner pressure darn alott.
At least etg was over in a flash.
Got 4th.okay lar.not tt bad ehs?
But my timing is unbelievable lor
Sigh.will juz forget abt it.
I know its not possible anw..
Yeahyeah.but I was satisified 4 my performance lahs.
i beat my pb.winks.
Bronte rocks man!
Hahha.got 2nd for cheer n mascot.
N oh..interhse got FIRST!!!!
All thanks to the chio box krys n I did.
Wheee. =) hurhur.
Aft etg.had track foto taking.
Den ahem was being so irritating.
Cannot stand it.yucks. =/
Anyways.left for town wif Jamie n Nicole.
Magic open fairygodmothers.
Hehe.short of gen only.grins.
Yupp.pigged alottt.
N we took chio chio np at cine.
Tho the first 2 was screwed.heh.
but the final one was so niceee.
cos we were in it wadd.
harhar.wad more can u xpect.
smirkss-
spent $24 on neopriints lor.
goshh.so much.now im left brokee
den went yoshi.ate.
n i went for dental appt.
jamie went for german.
nic went home.
hehe.
had such fun towning.
wif de three musketteers. =)
[170404]
no trng yesterday.
so uhms.yupp.went swimmin wif yinxi jie.
ooolalala.met her at 850 at chinese garden.
proceeded to the jurong east pool.
the long slides n etg.
but obviously we din go down the slides.
cos mms.someone was scared of heights.
hohoho.had a great time sun tanning.
n yesh.im black now.heh
we were lying on the float.
floating arnd.lookin at the beautiful sky.
n i happily malued myself agn.=|
i was tryin to get up my round float.
n guess wad.lost my balance..
den uhmss.
did a backfliped in the wave pool.
dammit.n jie happily sniggered at me kies..
she nv bother to help me.
i knock my head on e bottom of the pool summore.
yikes.damn malu.n sum other ple laughed at me too.
cld feel my head swelling man.
goshh.my legs stuck outta the pool also.
aiyo.cant believe i malu myself in public.
har.den i saw juz how stupud i looked.
cos ltr sumone fat fell off the float too!
n my rxn was obviously to laugh..
thats normal kies.. =0
so we spent dunno how freakin long laughin at ple.
n blaming the sky to haf so many clouds
den cannt have nice nice chio sunburnt.
heh.but i did anw.
went westmall aft tt.
jie n i were hyperrr
it was so funny at the swimming pool.
okies.ate at kfc.
yeah.both of us had backache.
hmms.wadeverr.
den walked arnd.bought sum stuff.
n guess wad.
the next horrendous tg happened.
toopid jie ppoked e comb into my eye.
OUCHH!i want revenge.
n my eye started watering aft tt.
so pain k.juz imagine sth sharp entering ur eyeball.
yucks.gross eh?
ohwell.n she hapilly laughed at me agn.
wad rubbish lor please.
went home n mugged.
n den.daddy came home.
n goodness.he boutgh me my bilabong bag!!!!
i wad jumping up n down arnd my hse.
so happy kays.
harhar.daddy rocks man.oh yeah.
n i made nicole jealous once agn.
hoh0hoh.chio sling bag.gees.
den at nite when paddyfields for dinner
some high class thai restaurant.
damn bang kays.
the ambience so niceee. =)
food juz as good.harhar.
n i drank ice blanded latte aft dinner at oscars.
hmms.yumyum.
another great fabullous day passed.
whoots-.i love it when im happy.
harharharharha =D
ehs.but today very sad kies.
jie flew to hongkong le.
one week business trip lehs.
how long is that please.
've gotta slp all alone.
den no one to talk to at nite.
yikes.so saddening.
its barely a few hrs yet im missing her alredy.
ohwells.wait till she comes back.
den can seee all the nice tgs eh bought for me.
heehee.
n i realised sth.
after every sports day heats or sports day i will fall sick kay.
its was on a friday.
gosh.did i tell u how much i hate doctors.
yucks.irritating freaks.
only gimme horrible tasting medicine.
cant stand it please.
n also.i learnt to relax aloott alottt.
cant be too tensed when i haf a com or sth.
u perform better when u r relaxed.
hmms.great logic huh?
laalalala.
i juz pray every other day cld b as bang as tis.
but not when im sickk..
sighs.n actually.
im very very disappointed in myself tis yr.
cos never win a single trophy.
so depressing lor.
yeah.sighsighssobs.
shall work harder for next year then
since i cant turn back time..
Hurhurz..lemme recap a bit lar.
[160404] sports day
early morning go stadium.
Yupp.damn excited coz last yr dun haf sports day ma.
Surprisingly I wasn’t exactly worried abt my 4 by 4 race.
Din have any hope to vye for top 3 positions anw.
Not say im a defeatist or wadsoever.
But the other teams r indeed better.
Yupp.had interhse game ferst.
mms.jamie n I fell.
Oops.so malu.we still say cant fall.
Aiyo,wad rubbish lar pls.
It left a beeg bruise on my knee.
Ouch.painn lehs.sobs
Den cheered n cheered.
Shout till throat very itchy.
N time soon came for 4 by 4.
Reported.n I still wasn’t afraid.
But slowly got influenced by mq.
Heh.last runner pressure darn alott.
At least etg was over in a flash.
Got 4th.okay lar.not tt bad ehs?
But my timing is unbelievable lor
Sigh.will juz forget abt it.
I know its not possible anw..
Yeahyeah.but I was satisified 4 my performance lahs.
i beat my pb.winks.
Bronte rocks man!
Hahha.got 2nd for cheer n mascot.
N oh..interhse got FIRST!!!!
All thanks to the chio box krys n I did.
Wheee. =) hurhur.
Aft etg.had track foto taking.
Den ahem was being so irritating.
Cannot stand it.yucks. =/
Anyways.left for town wif Jamie n Nicole.
Magic open fairygodmothers.
Hehe.short of gen only.grins.
Yupp.pigged alottt.
N we took chio chio np at cine.
Tho the first 2 was screwed.heh.
but the final one was so niceee.
cos we were in it wadd.
harhar.wad more can u xpect.
smirkss-
spent $24 on neopriints lor.
goshh.so much.now im left brokee
den went yoshi.ate.
n i went for dental appt.
jamie went for german.
nic went home.
hehe.
had such fun towning.
wif de three musketteers. =)
[170404]
no trng yesterday.
so uhms.yupp.went swimmin wif yinxi jie.
ooolalala.met her at 850 at chinese garden.
proceeded to the jurong east pool.
the long slides n etg.
but obviously we din go down the slides.
cos mms.someone was scared of heights.
hohoho.had a great time sun tanning.
n yesh.im black now.heh
we were lying on the float.
floating arnd.lookin at the beautiful sky.
n i happily malued myself agn.=|
i was tryin to get up my round float.
n guess wad.lost my balance..
den uhmss.
did a backfliped in the wave pool.
dammit.n jie happily sniggered at me kies..
she nv bother to help me.
i knock my head on e bottom of the pool summore.
yikes.damn malu.n sum other ple laughed at me too.
cld feel my head swelling man.
goshh.my legs stuck outta the pool also.
aiyo.cant believe i malu myself in public.
har.den i saw juz how stupud i looked.
cos ltr sumone fat fell off the float too!
n my rxn was obviously to laugh..
thats normal kies.. =0
so we spent dunno how freakin long laughin at ple.
n blaming the sky to haf so many clouds
den cannt have nice nice chio sunburnt.
heh.but i did anw.
went westmall aft tt.
jie n i were hyperrr
it was so funny at the swimming pool.
okies.ate at kfc.
yeah.both of us had backache.
hmms.wadeverr.
den walked arnd.bought sum stuff.
n guess wad.
the next horrendous tg happened.
toopid jie ppoked e comb into my eye.
OUCHH!i want revenge.
n my eye started watering aft tt.
so pain k.juz imagine sth sharp entering ur eyeball.
yucks.gross eh?
ohwell.n she hapilly laughed at me agn.
wad rubbish lor please.
went home n mugged.
n den.daddy came home.
n goodness.he boutgh me my bilabong bag!!!!
i wad jumping up n down arnd my hse.
so happy kays.
harhar.daddy rocks man.oh yeah.
n i made nicole jealous once agn.
hoh0hoh.chio sling bag.gees.
den at nite when paddyfields for dinner
some high class thai restaurant.
damn bang kays.
the ambience so niceee. =)
food juz as good.harhar.
n i drank ice blanded latte aft dinner at oscars.
hmms.yumyum.
another great fabullous day passed.
whoots-.i love it when im happy.
harharharharha =D
ehs.but today very sad kies.
jie flew to hongkong le.
one week business trip lehs.
how long is that please.
've gotta slp all alone.
den no one to talk to at nite.
yikes.so saddening.
its barely a few hrs yet im missing her alredy.
ohwells.wait till she comes back.
den can seee all the nice tgs eh bought for me.
heehee.
n i realised sth.
after every sports day heats or sports day i will fall sick kay.
its was on a friday.
gosh.did i tell u how much i hate doctors.
yucks.irritating freaks.
only gimme horrible tasting medicine.
cant stand it please.
n also.i learnt to relax aloott alottt.
cant be too tensed when i haf a com or sth.
u perform better when u r relaxed.
hmms.great logic huh?
laalalala.
i juz pray every other day cld b as bang as tis.
but not when im sickk..
sighs.n actually.
im very very disappointed in myself tis yr.
cos never win a single trophy.
so depressing lor.
yeah.sighsighssobs.
shall work harder for next year then
since i cant turn back time..
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 11, 2004
sighs.im sickk.
bleahh.flu cough.n etg.
eyes a bit swollen.
i dunnoe y either.
n eh.im supposed to b running todae.
but e latest news is tt...
cldnt register =/
ahwell.perhaps its juz fate kies.
perhaps im jux not prepared
800m.its not a shortt race u noe.
aiyoh.nvm.at least 've gt n extra day to study.
yupp.tink sprinters a bit disappointed.
all cannot run.
aiyah,sitll rber mstay said we ALL should take part in 1500
but yet.sighss.
oh.nvm.no ones to b blame lar.
sighs.now long d all doing 3000m.
cep me.haix.i dun wan to anw.
okies.wadeverrrr.
nicole got new spkies.
harhar.its asics one.
like finally.heh.
but she's not as mad as me wn i got mine.
whoots-
yupp.admit its quite chio.heh.
trng was superr light for me yday.
cos i was supposed to run as i said.
but nvm.not prepared larhs.
dunno y i feel lik doing hurdles leh.
but nvm larhs.i nt gd enuff.
sports day tis friday.wahh.damn fastt.
not too sure wad i running also.
maybe the team events lors.
yeahyeah.tis yr i din win atg.
very saddening.
wad badmooding so much durin prize presentation.
cs i was juz disappointed in myself.
falling sick in sucha crucial time.
arghs.im always screwin up etg.
like wow!
haix.wadever lar.
n ohs.suddenly recalled etg tt hapenned on wed.
eeks! =S dunno
tt day toally malued myself.
den angie kinda saw thru me.
sorry =/
it was a rather depressiing daee
mstan was disappointed in me n yeahh.
i was sad lar.
jus hafta buck up.i noe..
reli sloggin out edae..
serious de.
hopefully my efforts will pay off.
i juz pray.
cos i dowana let ple down once agn...
seriously.i din noe i brighten up my frens day
-shocked-
okies.hope u r feeling better already.
n mousee..dont get too affected alrites??
cheerr up.n SMILE. =))
n laurel.u missed out the fun we had at chinatown on fri.
winks.harhar.so enjoyable.
heh.shall make u jealous. :P
n im suchaa pigg.
eat so much of jamie's nougat.
heehee.sollie.
've been thinking abt wad u said on wed.
u asked me to consider anyway.
guess it really had affected me alot.
im not too sure how to cope wif it next yr.
reults sucked n etg.
guess im prepared to face all the stress.
and also prepared to give it all up.
cos i think many people r unhappy.
i wld rather them b contented
maybe i dun mind being stripped off.
[im juz lying thru my teeth if i say tt]
but wadever ur decision
dont worry.i will accept it.yeah.
n sorry.din mean to break down in front of u.
guess i must have scared u a lil.
but sorry n yeahh.u decide.
bleahh.flu cough.n etg.
eyes a bit swollen.
i dunnoe y either.
n eh.im supposed to b running todae.
but e latest news is tt...
cldnt register =/
ahwell.perhaps its juz fate kies.
perhaps im jux not prepared
800m.its not a shortt race u noe.
aiyoh.nvm.at least 've gt n extra day to study.
yupp.tink sprinters a bit disappointed.
all cannot run.
aiyah,sitll rber mstay said we ALL should take part in 1500
but yet.sighss.
oh.nvm.no ones to b blame lar.
sighs.now long d all doing 3000m.
cep me.haix.i dun wan to anw.
okies.wadeverrrr.
nicole got new spkies.
harhar.its asics one.
like finally.heh.
but she's not as mad as me wn i got mine.
whoots-
yupp.admit its quite chio.heh.
trng was superr light for me yday.
cos i was supposed to run as i said.
but nvm.not prepared larhs.
dunno y i feel lik doing hurdles leh.
but nvm larhs.i nt gd enuff.
sports day tis friday.wahh.damn fastt.
not too sure wad i running also.
maybe the team events lors.
yeahyeah.tis yr i din win atg.
very saddening.
wad badmooding so much durin prize presentation.
cs i was juz disappointed in myself.
falling sick in sucha crucial time.
arghs.im always screwin up etg.
like wow!
haix.wadever lar.
n ohs.suddenly recalled etg tt hapenned on wed.
eeks! =S dunno
tt day toally malued myself.
den angie kinda saw thru me.
sorry =/
it was a rather depressiing daee
mstan was disappointed in me n yeahh.
i was sad lar.
jus hafta buck up.i noe..
reli sloggin out edae..
serious de.
hopefully my efforts will pay off.
i juz pray.
cos i dowana let ple down once agn...
seriously.i din noe i brighten up my frens day
-shocked-
okies.hope u r feeling better already.
n mousee..dont get too affected alrites??
cheerr up.n SMILE. =))
n laurel.u missed out the fun we had at chinatown on fri.
winks.harhar.so enjoyable.
heh.shall make u jealous. :P
n im suchaa pigg.
eat so much of jamie's nougat.
heehee.sollie.
u asked me to consider anyway.
guess it really had affected me alot.
im not too sure how to cope wif it next yr.
reults sucked n etg.
guess im prepared to face all the stress.
and also prepared to give it all up.
cos i think many people r unhappy.
i wld rather them b contented
maybe i dun mind being stripped off.
[im juz lying thru my teeth if i say tt]
but wadever ur decision
dont worry.i will accept it.yeah.
n sorry.din mean to break down in front of u.
guess i must have scared u a lil.
but sorry n yeahh.u decide.
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 04, 2004
040404
wad kind of atrocious date.
spoils the whole day.
wadeverr lar.
besides the week is always RUINED by trackk.
wad more can i ask for.
sighs.
friends already said i shud nt let track control my life.
but its not as tho i want lidat?
cant blame me for loving my cca wad.
n i tink its juz a stuppid cca stimes.
fancy havin so much misuderstandings
cos of a competition?
whose idea was it pleasee..
lame.
juz hafta go thru so much trouble.
in order to take part..
lidat mite as well dun take part ritte?
sighs.den fri talk to lois abt track affairs.
yeah.how to unite track n stuff.
juz too many tgs haf been happening le.
yeah.muz control somehow.
will try...rack my brains for a solution.
30th National Junior Championship.
mrlin ASKS[not force] me to do hurdles.
at first i WAS keen.
but realised mid yr a wk aft my race.
so tt weekend wld b wasted.
afraid it'll affect my results.
its bad enuff.cant afford to lose anymore marks.
so havin 2nd thots abt participating.
im lik totally one of the last in class le.
those competitve ones probably rejoicing abt my failures.
aiyohs.i dunno.
cant seem to b able to even help myself.
badmooding alot.
cos reli wanna do well.
tried putting hellalot of effort
but always to no avail.
nowadays every min means precious time.
determined nt to waste my time b4 trng ler.
can use tt one hr to reli studyy.
yeah.muz cut down on freedom le.
push myself.to reach my As.
so sadddening tt i dun do well.
sobs.neverrmindd.
n i realised i havent been arnd wn frens needed me the most.
wth.perhaps i haven been a fren good enuff.
when they feelg down i also nt arnd them.
sorry lehs.nt there for u all.
dont even noe y i was so guilty.
when i heard abt the news.. :(
jie can vouch for tt.
at wm yest.aiyohs.sorry kays..
reli cant get tgs right nowadays.
etg's juz making a detour n stuff.
the wrong way. =/
cant accept reality.
i always say the same tgs.
k.this is so irritating.
bleaghs.hate my life.
tink my sorrows can fill up the contents of a harry potter book.
ohwells.i shall be positive.
tink of happy happy tgs.
lame i am.sighs.wadeverr.
wad kind of atrocious date.
spoils the whole day.
wadeverr lar.
besides the week is always RUINED by trackk.
wad more can i ask for.
sighs.
friends already said i shud nt let track control my life.
but its not as tho i want lidat?
cant blame me for loving my cca wad.
n i tink its juz a stuppid cca stimes.
fancy havin so much misuderstandings
cos of a competition?
whose idea was it pleasee..
lame.
juz hafta go thru so much trouble.
in order to take part..
lidat mite as well dun take part ritte?
sighs.den fri talk to lois abt track affairs.
yeah.how to unite track n stuff.
juz too many tgs haf been happening le.
yeah.muz control somehow.
will try...rack my brains for a solution.
30th National Junior Championship.
mrlin ASKS[not force] me to do hurdles.
at first i WAS keen.
but realised mid yr a wk aft my race.
so tt weekend wld b wasted.
afraid it'll affect my results.
its bad enuff.cant afford to lose anymore marks.
so havin 2nd thots abt participating.
im lik totally one of the last in class le.
those competitve ones probably rejoicing abt my failures.
aiyohs.i dunno.
cant seem to b able to even help myself.
badmooding alot.
cos reli wanna do well.
tried putting hellalot of effort
but always to no avail.
nowadays every min means precious time.
determined nt to waste my time b4 trng ler.
can use tt one hr to reli studyy.
yeah.muz cut down on freedom le.
push myself.to reach my As.
so sadddening tt i dun do well.
sobs.neverrmindd.
n i realised i havent been arnd wn frens needed me the most.
wth.perhaps i haven been a fren good enuff.
when they feelg down i also nt arnd them.
sorry lehs.nt there for u all.
dont even noe y i was so guilty.
when i heard abt the news.. :(
jie can vouch for tt.
at wm yest.aiyohs.sorry kays..
reli cant get tgs right nowadays.
etg's juz making a detour n stuff.
the wrong way. =/
cant accept reality.
i always say the same tgs.
k.this is so irritating.
bleaghs.hate my life.
tink my sorrows can fill up the contents of a harry potter book.
ohwells.i shall be positive.
tink of happy happy tgs.
lame i am.sighs.wadeverr.
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