my dirty little secrets.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
phew.pbl is over.
great!at least things went smoothly:)
just got teased and yeahs.
stupid hairstyle.bleah.
i must say.our class really put in alot of effort.
every single grp either had a skit or a device.
whoo.not bad at all man.
its gonna be a tough fight i supposee..
and i just cant stand mrs neo.
or shall i sayHATE.kays.fine.
too harsh a word.just dislike.
bombard questions like bombs man.
heng i knew what bus went to UWC.
else she'll just mark us down.
TSK!
anyways.was in quite an ok mood.
until after school..
things started to go reallyy baddddd.
sighs.depressed.
cos of sir.?.aiyahs.
had to stay back all the way till 5.
just for him to finish pft.
and i was all alone.
not boring whatt.
he wants me to get the track board done asap.
but he doesnt know how busy i m.
all the tests and etg.
sir managed to get things of his chest.
so now, it becomes MY burden.
knowing me, i wun utter this to anyone.
cos i know..i aint suppose to
but there's just too many things i know stimes.
too much that it seems like im gonna explode.
all these bottling sure doesnt help.
but do i actually have a choice?
not at all!.sighs :(
life is miserable and depressing
i hope tmr doesnt come..
cos war is gonna erupt!!!
im serious.
there's gonna be 2 bloody conflicts tmr
btwn our two coaches.
guess its gonna be like last year.
i rber him telling me all these last year too.
gosh.and he's just gonna walk outta us.
i know he means it.
he always does what it says.
oh no.im damn afraid. =X
dun exactly dare to turn up tmr.
cos i think.things are gonna be pretty bad.
how?i pray.i pray
just one party have to give in.pleaseee.
nobody ever knows what sir's thinking.
dunno why he just have to tell me his troubles.
and me.having no one to confide at all.
ah wells.no choice.
thats just me =/
i need nothing more now but just a friend i could talk to
great!at least things went smoothly:)
just got teased and yeahs.
stupid hairstyle.bleah.
i must say.our class really put in alot of effort.
every single grp either had a skit or a device.
whoo.not bad at all man.
its gonna be a tough fight i supposee..
and i just cant stand mrs neo.
or shall i say
too harsh a word.just dislike.
bombard questions like bombs man.
heng i knew what bus went to UWC.
else she'll just mark us down.
TSK!
anyways.was in quite an ok mood.
until after school..
things started to go reallyy baddddd.
sighs.depressed.
cos of sir.?.aiyahs.
had to stay back all the way till 5.
just for him to finish pft.
and i was all alone.
not boring whatt.
he wants me to get the track board done asap.
but he doesnt know how busy i m.
all the tests and etg.
sir managed to get things of his chest.
so now, it becomes MY burden.
knowing me, i wun utter this to anyone.
cos i know..i aint suppose to
but there's just too many things i know stimes.
too much that it seems like im gonna explode.
all these bottling sure doesnt help.
but do i actually have a choice?
not at all!.sighs :(
life is miserable and depressing
i hope tmr doesnt come..
cos war is gonna erupt!!!
im serious.
there's gonna be 2 bloody conflicts tmr
btwn our two coaches.
guess its gonna be like last year.
i rber him telling me all these last year too.
gosh.and he's just gonna walk outta us.
i know he means it.
he always does what it says.
oh no.im damn afraid. =X
dun exactly dare to turn up tmr.
cos i think.things are gonna be pretty bad.
how?i pray.i pray
just one party have to give in.pleaseee.
nobody ever knows what sir's thinking.
dunno why he just have to tell me his troubles.
and me.having no one to confide at all.
ah wells.no choice.
thats just me =/
i need nothing more now but just a friend i could talk to
the girl next door;
Monday, July 26, 2004
pbl tmr.
hope everything turns out fine.
really dowana screw up anything.
yeahh.
and im gonna be that small little girl.
bleahs.
so malu =/
hope everything turns out fine.
really dowana screw up anything.
yeahh.
and im gonna be that small little girl.
bleahs.
so malu =/
the girl next door;
learnt so many things today.
heh.all thanks to my eng tuition tcher.
hee.actually based on an article larhs.
failures often occur in our lives.
success usually comes after disappointments
yupp.when u fail.
guess its usual to be upset and stuff.
but the main point is keep on going.
no point looking back.
no point crying over spilt milk.
learnt from ur mistakes.
dun make the same ones ever again.
when we come across a setback.
think positively.
look on the brighter side.
dun ever say u cant do it.
but tell youself.
u can,u will and u must
all things happen for a reason.
dun blame anyone after ur failure.
just tell yourself no one is perfect.
and all you need is just time to get urself to the top.
believe in yourself.have faith.
remember.
nothing is impossible in this world
when there's a will,there's a way
so yupp.this goes out to everyone.
but more importantly for Crez trackers.
dont be disheartened by this yr's performance kaes.
i know eveyone have trained really hard.
but guess its gonna be over in two days.
yupp.those who managed to survive this ordeal.
well done :)
those who failed.dun worry.
try harder for next year.
have the confidence and we'll all bring glory to crescent.
yupp.so good luck.
this wednesday will mark the ned of Nationals.
so yupp.jiayoouuu :)
all the way.
may the passion be in you.
heh.all thanks to my eng tuition tcher.
hee.actually based on an article larhs.
failures often occur in our lives.
success usually comes after disappointments
yupp.when u fail.
guess its usual to be upset and stuff.
but the main point is keep on going.
no point looking back.
no point crying over spilt milk.
learnt from ur mistakes.
dun make the same ones ever again.
when we come across a setback.
think positively.
look on the brighter side.
dun ever say u cant do it.
but tell youself.
u can,u will and u must
all things happen for a reason.
dun blame anyone after ur failure.
just tell yourself no one is perfect.
and all you need is just time to get urself to the top.
believe in yourself.have faith.
remember.
nothing is impossible in this world
when there's a will,there's a way
so yupp.this goes out to everyone.
but more importantly for Crez trackers.
dont be disheartened by this yr's performance kaes.
i know eveyone have trained really hard.
but guess its gonna be over in two days.
yupp.those who managed to survive this ordeal.
well done :)
those who failed.dun worry.
try harder for next year.
have the confidence and we'll all bring glory to crescent.
yupp.so good luck.
this wednesday will mark the ned of Nationals.
so yupp.jiayoouuu :)
all the way.
may the passion be in you.
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 25, 2004
just had terrble stinky gross medicine.
yucks =/ cant believe i've been sick for 5 whole days.
urghs.and i been to the doc so often this damn yr.
always after any competition, i'll fall sick.
1st was crescent x-country
2nd was national x-cpuntry
3rd was sports heats 1.
which was a terribly digusting experience
and now.the 4th time.national track n field meet.
freek.hate myself for being so 'feeble'
went doc four times in 7 months!
baingx.cant stand it pleaseee.
anyways.lemme updatee.
wednesday
had maths test.
must say i was quite difficult lor.
damn afraid i'll flung it.
sighs.shall wait and see.
had the dance thinggy.
oohh.so maluating.
danced in frnt of the whole calss.
with the video cam too.aikes.
yeahh.had to dance twice.
after sch.collected council u.
rushed to cck all my myself.
wanted to catch err.the 4by1 race.
but couldnt make it lar.
so stayed till 400m race.
yupp.they all qualified.
ethel,yuxiang and shuxian :)
thursday
no mass run!!!!
haha.so happy.cos i really din wanna run.
hohoho.
ntg much happened.
after school had speech day rehearsal.
goshhh.and i hadta wear tt stinky council u.
oh my..i cldnt balance on the heels.
almost fell of the stage i tell u
haha.walked like a darnit penguin..
think i looked terrible.
but seniors say okay lar.
smarter =) harhar.
boosted my self-esteem?
heehee.winks*
hands aching after carryin tt heavy trays.
haha.trained after tt.
did 150*4
what kinda light workout.
erps.tink my stamina muz had dropped alott
cant wait for nats to be over.
then it'll slack period!
haha.
friday
ning abandoned me.
she din come to school.
so i was damn lonely the entire day.
no one to talk to.
den d n t room also alone.
bleahs.
sch ended at 1.
stayed back to help mstan arrange chairs.
wooo.for once.
i saw our class be united agn.
haha.cos we were directing each others how to plc the chairr.
wheee.even dorcas is impressed.
haha.must say we did a great job :)
cos the chairs were super duper neat!
heh.mstan treated us to pizza after tt.
den went hm.started studyin.
oh.went jurong point after dinner.
bot my cord shoes.
yesterday
woke up at lik 5.55.
saturday also no beauty sleep.
aiyahs.it was raining super super heavily.
got wet even b4 i reached the car.
argh.reached sch at 645.
left tgs in council rm den helped mrskoh.
arranged the trophies.
changed into council u.
yikes.i simply dun like wearing tt.
it feels so err.weird.
TRIED walking preperly.
but cant.cos not used to it.
den they kept laughin at me.
tsk.so mean.
so speech day started.
and i was so nervous.
afraid i'll just drop the whole tray.
but glad tt din happen :)
there was only sum confusion in the midst.
damn happy it wass all overr.
hands were damn tired le.
and oh!!mrskoh put make up on us!
:S yucks.damn gross.
and i had like 3 friggin layers of lipstick. :/
anw.after watching the performance.
went to check out the track board.
yupp.its mucher nicer now.
with the photos.but all the same ple.
not nice.haha.just kidding. ;)
yeah.ethel,yuxiang,qixin,rachel were abt to leaave when i went?
haha.and they were sooo mean.
teased me abt my council u.
oh whateverr lorr.heh.cant be helped.
ltr went to eat with nicole and usarin.
and we were like damn cranky and stuff.
haha.oh yarh.we took alott of photos!
suchaa joyous day.heehee.
and think kitty chan damn funny.
we were eating half way and she was like
"who ate my cake?!?"
omg.that expression damn cute lor.
and nic and i started laughin.
who would wana steal her cake.
hahaa.she ar..
uhm.rotted in council rm.
just lazing arnd n ettg.
we were so tired..
left abt 1plus.
yeah.nic gave me a lift.thanks.
reached home.
ate instant for lunch.cos still hungry.
bathed.den slept.
supposed to be a short nap.
but ended up sleeping for 2 hours.
heh.woke up.studied abit.
den went clementi.
no appetite for dinner.
but i still ate.den see doctor.
$24.4 kinds of medicine.
ewwks.i really hate medicine lor.
but no choice.
came hm.
watcked thi jackie chan show.
which is soo hilarious i tell u.
we were laughin so badly.haaha.
okay.den i tried memorising pbl script.
wow.damn longg.but i memorised 3 paragraphs le
hah.quite and achievement ;)
slept at abt 11.45.
yupp.guess thats abt it.heh.
probably bore everyone to death on this loongg entry.
hah.tell grandma stories.
hehee.
think term 3 super hectic.
there's like alott of thing to be done.
and next wk gonna b terrible.
pbl.history and lit test.
and and.national finlas!!!
ahh.sec 2 trackkers shall go marche after tt.
haha.and we'll be damn tired on thurs.hah
yupp.best of luck to those who are running on wed!!
jiayoouu.bring glory to crescent
heehee.and oh.i wana annouce!!!
liping broke record for 3000m!!!
11.05 okies.omg.she damn bang lar please.
i must aim to be like her.
haha.but miaoqun was just as fast kaes.
yeah.2nd lehs.despite the high standars if this yr c div.
she still made it :)
miaoqun rocks my world.
haha.we shall all train for next yr.
since there're quite a number of disappointements in c div
despite we were the enthu and most commited ones always going for trng.
aiyahs.but dun give up kays.
must keep the passion going.
yupp.next yr.we'll show others our power!!!
haha.
i cant wait!!im damn excited.
cos jie coming home tonight.
from bangkok.yay.
den i wun be sleeping alone.
and i'll have new stuff.
heehee.hope she bot alot alot of tgs for me.
hahha.so ego lar
oh.btw.there's trng tmr at spe at 3.30.
yupp.should be lar.
but sad to say..i cant go.
cos i've got tuition.
actually no.cos i can change my tuition.
just tt.im sick.
and im not allowed to go for trng just yet.
arghs.just afaid mrlin tthinks i've given up hope le.
whihc is simply not true.
sighs.ohwells.will train harder.
after i recovered.yeahh
i hate the feeling of being sick
yucks =/ cant believe i've been sick for 5 whole days.
urghs.and i been to the doc so often this damn yr.
always after any competition, i'll fall sick.
1st was crescent x-country
2nd was national x-cpuntry
3rd was sports heats 1.
which was a terribly digusting experience
and now.the 4th time.national track n field meet.
freek.hate myself for being so 'feeble'
went doc four times in 7 months!
baingx.cant stand it pleaseee.
anyways.lemme updatee.
wednesday
had maths test.
must say i was quite difficult lor.
damn afraid i'll flung it.
sighs.shall wait and see.
had the dance thinggy.
oohh.so maluating.
danced in frnt of the whole calss.
with the video cam too.aikes.
yeahh.had to dance twice.
after sch.collected council u.
rushed to cck all my myself.
wanted to catch err.the 4by1 race.
but couldnt make it lar.
so stayed till 400m race.
yupp.they all qualified.
ethel,yuxiang and shuxian :)
thursday
no mass run!!!!
haha.so happy.cos i really din wanna run.
hohoho.
ntg much happened.
after school had speech day rehearsal.
goshhh.and i hadta wear tt stinky council u.
oh my..i cldnt balance on the heels.
almost fell of the stage i tell u
haha.walked like a darnit penguin..
think i looked terrible.
but seniors say okay lar.
smarter =) harhar.
boosted my self-esteem?
heehee.winks*
hands aching after carryin tt heavy trays.
haha.trained after tt.
did 150*4
what kinda light workout.
erps.tink my stamina muz had dropped alott
cant wait for nats to be over.
then it'll slack period!
haha.
friday
ning abandoned me.
she din come to school.
so i was damn lonely the entire day.
no one to talk to.
den d n t room also alone.
bleahs.
sch ended at 1.
stayed back to help mstan arrange chairs.
wooo.for once.
i saw our class be united agn.
haha.cos we were directing each others how to plc the chairr.
wheee.even dorcas is impressed.
haha.must say we did a great job :)
cos the chairs were super duper neat!
heh.mstan treated us to pizza after tt.
den went hm.started studyin.
oh.went jurong point after dinner.
bot my cord shoes.
yesterday
woke up at lik 5.55.
saturday also no beauty sleep.
aiyahs.it was raining super super heavily.
got wet even b4 i reached the car.
argh.reached sch at 645.
left tgs in council rm den helped mrskoh.
arranged the trophies.
changed into council u.
yikes.i simply dun like wearing tt.
it feels so err.weird.
TRIED walking preperly.
but cant.cos not used to it.
den they kept laughin at me.
tsk.so mean.
so speech day started.
and i was so nervous.
afraid i'll just drop the whole tray.
but glad tt din happen :)
there was only sum confusion in the midst.
damn happy it wass all overr.
hands were damn tired le.
and oh!!mrskoh put make up on us!
:S yucks.damn gross.
and i had like 3 friggin layers of lipstick. :/
anw.after watching the performance.
went to check out the track board.
yupp.its mucher nicer now.
with the photos.but all the same ple.
not nice.haha.just kidding. ;)
yeah.ethel,yuxiang,qixin,rachel were abt to leaave when i went?
haha.and they were sooo mean.
teased me abt my council u.
oh whateverr lorr.heh.cant be helped.
ltr went to eat with nicole and usarin.
and we were like damn cranky and stuff.
haha.oh yarh.we took alott of photos!
suchaa joyous day.heehee.
and think kitty chan damn funny.
we were eating half way and she was like
"who ate my cake?!?"
omg.that expression damn cute lor.
and nic and i started laughin.
who would wana steal her cake.
hahaa.she ar..
uhm.rotted in council rm.
just lazing arnd n ettg.
we were so tired..
left abt 1plus.
yeah.nic gave me a lift.thanks.
reached home.
ate instant for lunch.cos still hungry.
bathed.den slept.
supposed to be a short nap.
but ended up sleeping for 2 hours.
heh.woke up.studied abit.
den went clementi.
no appetite for dinner.
but i still ate.den see doctor.
$24.4 kinds of medicine.
ewwks.i really hate medicine lor.
but no choice.
came hm.
watcked thi jackie chan show.
which is soo hilarious i tell u.
we were laughin so badly.haaha.
okay.den i tried memorising pbl script.
wow.damn longg.but i memorised 3 paragraphs le
hah.quite and achievement ;)
slept at abt 11.45.
yupp.guess thats abt it.heh.
probably bore everyone to death on this loongg entry.
hah.tell grandma stories.
hehee.
think term 3 super hectic.
there's like alott of thing to be done.
and next wk gonna b terrible.
pbl.history and lit test.
and and.national finlas!!!
ahh.sec 2 trackkers shall go marche after tt.
haha.and we'll be damn tired on thurs.hah
yupp.best of luck to those who are running on wed!!
jiayoouu.bring glory to crescent
heehee.and oh.i wana annouce!!!
liping broke record for 3000m!!!
11.05 okies.omg.she damn bang lar please.
i must aim to be like her.
haha.but miaoqun was just as fast kaes.
yeah.2nd lehs.despite the high standars if this yr c div.
she still made it :)
miaoqun rocks my world.
haha.we shall all train for next yr.
since there're quite a number of disappointements in c div
despite we were the enthu and most commited ones always going for trng.
aiyahs.but dun give up kays.
must keep the passion going.
yupp.next yr.we'll show others our power!!!
haha.
i cant wait!!im damn excited.
cos jie coming home tonight.
from bangkok.yay.
den i wun be sleeping alone.
and i'll have new stuff.
heehee.hope she bot alot alot of tgs for me.
hahha.so ego lar
oh.btw.there's trng tmr at spe at 3.30.
yupp.should be lar.
but sad to say..i cant go.
cos i've got tuition.
actually no.cos i can change my tuition.
just tt.im sick.
and im not allowed to go for trng just yet.
arghs.just afaid mrlin tthinks i've given up hope le.
whihc is simply not true.
sighs.ohwells.will train harder.
after i recovered.yeahh
i hate the feeling of being sick
the girl next door;
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
i must have been pretty stern todayy.
yeah.no one really dared to talked to me
cos perhaps was still badmooding abt my race lar
aiyo.nevermind.
realised i got 7th plc in my heat.
which is like how slow..
2.49 lehs.could have ran better.
i swear i could had.
anyways.im haveing a terrible sore throat.
yeah.thats why this morning i hardly opened my mouth.
afraid to sound like a friggin froggie.
yucks.got speech day rehearsal ltr.
cant support ethel,yuxiang,usarin,yujia and yitian.
sobs.i wana go cck!!!
blahh.see if i can rush down in time lar
i try.see if i can cab down.
but i already wished them good luck le.
so i'll still be supporting them in spirit
heh.they so power.
sure qualify one lah.
yeah.jiayoou :)
rrealised tt christians are very optimistic.
as in seriously yes.
haha.they seem to get over tgs really quickly
whats gone is gone.
yeah.there's disappointed.
but they learn from their mistakes.
yupp.they damn bang lar
i am so envious.
but im pesismistic.
cos i see the hole.not doughnut.
[heh.its on my t-shirt]
i wana change my event.
dowana do 800m ler.bleahs.
thanks to those who cheered me up yesterday :)
u all rock lar.
haha.thats why i love track so muchh.
cos they are so lame and crappy.
and has stupid jokes.
which make ple laugh non-stop.
haha.thanksalotttt =P
yeah.no one really dared to talked to me
cos perhaps was still badmooding abt my race lar
aiyo.nevermind.
realised i got 7th plc in my heat.
which is like how slow..
2.49 lehs.could have ran better.
i swear i could had.
anyways.im haveing a terrible sore throat.
yeah.thats why this morning i hardly opened my mouth.
afraid to sound like a friggin froggie.
yucks.got speech day rehearsal ltr.
cant support ethel,yuxiang,usarin,yujia and yitian.
sobs.i wana go cck!!!
blahh.see if i can rush down in time lar
i try.see if i can cab down.
but i already wished them good luck le.
so i'll still be supporting them in spirit
heh.they so power.
sure qualify one lah.
yeah.jiayoou :)
rrealised tt christians are very optimistic.
as in seriously yes.
haha.they seem to get over tgs really quickly
whats gone is gone.
yeah.there's disappointed.
but they learn from their mistakes.
yupp.they damn bang lar
i am so envious.
but im pesismistic.
cos i see the hole.not doughnut.
[heh.its on my t-shirt]
i wana change my event.
thanks to those who cheered me up yesterday :)
u all rock lar.
haha.thats why i love track so muchh.
cos they are so lame and crappy.
and has stupid jokes.
which make ple laugh non-stop.
haha.thanksalotttt =P
the girl next door;
Monday, July 19, 2004
gimme some time to get over my disappointment
damn.
its over.i cried.im disappointed.i failed.
screwed it all up.my only chance.
i hate myself.
gave up hope.
dowana run anymore.
supposed to kan de kai.
but i cant do it.
just too depressing.
i cld have sprinted the last 100m at least.
from 3rd become 6th.what rubbish.
damn sad :(
sorry for scaring u ple when i suddenly broke into tears.
never knew tt tears were so hard to be controlled.
the day i;ve been trng so hard for
its over just like tt.in a flash.
so touched for those who went to cck just to suport us.
yeah.i know my performance was terrible.
i regret.
still feeling so nan shou.
dun dare to face anyone anymore.
i should have known.
i was not fit to be a trackker.
i am no 800m material.
just some idiot who cant run.
wished i wasnt so beiguan.
but cant be helped.
after every race
i'll just break down.
regretting all my actions and stuff.
when will there be an end to this torment.
i can always be the one encouraging others.
giving them all the confidence they need.
yet.i cant do likewise for myself.
damn upset.guess i cld have pushed a bit more.
or maybe i shudnt have ran so fast the first rnd.
72 sec leh..damnit.
i let the track team down.
far beyong expectations.
yet mrlin claims it was a good run.
just tt i cldnt open up the last 300m.
yeahh.im still demoraelised lar.
nothing can cheer me up just yet.
no mood for atg.
cant concentrate in studies.
failures.setbacks.disappointments.
think i faced too many already.
i hope to give up.
i cant stop crying.
im really very disappointed.
trying so friggin hard to act happy in front of my family.
damn.
just kick me out of Crez track and leave me alone to strangle myself to death
damn.
its over.i cried.im disappointed.i failed.
screwed it all up.my only chance.
i hate myself.
gave up hope.
dowana run anymore.
supposed to kan de kai.
but i cant do it.
just too depressing.
i cld have sprinted the last 100m at least.
from 3rd become 6th.what rubbish.
damn sad :(
sorry for scaring u ple when i suddenly broke into tears.
never knew tt tears were so hard to be controlled.
the day i;ve been trng so hard for
its over just like tt.in a flash.
so touched for those who went to cck just to suport us.
yeah.i know my performance was terrible.
i regret.
still feeling so nan shou.
dun dare to face anyone anymore.
i should have known.
i was not fit to be a trackker.
i am no 800m material.
just some idiot who cant run.
wished i wasnt so beiguan.
but cant be helped.
after every race
i'll just break down.
regretting all my actions and stuff.
when will there be an end to this torment.
i can always be the one encouraging others.
giving them all the confidence they need.
yet.i cant do likewise for myself.
damn upset.guess i cld have pushed a bit more.
or maybe i shudnt have ran so fast the first rnd.
72 sec leh..damnit.
i let the track team down.
far beyong expectations.
yet mrlin claims it was a good run.
just tt i cldnt open up the last 300m.
yeahh.im still demoraelised lar.
nothing can cheer me up just yet.
no mood for atg.
cant concentrate in studies.
failures.setbacks.disappointments.
think i faced too many already.
i hope to give up.
i cant stop crying.
im really very disappointed.
trying so friggin hard to act happy in front of my family.
damn.
just kick me out of Crez track and leave me alone to strangle myself to death
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 18, 2004
omg.
so close to my damnit race tmr.
its just tt few pathetic hours.
and before i know.
i'll be standing at the starting line
all ready to gif it my best shot.
ahh.rubbish larhs.
im tensed.very in fact.
butterflies in my tummy.
fluttering
haha.im like so lame.
blahh.nemind.
just scared.
i wun run a good race.
but its my event.
and i have to do my best.
else i'll regret like shit.
kaes.im gonna be sodead tmr.
and i think my pe tcher wun lemme off pe
im sure.she'll just make me run
just tt its lesser than the others.
oh whateverr.im not goona run.
cos i know im not supposed to run.
eh.im still worried.
sighs.please kindly gimme all the luck.
and pray for me...
so close to my damnit race tmr.
its just tt few pathetic hours.
and before i know.
i'll be standing at the starting line
all ready to gif it my best shot.
ahh.rubbish larhs.
im tensed.very in fact.
butterflies in my tummy.
fluttering
haha.im like so lame.
blahh.nemind.
just scared.
i wun run a good race.
but its my event.
and i have to do my best.
else i'll regret like shit.
kaes.im gonna be so
and i think my pe tcher wun lemme off pe
im sure.she'll just make me run
just tt its lesser than the others.
oh whateverr.im not goona run.
cos i know im not supposed to run.
eh.im still worried.
sighs.please kindly gimme all the luck.
and pray for me...
the girl next door;
damn.
im sick.like what de hell?
i have a super duper bad bad cough.
and its reallly badddddd.
with so much phlegm
ahh.i hate myself =(
how to run with all these sickness?
sobs.it always happen when my race is abt to come.
in fact is tmr
sighs.how do u expect me not to be tensed.
got no faith in myself.
doubt i'll get ito the finals anywaysss...
had trng early in the morning yesterday
well.the workout was kinda light.
400,300,100.
adds up to exactly 800m.yah.
in btwn 30sec break.
yupp.so its like my heart was thumping so friggin fast.
and i still hatda run..
my 300m was blocked by this 2 ple.
arghs.make me cut from lane 1 all the way to lane 4.
bloody hell.
i wanted to shout at her and him.
but i was panting too heavily.
still i was pissed.cos my timing wasnt accurate.
guess it slowed me down by 2 secs.
haiyahs.
if only i can run that fast for 800m lor.
as in all the workout timing added tgt.
yeah.i wld be overjoyed..
haha.but.i know its impossibleee.
im not that good :(
anw.went to yining's house after tt to do the hist project.
we interviewed her grandma.
and found out sum gruesome stuff abt WWII
quite scarreee lahs.
heh.but we're doing it for the sake of our project.
wrote part of the script.
yeh.think its ultra lame.haha.
went Bugis after tt.
to pray.cos it was the 1st of june in chinese calendar.
yeah.prayed to run a good race tmr.
shopped arnd bugis junction.
had dinner.den went home.
oh..i saw the entire collection of baby g watches there.
damn chio kayss.
but all very ex one.
and there's this orange baby g watch which im sure jamie wld love it.
hahaha.damn nicce =)
aiyo.realised im kinda lethargic lately.
everyday cum back home only sleep.
din even do any hw yet.
biangx.im dead.
there's piles of hw for me to be done by tmr.
and i havent started at all.
dunno if its cos of track.
draining all my energy.
to even sit down and study properly.
whole day preoccupied with track
yeah.but doesnt matter larh
after Nats shall really buck up for CT
cos u dun expect me to study sooo hard now.
when my competition is like tmr?!
yikes.i dowanna run man.
with the cough i have,
i'll probably choke on my saliva and die right on the stop.
okies.maybe i'll hyperventilate and be sent to the hospital agn!
oh choy!i dun wan tt to happen.
im just spouting nonsense cos im not in the right state.
saying all sorts of rubbish so that i can escape from this run.
but im tryint to think of it +tively.
after all these months of strenuos trng.
surely i wana get into the finals right?
and not just let all my hardwork go to the drain.
yeah.all these days.
i've worked for this very day.
and now that its here.
it seems as tho im backing out.
what my bloody problem larhs.
freakk.
wells.guess i'll change my damn attitude.
hmm.
actually.i really really wana get into the finals.
truthfullly.
i tell u.if i dun get into the finals.
i DEFINITELY break down right on the spot.
just start crying and weeping
feeling so demoraelised and full of regret.
so yupp.in order to avoid that terrrible situation.
im gonna push all the way.
i'll do anything to get into the finals.
im serious.
i reaallly really wish to see my hardwork paying off at the track tmr.
yeah.may God bless me.
i need all the luck that i can have.
i this kind.sighs.
no comments larhs.
just pray for me.
and bring me thru the race.
yupp.i shall cross my fingers and have a good nights sleep.
haiyahs.
anyways.to the 4by100m c div team.
i know u ple are disappointed pissed and stuff.
but cheer up kaes.
it maybe the last yr in the c div.
but u can always try agn next year.
setbacks occur for you to improve yourself.
so no point wasting your effort scolding others.
as in yeahh.its good to be disappointed.
but the main point is.you must learn from ur mistake.
and not make the same mistake agn.
yeahs.i believe you people.
show those terrible biased judges that Crescent will produce a damnit strong 4by100m team next year.
so continue to work hard kaes..
i'll be behind you all forever..muacks*
jiayooouu!
im sick.like what de hell?
i have a super duper bad bad cough.
and its reallly badddddd.
with so much phlegm
ahh.i hate myself =(
how to run with all these sickness?
sobs.it always happen when my race is abt to come.
in fact is tmr
sighs.how do u expect me not to be tensed.
got no faith in myself.
doubt i'll get ito the finals anywaysss...
had trng early in the morning yesterday
well.the workout was kinda light.
400,300,100.
adds up to exactly 800m.yah.
in btwn 30sec break.
yupp.so its like my heart was thumping so friggin fast.
and i still hatda run..
my 300m was blocked by this 2 ple.
arghs.make me cut from lane 1 all the way to lane 4.
bloody hell.
i wanted to shout at her and him.
but i was panting too heavily.
still i was pissed.cos my timing wasnt accurate.
guess it slowed me down by 2 secs.
haiyahs.
if only i can run that fast for 800m lor.
as in all the workout timing added tgt.
yeah.i wld be overjoyed..
haha.but.i know its impossibleee.
im not that good :(
anw.went to yining's house after tt to do the hist project.
we interviewed her grandma.
and found out sum gruesome stuff abt WWII
quite scarreee lahs.
heh.but we're doing it for the sake of our project.
wrote part of the script.
yeh.think its ultra lame.haha.
went Bugis after tt.
to pray.cos it was the 1st of june in chinese calendar.
yeah.prayed to run a good race tmr.
shopped arnd bugis junction.
had dinner.den went home.
oh..i saw the entire collection of baby g watches there.
damn chio kayss.
but all very ex one.
and there's this orange baby g watch which im sure jamie wld love it.
hahaha.damn nicce =)
aiyo.realised im kinda lethargic lately.
everyday cum back home only sleep.
din even do any hw yet.
biangx.im dead.
there's piles of hw for me to be done by tmr.
and i havent started at all.
dunno if its cos of track.
draining all my energy.
to even sit down and study properly.
whole day preoccupied with track
yeah.but doesnt matter larh
after Nats shall really buck up for CT
cos u dun expect me to study sooo hard now.
when my competition is like tmr?!
yikes.i dowanna run man.
with the cough i have,
i'll probably choke on my saliva and die right on the stop.
okies.maybe i'll hyperventilate and be sent to the hospital agn!
oh choy!i dun wan tt to happen.
im just spouting nonsense cos im not in the right state.
saying all sorts of rubbish so that i can escape from this run.
but im tryint to think of it +tively.
after all these months of strenuos trng.
surely i wana get into the finals right?
and not just let all my hardwork go to the drain.
yeah.all these days.
i've worked for this very day.
and now that its here.
it seems as tho im backing out.
what my bloody problem larhs.
freakk.
wells.guess i'll change my damn attitude.
hmm.
actually.i really really wana get into the finals.
truthfullly.
i tell u.if i dun get into the finals.
i DEFINITELY break down right on the spot.
just start crying and weeping
feeling so demoraelised and full of regret.
so yupp.in order to avoid that terrrible situation.
im gonna push all the way.
i'll do anything to get into the finals.
im serious.
i reaallly really wish to see my hardwork paying off at the track tmr.
yeah.may God bless me.
i need all the luck that i can have.
i this kind.sighs.
no comments larhs.
just pray for me.
and bring me thru the race.
yupp.i shall cross my fingers and have a good nights sleep.
haiyahs.
anyways.to the 4by100m c div team.
i know u ple are disappointed pissed and stuff.
but cheer up kaes.
it maybe the last yr in the c div.
but u can always try agn next year.
setbacks occur for you to improve yourself.
so no point wasting your effort scolding others.
as in yeahh.its good to be disappointed.
but the main point is.you must learn from ur mistake.
and not make the same mistake agn.
yeahs.i believe you people.
show those terrible biased judges that Crescent will produce a damnit strong 4by100m team next year.
so continue to work hard kaes..
i'll be behind you all forever..muacks*
jiayooouu!
the girl next door;
Friday, July 16, 2004
okies.its the second day of nat lers.
well.genarally.we did well:)
really wanna congratulate the whole crescent track team.
think they rock my world. haha.yay yay.performance was good.heh.
too lazy to elaborate on every race la. cos im rushing thru this post.
need to get myself studying. but obv there aint any mood cos of my race on monday.
damn fast kaes.yikes. hope i dun freak out.
and denise bot me a bottle of mineral water and say i must run well haha.totally like bribery.gee.
okies.so today got sum arguement bout the 4by100.
but all the same i think we DESERVE to get in. so hope we're in.
cos i dunno the final decision freak la..
whoever who disqualified us.damn.
anyway.there's trng tmr at 8am. how early =/ and im doing history after tt. sighs.
back pain.hurts alot.yeah. very worried.my race how?
bend or walk or atg still hurts.
blardiee hell.hate it lar. very dao mei can.
at this time den must happen. sobs.afraid i dun run well.
cos of this. and i'll be damn disappointed if got no new pB seriously..
haiyahs. i must must must get into finals. dowana let my hardwork go to a waste.
but then agn. i admit im just SLOwww. yeah.get it only most prob last to qualify
and my second toe hurts too!!!
its like so swollen ok.
either blister a corn or a dunno what crap.
sighs.whateverrr lahss.
we'll wait and see how terrible i perform.
just dun have that confidence.
bleahhs.
stressed by this race :(
well.genarally.we did well:)
really wanna congratulate the whole crescent track team.
think they rock my world. haha.yay yay.performance was good.heh.
too lazy to elaborate on every race la. cos im rushing thru this post.
need to get myself studying. but obv there aint any mood cos of my race on monday.
damn fast kaes.yikes. hope i dun freak out.
and denise bot me a bottle of mineral water and say i must run well haha.totally like bribery.gee.
okies.so today got sum arguement bout the 4by100.
but all the same i think we DESERVE to get in. so hope we're in.
cos i dunno the final decision freak la..
whoever who disqualified us.damn.
anyway.there's trng tmr at 8am. how early =/ and im doing history after tt. sighs.
back pain.hurts alot.yeah. very worried.my race how?
bend or walk or atg still hurts.
blardiee hell.hate it lar. very dao mei can.
at this time den must happen. sobs.afraid i dun run well.
cos of this. and i'll be damn disappointed if got no new pB seriously..
haiyahs. i must must must get into finals. dowana let my hardwork go to a waste.
but then agn. i admit im just SLOwww. yeah.get it only most prob last to qualify
and my second toe hurts too!!!
its like so swollen ok.
either blister a corn or a dunno what crap.
sighs.whateverrr lahss.
we'll wait and see how terrible i perform.
just dun have that confidence.
bleahhs.
stressed by this race :(
the girl next door;
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
phew.presented chinese today.
great!its over.so relieved.
well.hope it went well.
but i kept stumbling on my words.
aiya.just say i cant speak chinese la.
uhmm.yupps.
got back maths test.
okay wit my results.
tho i could have earned back tt one mark.
cos it was farr too careless.tsk.
hadta run during pe today.
tho it was supposed to be COMPLETE rest.
buttt.lim din allow.cls only run a rnd less.
bleahs.and my back's aching.
the right side.hurts whenever i bend.
arghs.i doenoe.
went home with gen after school.
went jurong point.
and bot famous amos cookies.
woahh so ex.sighs.nvm
sorta got scolded by sir AGAIN.
so routine lers.
ntg special bout tt.
but at least we're getting the track suit tmr.
yays.got ticked off by sir cos he said i shudnt take his words so hard
nevermind.
at least tt made him let us be excused from mass run tmr :)
bro's bday tmr.
and his tcher gave him the addidas climacool watch.
how sweet
now he can show off.haha.
and we're having pizza tmr!
yay!haha.i love pizzas.
yupp.bernice's bday tmr too
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
okies.tmr's nats.
the tension had came.
can feel the butterflies fluttering arnd.
aiyohs.hope Crescent does well.
cos i have confidence in all the trackkers.
yupp.
ALL THE WAY CRESCENT! :)
i'll always be behind you all.
yipeeee
great!its over.so relieved.
well.hope it went well.
but i kept stumbling on my words.
aiya.just say i cant speak chinese la.
uhmm.yupps.
got back maths test.
okay wit my results.
tho i could have earned back tt one mark.
cos it was farr too careless.tsk.
hadta run during pe today.
tho it was supposed to be COMPLETE rest.
buttt.lim din allow.cls only run a rnd less.
bleahs.and my back's aching.
the right side.hurts whenever i bend.
arghs.i doenoe.
went home with gen after school.
went jurong point.
and bot famous amos cookies.
woahh so ex.sighs.nvm
sorta got scolded by sir AGAIN.
so routine lers.
ntg special bout tt.
but at least we're getting the track suit tmr.
yays.got ticked off by sir cos he said i shudnt take his words so hard
nevermind.
at least tt made him let us be excused from mass run tmr :)
bro's bday tmr.
and his tcher gave him the addidas climacool watch.
how sweet
now he can show off.haha.
and we're having pizza tmr!
yay!haha.i love pizzas.
yupp.bernice's bday tmr too
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
okies.tmr's nats.
the tension had came.
can feel the butterflies fluttering arnd.
aiyohs.hope Crescent does well.
cos i have confidence in all the trackkers.
yupp.
ALL THE WAY CRESCENT! :)
i'll always be behind you all.
yipeeee
the girl next door;
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
wells.we had friggin time trial today.
biangx.almost made me cry.
cos i was far too scared.yupp.
actually i knew it on mon le.
but i thot i wasnt included.
ahh.anw.ran 400m.
yupp.and i stupidly cut lane.
still thot i was running 800m.
wth.so malu.
and i din even realised until dunno how told me.
bleahs.okie.at least it wasnt tt bad.
tho i felt i cld push a lil bit more
yahh.at least it was over very fast.
n i immediately collapsed after tt run.
bleah.denise say i was running strong the first 200m.
yeah.good expreience lah huh.
built up tt tension in me.
now i know exactly how i wld feel like for nats.
yeah.i may have ran well todae,
but still.i dun wana run 4by400m on thurs.
cos im worried.
im scared.and i know i'll just pull the whole team down.
i dowan tt to happen.
sighs.how?tell me how?
and if i run on thurs n we get into finals.
i may not necessarily run on finals.
and if they win.i wun get the medal.
yikes.kaes.im thinking too far.
but maybe i wld have done my part den.
haiyahs.confusion =/
i let God decide
who will run this thurs
whatever it is.i dun care.
guess i will just accept the outcome.yupp.
okies.one thing im happy abt.
i dunid to run for pe tmr :)
and mass run on thurs too!
yay.suddenly dun feel the passion to run anymore.
wadeverr.
and ohh.i found my long lost side door key =)
heh.that $50 one.which i lost las year.
yay.so happy kaes.haha.
found it at the lost and found notice board in the canteen.
haha.i was staring at it for quite long.
cos thot it was kinda familiar.
hahaha.how funny rights ;)
ahh.tmr's my chinese presentation.
hope things go well.
and etg will be over.heh.
and we're getting back maths test too!
hee.also.there's dance during music.
hah.long longg dayyy =)
secrets are meant to be kept bottled inside.
be rest assured that i would not leak it out.
biangx.almost made me cry.
cos i was far too scared.yupp.
actually i knew it on mon le.
but i thot i wasnt included.
ahh.anw.ran 400m.
yupp.and i stupidly cut lane.
still thot i was running 800m.
wth.so malu.
and i din even realised until dunno how told me.
bleahs.okie.at least it wasnt tt bad.
tho i felt i cld push a lil bit more
yahh.at least it was over very fast.
n i immediately collapsed after tt run.
bleah.denise say i was running strong the first 200m.
yeah.good expreience lah huh.
built up tt tension in me.
now i know exactly how i wld feel like for nats.
yeah.i may have ran well todae,
but still.i dun wana run 4by400m on thurs.
cos im worried.
im scared.and i know i'll just pull the whole team down.
i dowan tt to happen.
sighs.how?tell me how?
and if i run on thurs n we get into finals.
i may not necessarily run on finals.
and if they win.i wun get the medal.
yikes.kaes.im thinking too far.
but maybe i wld have done my part den.
haiyahs.confusion =/
i let God decide
who will run this thurs
whatever it is.i dun care.
guess i will just accept the outcome.yupp.
okies.one thing im happy abt.
i dunid to run for pe tmr :)
and mass run on thurs too!
yay.suddenly dun feel the passion to run anymore.
wadeverr.
and ohh.i found my long lost side door key =)
heh.that $50 one.which i lost las year.
yay.so happy kaes.haha.
found it at the lost and found notice board in the canteen.
haha.i was staring at it for quite long.
cos thot it was kinda familiar.
hahaha.how funny rights ;)
ahh.tmr's my chinese presentation.
hope things go well.
and etg will be over.heh.
and we're getting back maths test too!
hee.also.there's dance during music.
hah.long longg dayyy =)
secrets are meant to be kept bottled inside.
be rest assured that i would not leak it out.
the girl next door;
just needed to apologise for everything.
i know i have been offending alot of ple lately.
im sorry okies.
just not in the right state and stuff.
irritated and blahhh.
yeah.sorry lah.
i really din mean all the harsh stuff i've said.
din mean to make anyone feel guilty.
well.there isnt a need to.
yeah.its my fault.
i chose my life.so yupp.
i dun blame anyone but just myself.
havent been myself past few days.
i dunno why
perhaps just preoccupied with all the stress.
spend most of my time thinking abt..
FRIENDS
to me.thats the most impt thing in life.
im serious.
but yet im unable to find a true friend.
or rather.i dunnno who is that soul.
things changes so frequently.
stimes i just dun seem to know why.
yeah.stressed la huh.bleahs.
whateverr.
anyway.getting more and more frustrated.
she has been like "overpowering" me?
i dunno lahs.
makybe its just the thing in me
and yeah.i admit im seeing green.
jealous?argh.too hard a word to use.
but yupp.cannot stand it.
the way she does thing to spite me.
or maybe im just over sensitive
heck.all i know is she has changed.
definitely
unless its me who had changed?
yahh.i suppose so.
i shall just take the blame.
grrr.
sorry people :(
i know i have been offending alot of ple lately.
im sorry okies.
just not in the right state and stuff.
irritated and blahhh.
yeah.sorry lah.
i really din mean all the harsh stuff i've said.
din mean to make anyone feel guilty.
well.there isnt a need to.
yeah.its my fault.
i chose my life.so yupp.
i dun blame anyone but just myself.
havent been myself past few days.
i dunno why
perhaps just preoccupied with all the stress.
spend most of my time thinking abt..
FRIENDS
to me.thats the most impt thing in life.
im serious.
but yet im unable to find a true friend.
or rather.i dunnno who is that soul.
things changes so frequently.
stimes i just dun seem to know why.
yeah.stressed la huh.bleahs.
whateverr.
anyway.getting more and more frustrated.
she has been like "overpowering" me?
i dunno lahs.
makybe its just the thing in me
and yeah.i admit im seeing green.
jealous?argh.too hard a word to use.
but yupp.cannot stand it.
the way she does thing to spite me.
or maybe im just over sensitive
heck.all i know is she has changed.
definitely
unless its me who had changed?
yahh.i suppose so.
i shall just take the blame.
grrr.
sorry people :(
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 11, 2004
stupid shinese project.
getting me so freakin frustrated.
slogging my guts out.
as tho im some kinda cow or whatever.
no one bothers to do a single thing.
im doing like etg.
so frustrated.
and the com just playing tricks one me.
font also cant change.
bloody hell.pissed.
wonder why do i have such rubbish.
thats he bad tg abt being sacrificial.
at the end of the day.
u suffer.cos u want ple to benefit.
and enjoy who they work with.
yupp.so this is my doom.
and i brought it upon myself.
so stressed up by damn chinese project.
no one cares.
im the only one whose afraid of failing here.
please.wishin cld knock sum sense.
yeah.now.our webpg looks like a piece of shit.
cos no one's putting any effort to do it.
im trying my best.
but i just cant make thing work.
yeah.damn irritated.
minds exploding.
really goona cry le.
im justreluctantly doing it for the sake of others.
wtf.
i hate this stinking chinese project.
blardie hell.damnit.
i wish i had more cooperative grp memebers.
sobs :'(
i hate this!
getting me so freakin frustrated.
slogging my guts out.
as tho im some kinda cow or whatever.
no one bothers to do a single thing.
im doing like etg.
so frustrated.
and the com just playing tricks one me.
font also cant change.
bloody hell.pissed.
wonder why do i have such rubbish.
thats he bad tg abt being sacrificial.
at the end of the day.
u suffer.cos u want ple to benefit.
and enjoy who they work with.
yupp.so this is my doom.
and i brought it upon myself.
so stressed up by damn chinese project.
no one cares.
im the only one whose afraid of failing here.
please.wishin cld knock sum sense.
yeah.now.our webpg looks like a piece of shit.
cos no one's putting any effort to do it.
im trying my best.
but i just cant make thing work.
yeah.damn irritated.
minds exploding.
really goona cry le.
im just
wtf.
i hate this stinking chinese project.
blardie hell.damnit.
i wish i had more cooperative grp memebers.
sobs :'(
i hate this!
the girl next door;
ok this week was not too bad.erm.
shall recap.as usual
haha being so lame now cos im not typing but writing all these text out
heehee.believe me.but gonna give up soon.damn taxing.hah
anw.i just ate the strawberry moouse cakee.so yummy.
heeee.yupp.been eating damn alot.
when im supposed to be "dieting" haha
monday
youth day.but still hadta wake up early.
trained with denise at spe at 745.
beauty sleep gone agn
hah.met mq,liping and nicole there too.
so trained tgt.
did 120,150,180.3 sets.
not bad lahs.quite fun :)
tuesday
back to sch.uhh.
had sum council interview.
yeah.dunno what we did for trng.
heh.only know i was damn sad.
cos i din push at all.
wednesday
class pic.yucks.
i looked terrible.
the worst in the entire class.
basically cos of my body.
was so slanted.yikes.
gross man.formal one.gosh.
gotta do sth bout my face.
haha.
had dance lessons.wow.
not my thing.as in..
din reli like it?
hah.dance n track are worlds apart.
and bcos of dance.
i got a beeg bruise on my right kneee.
hohoho.
had maths test.uhmm.
quite okay lah.
not too difficult.yeahh.
practised antigone.
had english tution for the first time.
and she doesnt even look likea tcher!!
haha.very shabby and stuff.
but she's nice lahs
thursday
no mass run.heee.
trial temp taking.yup.
had antigone!!!
and i screwed up my parts.
urgh.so sorry.
din mean to forget my lines.yeah.
actually.etg was going well.
its was towards the end when my mind went black =/
tot i wld pull down the grp.
but they say marks are allocted based on ur acting.
so guess mine wld be the lowest
haiyahs.literature..yikes.
brought big fat bananas.hha.
trng.uhmms.it was raining..
but still ran in the end lah.
200,300,400,300,200.
yupp.consideredd okie lah.
saw track photo.
yeah.as usual.i looked terrible.
grrr.hate my bloody face.
haha.they say the informal i very gu niang
aiyo.whatever lorhs.
friday
badmooding.got irritated by tt irritant.
argh.shant elaborate.
lets just say i was pmsing la.
freakk.pissed also.
for another reason i suppose.
yeah.but nvm.
just faking my happiness agn.
after sch.studied in canteen with hb and usarin.
was waiting for nicole to finish oral
den go town.but she took ages.
and realised their class started from the back.
so yeah.left alone.
went for dental.changes braces.
and it 3 more months to the removal of it.
haha.black and yellow.
sounds damn gross huh.
yeah.quite.only use it cos it was the jersey colour
haha.lame.
came back.bot dinner.
den did maths.
wanted to take a nap only.
ended up sleeping till 10.15
den woke up to brush teeth.
hahaa.
saturday
had oral early morning.
terrible.met my doom man.
wished i had changed to friday one.
so much easier.
mine was abt sum war thingy.
and the conversation was abt safety precautions.
biangx.screwed it up.
sigh.went for trgn.
sum pri sch were using stadium.
so we ran outside.
the workout felt kinda terrible.
but nvm.at least it finished fast.
haha.and mrlin told em my nightmare.
be prepared to run 400m.which is like no way please.
damn scared of this event after the hyperventilation thing.
yuck.nightmare.i dun wantttt!!!
and its like this friggin thurs.
even b4 my 800m.yeah,i cant make it.
will end up pulling the teeam down.
ahhh.mommy ahhh.save me :(
okie.came home.
studied whole afternn.
went jp at night.
to swensens.yummy.nice dinner.
hah.celebrated bro's bday.
which is on 15 july.
hahaha.did lit pop quiz too.
part one got 16 2nd one 13.
yeah.
nats are cuming.so quickly.
really damn worried
wish can run away form it.
too scared to face reality.
ahhhhhh.
i wanna die le.
and i seriously do not wannt run 400m pleasee.
gotta go for stinking tuition le..
shall recap.as usual
haha being so lame now cos im not typing but writing all these text out
heehee.believe me.but gonna give up soon.damn taxing.hah
anw.i just ate the strawberry moouse cakee.so yummy.
heeee.yupp.been eating damn alot.
when im supposed to be "dieting" haha
monday
youth day.but still hadta wake up early.
trained with denise at spe at 745.
beauty sleep gone agn
hah.met mq,liping and nicole there too.
so trained tgt.
did 120,150,180.3 sets.
not bad lahs.quite fun :)
tuesday
back to sch.uhh.
had sum council interview.
yeah.dunno what we did for trng.
heh.only know i was damn sad.
cos i din push at all.
wednesday
class pic.yucks.
i looked terrible.
the worst in the entire class.
basically cos of my body.
was so slanted.yikes.
gross man.formal one.gosh.
gotta do sth bout my face.
haha.
had dance lessons.wow.
not my thing.as in..
din reli like it?
hah.dance n track are worlds apart.
and bcos of dance.
i got a beeg bruise on my right kneee.
hohoho.
had maths test.uhmm.
quite okay lah.
not too difficult.yeahh.
practised antigone.
had english tution for the first time.
and she doesnt even look likea tcher!!
haha.very shabby and stuff.
but she's nice lahs
thursday
no mass run.heee.
trial temp taking.yup.
had antigone!!!
and i screwed up my parts.
urgh.so sorry.
din mean to forget my lines.yeah.
actually.etg was going well.
its was towards the end when my mind went black =/
tot i wld pull down the grp.
but they say marks are allocted based on ur acting.
so guess mine wld be the lowest
haiyahs.literature..yikes.
brought big fat bananas.hha.
trng.uhmms.it was raining..
but still ran in the end lah.
200,300,400,300,200.
yupp.consideredd okie lah.
saw track photo.
yeah.as usual.i looked terrible.
grrr.hate my bloody face.
haha.they say the informal i very gu niang
aiyo.whatever lorhs.
friday
badmooding.got irritated by tt irritant.
argh.shant elaborate.
lets just say i was pmsing la.
freakk.pissed also.
for another reason i suppose.
yeah.but nvm.
just faking my happiness agn.
after sch.studied in canteen with hb and usarin.
was waiting for nicole to finish oral
den go town.but she took ages.
and realised their class started from the back.
so yeah.left alone.
went for dental.changes braces.
and it 3 more months to the removal of it.
haha.black and yellow.
sounds damn gross huh.
yeah.quite.only use it cos it was the jersey colour
haha.lame.
came back.bot dinner.
den did maths.
wanted to take a nap only.
ended up sleeping till 10.15
den woke up to brush teeth.
hahaa.
saturday
had oral early morning.
terrible.met my doom man.
wished i had changed to friday one.
so much easier.
mine was abt sum war thingy.
and the conversation was abt safety precautions.
biangx.screwed it up.
sigh.went for trgn.
sum pri sch were using stadium.
so we ran outside.
the workout felt kinda terrible.
but nvm.at least it finished fast.
haha.and mrlin told em my nightmare.
be prepared to run 400m.which is like no way please.
damn scared of this event after the hyperventilation thing.
yuck.nightmare.i dun wantttt!!!
and its like this friggin thurs.
even b4 my 800m.yeah,i cant make it.
will end up pulling the teeam down.
ahhh.mommy ahhh.save me :(
okie.came home.
studied whole afternn.
went jp at night.
to swensens.yummy.nice dinner.
hah.celebrated bro's bday.
which is on 15 july.
hahaha.did lit pop quiz too.
part one got 16 2nd one 13.
yeah.
nats are cuming.so quickly.
really damn worried
wish can run away form it.
too scared to face reality.
ahhhhhh.
i wanna die le.
and i seriously do not wannt run 400m pleasee.
gotta go for stinking tuition le..
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 04, 2004
i realise tt there's actually alot out there who cares for me.
altho there are a few idiots who were gloating over my misfortune.
urghs.but all the same.i wld like to thanks all those who prayed for me.
thanks alot.i owe it to all of youuu.else my wallet wldnt have come back.
heh.thankiews!love all of ya!hee.all those who tagged too!
yuppyupp.i thot i was alwaysforgotten
anyways.i must remember to buy bananas for my family.
as in "family"
hehe.for usarin in particular.hee.
must takkair of my nu er.haha.
nats coming ler.we must work towards a healthy lifestyle.
which means no chocolates or sweets or junk food
just fruits and vege only.
heh.look who's talking.
i dun even eat vege.haha.
explains that scaly leggg.
heehehee.but..my "family" must still eat healthly.
yupp.everyday i shall buy a different kind of fruit.
hahaha =) must take care hor.
yepp.and ethel and usarin.
hope you get well soon!
dun let the flu bug bite anymore!
hahahaha.
altho there are a few idiots who were gloating over my misfortune.
urghs.but all the same.i wld like to thanks all those who prayed for me.
thanks alot.i owe it to all of youuu.else my wallet wldnt have come back.
heh.thankiews!love all of ya!hee.all those who tagged too!
yuppyupp.i thot i was always
anyways.i must remember to buy bananas for my family.
as in "family"
hehe.for usarin in particular.hee.
must takkair of my nu er.haha.
nats coming ler.we must work towards a healthy lifestyle.
which means no chocolates or sweets or junk food
just fruits and vege only.
heh.look who's talking.
i dun even eat vege.haha.
explains that scaly leggg.
heehehee.but..my "family" must still eat healthly.
yupp.everyday i shall buy a different kind of fruit.
hahaha =) must take care hor.
yepp.and ethel and usarin.
hope you get well soon!
dun let the flu bug bite anymore!
hahahaha.
the girl next door;
muching on cereal now..
damn sweet.haha.and i realise i shudnt be eating all these junk food.
but nevermind.
shall start dieting tmr lahs.
anw.was msging nicole.
and she starting toking abt THAT shuaige.
haha.the investiture one.
yeahhs.piggy.i dun like him okays.
just think he's cute only.
at the spur of the moment.
rashness.heh.
he got that damn shuai tan.
haha.and he's for trackk!!
i even know his name okie.
yupp.and the councilliors were bullying me..
hmpff.go dragg me to him.tsk.
oh whatever..i shall stop talking abt him.
haha.
okies.lemmee see.
thurs.was bad mooding.
cos wallet was still lost.
cdnt pay attention.
just drfited and drifted.
after school
went to see gau with karen and jing yi.i think.
he toked to us.
say its our responsibilities to take care fo our stuff
yeah.said it was impossible to get it back.
cos got no leads.
whatever la he.mite as well dun talk to us.
den must talk to me personally summore.
say must see msgooon and whatever crap.
arghs.make me cry even mroe only.
freakk.ran back to class
prayed to see no one at all.
den ry must pop outta nowhere.
when i;ve jus stop tearing.arghh.
whatevers lahs.
she treated me to sandwich.cos i was broke.
thanks ah.
den went to the track ple over there.
and pretended ntg had happening.
faking my smiles and laughter.
but nvm.went for trng.
with that fake mask still.
yeah.workout was 300*3.
cos had football match den needed to evacuate.heh.
went home.decided to tell mummy.
bout the wallet.
told her.and started weeping.
she din scold me lehs.
instead gimme tissue.haha.
thankiews. =)
friday
youth day.not bad lahs.
had a few lessons.
got sweets and snacks from tchers.
haha.youth day celebration.
ohh.boring.
only the skit by the nie tchers were better.
heh.din enjoy it perhaps cos thinking of my wallet!
but.guess what.?
in the midst of the show.ms tan came to tell me she got my wallet!!!
oyeshh.i was damn happy kaes..
kept really-ing her.hohoho.
started feeling high.and just cldnt sit still.
she returned me my wallet aft concert.
i was so happy.
jumping arnd sch.
but ltr realised tt whoever it is stole all my money.
$17 lehs.leaving 20cents for me.haha.
but i least i got back my keyy.
and all my chio neoprints.haha.
wenta canteen to find the trackkers.
nicole gave me pizza.hee.thanks hor.
den we were lazyy to train.
so played hand wacko first.
den so lame ting ting game.
haah.played bball after tt.
but i din play.hohoho.
went back.wanted them to train.
cos it was so latee.
but everyone was reluctant.
cos sum ple claimed it was youth day after all.
haha.
but well.we all trained.cos we're guai.haha.
left for town.at like 4?
hee.other ple were already there long agoo.
hee.ate at macs with nicole,ethel,yuxiang,qixin and sandra.
cos had the coupon thingy which was soo cheapp.
went to cine.cos wanted to take neos.
but long queue.so went heeren instead.
i tell u.the whole journey we were laughin like a bunch of retardsss.
haha.until my tummy was shoo painn.
hee.they all were so lame ok.
not me :P
oh.saw this chio wallet at 37degrees.
quite nice lahs.
haha.and nicole agreed to buy it for me!!!
yay! =D
anw.took neos and ethel and nicole were being lame.
thats usual.
cos they're both the evil sisters.haha.
posh and high class.
ahh.i wana die laughin man.
and ethel was being so ah lian.
yuxiang bimbo lah.duh..
heee.im the MOST normal one.hee.
went for a drink at graffiti cafe.
and qixin and ethel VANDALISED the tables.haha.
left town.took train back.
qixin told us abt the pole thingy.
biangx.so farnie lor.
sth u wld never expect to happen.
imagine. the pole can cum out.
yeah.haha.made us laugh and laugh.
everybody probably tho we were mad.
heh.and i was wonderung what if the chairs cld move too.
haha.lame lars.
went home.so tired.
stick my neos in my bookiesss.
cos i dun dare to put in my wallet le.
after lost agn.heh.
learnt my lesson liao.
yupp.studied.slept.
yesterday.went for trng.
600,200*2
so scared ok.cos it was a time trial
yeah.but glad i performed well :)
thats what lin said.yay!
was so happy.haha.
600m was 2.02 den 200 was abt 36.
cos only had 30sec rest.
yeahh.in said i ran well.
yipeee.and guess whatt.
he say my 800m timing for nats wld be abt 2.41-2.45
ohyeahh.but.my mind must be strong first.
den can run well.
yeah.cos this timing is based on yest workout.yeahh.
haha.was on cloud 9 man.
and denise was calculating my timing for me too.
wahh.she damn accurate :)
so yupp.trng was good afterall.
but it wun be if i din run well.
uhm.went back to sch with yinxi after tt.
cos she wanted to take her tys.
haha.so no choice.
cos i very nice one.pei her.heh.
saw the jnrs trng.but din see sir.
and dunno who was calling my name in the canteeen lor,
so freaky.
was like "hi lynette!"
"bye lynette!"
i was looking arnd lor.but stilll dunnoo who.
ahh.scareee.
went home.
den had lunch with jie.
ate soo mucchh.hahaa.
came back.bathed.studied a while.
den slept for 1hr.too tired
heh.den countined doing tuition hw.
went jurong point after tt.
and guess whatt.
my daddy bot me a new watchhh!!!
he 's soo nicecceceee.thanks!!
cos my mum only told him my watch was lost yest.
den he asked me to buy another baby g watch.
woah.so generous lorh.
heehee.so i bot another one :)
but its cheaper lah.$88.heh.
not as nice tho.but okays.
feelings are still wiht the lost one.
yeah.2 years le mahs.
tt one bot on national day 2002.
yeahh.ate lj.went home.
studied.den slept.
hehe.
oh.realised tt eng oral is next week.
and im totally not prepared at all!
its like.mine is on the sat.
and on fri i still going town.
cos i dental appt.arghss.
think will be late for trng cos im one of the last few..
yeahh.damn worried.
cos my english sucks like atg.
bleahs.and i'll be having my first eng tuition on wed.
maybe can ask her for tips.haha.
i hope etg turns out finee....
tmr's youth day.
wanted to stay at home.
but cant.
early morning at 745 must meet denise ler.
to train at spe.aww man.
there goes my beauty sleep :(
den after tt must go town with bro.
to collect his frggin arc.
i hope its not ready.heh.cos i dowana go there.hee.
i so mean.yeah i know.
cos i wana go library!!
haha.whatever lahs.heh.
den can hurry cum home to study.
but catch up with sum work.
yepps.having maths test on wed somemore.
ahh.stimes i just hate school..
but i still love it lahs.
life is not a race,but a journey to be savoured every step of the way
damn sweet.haha.and i realise i shudnt be eating all these junk food.
but nevermind.
shall start dieting tmr lahs.
anw.was msging nicole.
and she starting toking abt THAT shuaige.
haha.the investiture one.
yeahhs.piggy.i dun like him okays.
just think he's cute only.
at the spur of the moment.
rashness.heh.
he got that damn shuai tan.
haha.and he's for trackk!!
i even know his name okie.
yupp.and the councilliors were bullying me..
hmpff.go dragg me to him.tsk.
oh whatever..i shall stop talking abt him.
haha.
okies.lemmee see.
thurs.was bad mooding.
cos wallet was still lost.
cdnt pay attention.
just drfited and drifted.
after school
went to see gau with karen and jing yi.i think.
he toked to us.
say its our responsibilities to take care fo our stuff
yeah.said it was impossible to get it back.
cos got no leads.
whatever la he.mite as well dun talk to us.
den must talk to me personally summore.
say must see msgooon and whatever crap.
arghs.make me cry even mroe only.
freakk.ran back to class
prayed to see no one at all.
den ry must pop outta nowhere.
when i;ve jus stop tearing.arghh.
whatevers lahs.
she treated me to sandwich.cos i was broke.
thanks ah.
den went to the track ple over there.
and pretended ntg had happening.
faking my smiles and laughter.
but nvm.went for trng.
with that fake mask still.
yeah.workout was 300*3.
cos had football match den needed to evacuate.heh.
went home.decided to tell mummy.
bout the wallet.
told her.and started weeping.
she din scold me lehs.
instead gimme tissue.haha.
thankiews. =)
friday
youth day.not bad lahs.
had a few lessons.
got sweets and snacks from tchers.
haha.youth day celebration.
ohh.boring.
only the skit by the nie tchers were better.
heh.din enjoy it perhaps cos thinking of my wallet!
but.guess what.?
in the midst of the show.ms tan came to tell me she got my wallet!!!
oyeshh.i was damn happy kaes..
kept really-ing her.hohoho.
started feeling high.and just cldnt sit still.
she returned me my wallet aft concert.
i was so happy.
jumping arnd sch.
but ltr realised tt whoever it is stole all my money.
$17 lehs.leaving 20cents for me.haha.
but i least i got back my keyy.
and all my chio neoprints.haha.
wenta canteen to find the trackkers.
nicole gave me pizza.hee.thanks hor.
den we were lazyy to train.
so played hand wacko first.
den so lame ting ting game.
haah.played bball after tt.
but i din play.hohoho.
went back.wanted them to train.
cos it was so latee.
but everyone was reluctant.
cos sum ple claimed it was youth day after all.
haha.
but well.we all trained.cos we're guai.haha.
left for town.at like 4?
hee.other ple were already there long agoo.
hee.ate at macs with nicole,ethel,yuxiang,qixin and sandra.
cos had the coupon thingy which was soo cheapp.
went to cine.cos wanted to take neos.
but long queue.so went heeren instead.
i tell u.the whole journey we were laughin like a bunch of retardsss.
haha.until my tummy was shoo painn.
hee.they all were so lame ok.
not me :P
oh.saw this chio wallet at 37degrees.
quite nice lahs.
haha.and nicole agreed to buy it for me!!!
yay! =D
anw.took neos and ethel and nicole were being lame.
thats usual.
cos they're both the evil sisters.haha.
posh and high class.
ahh.i wana die laughin man.
and ethel was being so ah lian.
yuxiang bimbo lah.duh..
heee.im the MOST normal one.hee.
went for a drink at graffiti cafe.
and qixin and ethel VANDALISED the tables.haha.
left town.took train back.
qixin told us abt the pole thingy.
biangx.so farnie lor.
sth u wld never expect to happen.
imagine. the pole can cum out.
yeah.haha.made us laugh and laugh.
everybody probably tho we were mad.
heh.and i was wonderung what if the chairs cld move too.
haha.lame lars.
went home.so tired.
stick my neos in my bookiesss.
cos i dun dare to put in my wallet le.
after lost agn.heh.
learnt my lesson liao.
yupp.studied.slept.
yesterday.went for trng.
600,200*2
so scared ok.cos it was a time trial
yeah.but glad i performed well :)
thats what lin said.yay!
was so happy.haha.
600m was 2.02 den 200 was abt 36.
cos only had 30sec rest.
yeahh.in said i ran well.
yipeee.and guess whatt.
he say my 800m timing for nats wld be abt 2.41-2.45
ohyeahh.but.my mind must be strong first.
den can run well.
yeah.cos this timing is based on yest workout.yeahh.
haha.was on cloud 9 man.
and denise was calculating my timing for me too.
wahh.she damn accurate :)
so yupp.trng was good afterall.
but it wun be if i din run well.
uhm.went back to sch with yinxi after tt.
cos she wanted to take her tys.
haha.so no choice.
cos i very nice one.pei her.heh.
saw the jnrs trng.but din see sir.
and dunno who was calling my name in the canteeen lor,
so freaky.
was like "hi lynette!"
"bye lynette!"
i was looking arnd lor.but stilll dunnoo who.
ahh.scareee.
went home.
den had lunch with jie.
ate soo mucchh.hahaa.
came back.bathed.studied a while.
den slept for 1hr.too tired
heh.den countined doing tuition hw.
went jurong point after tt.
and guess whatt.
my daddy bot me a new watchhh!!!
he 's soo nicecceceee.thanks!!
cos my mum only told him my watch was lost yest.
den he asked me to buy another baby g watch.
woah.so generous lorh.
heehee.so i bot another one :)
but its cheaper lah.$88.heh.
not as nice tho.but okays.
feelings are still wiht the lost one.
yeah.2 years le mahs.
tt one bot on national day 2002.
yeahh.ate lj.went home.
studied.den slept.
hehe.
oh.realised tt eng oral is next week.
and im totally not prepared at all!
its like.mine is on the sat.
and on fri i still going town.
cos i dental appt.arghss.
think will be late for trng cos im one of the last few..
yeahh.damn worried.
cos my english sucks like atg.
bleahs.and i'll be having my first eng tuition on wed.
maybe can ask her for tips.haha.
i hope etg turns out finee....
tmr's youth day.
wanted to stay at home.
but cant.
early morning at 745 must meet denise ler.
to train at spe.aww man.
there goes my beauty sleep :(
den after tt must go town with bro.
to collect his frggin arc.
i hope its not ready.heh.cos i dowana go there.hee.
i so mean.yeah i know.
cos i wana go library!!
haha.whatever lahs.heh.
den can hurry cum home to study.
but catch up with sum work.
yepps.having maths test on wed somemore.
ahh.stimes i just hate school..
but i still love it lahs.
life is not a race,but a journey to be savoured every step of the way
the girl next door;
LYNETTE ♥
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