my dirty little secrets.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
another's week over.
so fast.
time's flying so quickly
to the extent i dun even have the chance to stop and think
but i admit it has been aFAR better wk
as compared to last wk
yes, im so glad (:
this whole morning n afternn was purely wasted
on sending our sci pj to sembawang
and mrs goh car got banged for ntg.
so after all the trouble we've taken,
i seriously hope our efforts will be paid off!
and we cab be famous overnight
right nicole?
hurhur. spent so many afternn doing this pj
really time consuming
but we have to get it done
since we committed ourselves to it.
but from now onwards,
i aint gonna take up any more of such environmental projects
give otherss a chance ;)
haha excuses.
but its really time i concentrate on my studies.
i've been neglecting it far too much
and for smth i tot i understood it
it ended up the opposite
and made teachers think i din pay attention or study
its friggin unfair.
i really did study hard.
but i've no idea why things turn out this way either.
but i gotta admit,
tht sleeping early truly helps
cos ur attention level is like damn high.
and i understand concepts better.
really hope i din fail my physics test :(
its only 2 more wks to common tests
and i havent even strted studying.
just great
im gonna flung etg agn
wish i could turn back time.
i want good results.
but first, i need to work hard.
and i hope that ple wld stop talking abt me.
as in negatively.
oh wells. nevermind.
i dun wan ple to say i look haggard
and tired everyday.
i wanna be re-energised
i wanna prove to you tht i can cope
but i need to be STRONG
and i will NOT collapse.
hmmmm, but i need your support to kp me going...
i wanna be the angel of your eyes...
it felt awesome to talk to you agn.
after that tormenting times we've had.
at least we smiled.
and i plucked up my courage
to look at you,
right in your eyes..
so fast.
time's flying so quickly
to the extent i dun even have the chance to stop and think
but i admit it has been aFAR better wk
as compared to last wk
yes, im so glad (:
this whole morning n afternn was purely wasted
on sending our sci pj to sembawang
and mrs goh car got banged for ntg.
so after all the trouble we've taken,
i seriously hope our efforts will be paid off!
and we cab be famous overnight
right nicole?
hurhur. spent so many afternn doing this pj
really time consuming
but we have to get it done
since we committed ourselves to it.
but from now onwards,
i aint gonna take up any more of such environmental projects
give otherss a chance ;)
haha excuses.
but its really time i concentrate on my studies.
i've been neglecting it far too much
and for smth i tot i understood it
it ended up the opposite
and made teachers think i din pay attention or study
its friggin unfair.
i really did study hard.
but i've no idea why things turn out this way either.
but i gotta admit,
tht sleeping early truly helps
cos ur attention level is like damn high.
and i understand concepts better.
really hope i din fail my physics test :(
its only 2 more wks to common tests
and i havent even strted studying.
just great
im gonna flung etg agn
wish i could turn back time.
i want good results.
but first, i need to work hard.
and i hope that ple wld stop talking abt me.
as in negatively.
oh wells. nevermind.
i dun wan ple to say i look haggard
and tired everyday.
i wanna be re-energised
i wanna prove to you tht i can cope
but i need to be STRONG
and i will NOT collapse.
hmmmm, but i need your support to kp me going...
i wanna be the angel of your eyes...
it felt awesome to talk to you agn.
after that tormenting times we've had.
at least we smiled.
and i plucked up my courage
to look at you,
right in your eyes..
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 24, 2005
it has been an extremely miserable wk
ething wasnt gg in my way
lots of stress to handle
and i feel so deprived
its lik im some kind of pillow
with lots of feathers stuffed in iy
going to explode anytime
and i guess,
if im going to fa xie here
ill probabaly get sum really crude remarks or smth thereafter
oh well
myabe im just overly sensitive
i dunno.
just went rachel's blog
tht pic taken
omg. so saddening
it really made me cry
i wasnt present to witness all tht after Nats
i din wanna cry there agn
just lik how those tears fell after photo taking
i guess Nats marked an end of the time we get to see him agn
and i understand how all the trackers are feeling
how wonderful and compassionate he is a coach
how much he cared for us
and how much we all loved him
but yet due to circumstances,
partings had to be faced
with everyone feeling so lost
i dun deny tt my i myself will miss his trngs
but really, i think we should face reality
after all the scoldings ive been getting since tt day
i hope everyone will start afresh
its not smth tt can be done overnight
and i know your feelings for him will always stay
but i ve been reflecting this whole week
thinking abt wat i shud say to u all
how im supposed to cahnge ur thinking
and not be blamed once again
the feeling of being wronged sure is terrible.
i hope to instill that kind of devotion u all will hav for track
maybe look on the bright side
and see that yes,
at least we were given that greatest oppourtunity
to train under an awesome coach
to improve by leaps and bounds
and to come at least this far
but i really do hope u all will try and let go
and change ur mindse towards him
dont be prejudiced
i knwo he's hard to work with at times
but learn to adapt
just like how i learnt to face all those music
i may not be strong
cos his words never failed to make me cry
but at least i know
that those blames put on me
for covering u all up
is worthwhile.
i want to move u all with my sincerity
and not my scoldings
we're going to start our journey once agn
to have the past put behind us
and to look into the bright future
rules have to be abided from now onwards
cant we just accept facts
instead of living in self denial?
does anyone really understands all that im experiencing?
seniors shudd be the one leading the example
but are we?
track seems to be diminishing each yr
baddd.
i aint doing my part
well no one is
im jealous of other ccas
liek hockey softball netball
the unity level is far much stronger den ours
and i presume its cos theirs is a team event
while ours aint
but tt isnt any excuse
for us not to meet up to expectaions
this whole damn thing is disturbing me too much
i cant concentrate on my studies
i cant focus in class
each time i think of track
ill just cry deep on my heart
it feels so empty
everyone hates track
even the teachers
how are we to survive like that?
im going to be a bad leader.
but i want track to shine next yr
that aint no point crying over spilled milk
i just want eone to change for the better
i wanna a devoted track teaM
and i want eone to work hard towards a similar goal
yes, we better look out for x country.
kingyin and leticia
we must train doubly hard ok?
and fufil the promise we made to ourselves.
sigh. life's so depressing
and i think all the tchers have a bad impression of me
ever since speech day
councilors not doing duty my fault
things go wrong also my fault
wats the bloody world coming to?
i have to admit
i cant handle stress..
ething wasnt gg in my way
lots of stress to handle
and i feel so deprived
its lik im some kind of pillow
with lots of feathers stuffed in iy
going to explode anytime
and i guess,
if im going to fa xie here
ill probabaly get sum really crude remarks or smth thereafter
oh well
myabe im just overly sensitive
i dunno.
just went rachel's blog
tht pic taken
omg. so saddening
it really made me cry
i wasnt present to witness all tht after Nats
i din wanna cry there agn
just lik how those tears fell after photo taking
i guess Nats marked an end of the time we get to see him agn
and i understand how all the trackers are feeling
how wonderful and compassionate he is a coach
how much he cared for us
and how much we all loved him
but yet due to circumstances,
partings had to be faced
with everyone feeling so lost
i dun deny tt my i myself will miss his trngs
but really, i think we should face reality
after all the scoldings ive been getting since tt day
i hope everyone will start afresh
its not smth tt can be done overnight
and i know your feelings for him will always stay
but i ve been reflecting this whole week
thinking abt wat i shud say to u all
how im supposed to cahnge ur thinking
and not be blamed once again
the feeling of being wronged sure is terrible.
i hope to instill that kind of devotion u all will hav for track
maybe look on the bright side
and see that yes,
at least we were given that greatest oppourtunity
to train under an awesome coach
to improve by leaps and bounds
and to come at least this far
but i really do hope u all will try and let go
and change ur mindse towards him
dont be prejudiced
i knwo he's hard to work with at times
but learn to adapt
just like how i learnt to face all those music
i may not be strong
cos his words never failed to make me cry
but at least i know
that those blames put on me
for covering u all up
is worthwhile.
i want to move u all with my sincerity
and not my scoldings
we're going to start our journey once agn
to have the past put behind us
and to look into the bright future
rules have to be abided from now onwards
cant we just accept facts
instead of living in self denial?
does anyone really understands all that im experiencing?
seniors shudd be the one leading the example
but are we?
track seems to be diminishing each yr
baddd.
i aint doing my part
well no one is
im jealous of other ccas
liek hockey softball netball
the unity level is far much stronger den ours
and i presume its cos theirs is a team event
while ours aint
but tt isnt any excuse
for us not to meet up to expectaions
this whole damn thing is disturbing me too much
i cant concentrate on my studies
i cant focus in class
each time i think of track
ill just cry deep on my heart
it feels so empty
everyone hates track
even the teachers
how are we to survive like that?
im going to be a bad leader.
but i want track to shine next yr
that aint no point crying over spilled milk
i just want eone to change for the better
i wanna a devoted track teaM
and i want eone to work hard towards a similar goal
yes, we better look out for x country.
kingyin and leticia
we must train doubly hard ok?
and fufil the promise we made to ourselves.
sigh. life's so depressing
and i think all the tchers have a bad impression of me
ever since speech day
councilors not doing duty my fault
things go wrong also my fault
wats the bloody world coming to?
i have to admit
i cant handle stress..
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 17, 2005
I LOVE CAREY
SHE'S SO SWEET
COS' SHE HELPED ME MAKE THIS TEMPLATE
YES, IM EASILY SATISFIED.
SHE'S SO SWEET
COS' SHE HELPED ME MAKE THIS TEMPLATE
YES, IM EASILY SATISFIED.
the girl next door;
i have this sudden urge for a new template.
pouts.
any kind soul wann lend me a helping hand?
ntg much to say
just that this week has been bad.
feeling very sore still
it must be the Nationals' fault
yes, i will train hard for next yr.
my final yr to do well.
but,
i always say stuff
yet, i never do them.
oh well.
i guess my wish of getting a medal
is NEVER possible.
poots-
pouts.
any kind soul wann lend me a helping hand?
ntg much to say
just that this week has been bad.
feeling very sore still
it must be the Nationals' fault
yes, i will train hard for next yr.
my final yr to do well.
but,
i always say stuff
yet, i never do them.
oh well.
i guess my wish of getting a medal
is NEVER possible.
poots-
the girl next door;
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
NEVER BUY CHOCOLATES FOR GIFTS.
BECAUSE ITS CHEAPSKATE.
AND ALL JUST GOES DOWN THE TUMMY.
yes, i feel heartbrokened.
but im the cause of everything.
reflected on my actions so much today.
and i realised i dont know how to cherish things.
so i decided to categorise myself as a complete loser
oh well. i think life has been rather saddening for me.
thinking of the comments made,
it feels as though i've been stabbed from the back again.
this is really bad.
but i cannot be distracted.
i must focus on my 800m race tmr.
its sort of my event.
although i doubt i'll get into the finals anyway.
and i heard there's chinese test next week?!
oh my! im not even prepared.
these few days have been just passing
without anything entering my brain.
homework are rushed through.
see im so lousy. bad=/
but surprisingly,
i was not upset after yesterday's 400hurdles race.
in fact, i was overjoyed!!!
came in fourth in my heat (=
my timing was alright,
at least i managed to clear all hurdles without knocking!
oh yes, lynette's a happy girl (:
how ironical...
I AM TOO MATERIALISTIC.
IM SORRY =(
BUT THANKS GIRL.
I REALLY LOVED EVERYTHING.
BECAUSE ITS CHEAPSKATE.
AND ALL JUST GOES DOWN THE TUMMY.
yes, i feel heartbrokened.
but im the cause of everything.
reflected on my actions so much today.
and i realised i dont know how to cherish things.
so i decided to categorise myself as a complete loser
oh well. i think life has been rather saddening for me.
thinking of the comments made,
it feels as though i've been stabbed from the back again.
this is really bad.
but i cannot be distracted.
i must focus on my 800m race tmr.
its sort of my event.
although i doubt i'll get into the finals anyway.
and i heard there's chinese test next week?!
oh my! im not even prepared.
these few days have been just passing
without anything entering my brain.
homework are rushed through.
see im so lousy. bad=/
but surprisingly,
i was not upset after yesterday's 400hurdles race.
in fact, i was overjoyed!!!
came in fourth in my heat (=
my timing was alright,
at least i managed to clear all hurdles without knocking!
oh yes, lynette's a happy girl (:
how ironical...
I AM TOO MATERIALISTIC.
IM SORRY =(
BUT THANKS GIRL.
I REALLY LOVED EVERYTHING.
the girl next door;
Monday, July 11, 2005
tmr's the big day.
but definitely not one i was waiting for.
during eng tuition today,
my mind was wholly with track
thinking about the races at cck.
and im proud to announce that..
USARIN GOT INTO THE FINALS FOR 100M
LETICIA GOT 5TH FOR 3000M
B DIV QUALIFIED FOR FINALS FOR 4BY1.
yup im proud of you trackers,
so keep up the GREAT job.
u're definitely bringing glory to crescent =)
haha. track rocks.
400m hurdles.
i hope i will be blessed
to cross all 10 hurdles with confidence
i know i will not get into the finals.
but its okay, i will try my best
its my first time.
tho that aint any excuse
but all the same, i will TRY (:
lessons sucked full time today
timetable is CRAP!
oh well.
but yvonne was being sweet today!
and so was i =)
hurhur. dont be lonely tmr!
i'll accompany u spiritually!
i screwed up my speech today =/
sorry mrs yeo.
but definitely not one i was waiting for.
during eng tuition today,
my mind was wholly with track
thinking about the races at cck.
and im proud to announce that..
USARIN GOT INTO THE FINALS FOR 100M
LETICIA GOT 5TH FOR 3000M
B DIV QUALIFIED FOR FINALS FOR 4BY1.
yup im proud of you trackers,
so keep up the GREAT job.
u're definitely bringing glory to crescent =)
haha. track rocks.
400m hurdles.
i hope i will be blessed
to cross all 10 hurdles with confidence
i know i will not get into the finals.
but its okay, i will try my best
its my first time.
tho that aint any excuse
but all the same, i will TRY (:
lessons sucked full time today
timetable is CRAP!
oh well.
but yvonne was being sweet today!
and so was i =)
hurhur. dont be lonely tmr!
i'll accompany u spiritually!
i screwed up my speech today =/
sorry mrs yeo.
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 10, 2005
it suddenly struck me how impt those trngs were
and now i truly regret not taking them seriously
but was fooling arnd instead
but its all too late
cos its jus 2 more days
before the race starts
so its far too late to train hard again
im unprepared=/
im surely going to screw my hurdles.
i cant even jump properly
too short too short =(
and 800m.
i havent been building up my speed!
arghs. i onyl realised i needed to train on fri
when i rushed to queenstn aft sci pj
just to train.
all alone. it was so scary
cos all around me were guys.
and thus they were staring at me jump hurdles.
i felt super inferior.
crap.
and yest.
after i returned home at 30
from nanyang poly mib course
i immediately went to run
it was a painful experience
i sprinted so hard my lungs were bursting.
and this morning.
i trained at 1030
the sun was scroching at me
and i was so breathless
that process was bad
and i hope i will not get lactic acid on tues
im really scared :(
but all the same,
i wanna congratulate all those who got into semis or finals!
im really proud of you people!
its like on thurs night
when i recieved the news tt most qualified
i was overjoyed =D
tho i could not go support them
and fri, 4by1 qualified too!
i was keeping my fingers crossed.
hurhur. track spirits going high
i hope this can be maintained
yes, everyone derserves all they got
and im proud they've brought glory t the school
so keep on going.
and dun ever give up.
im waiting for the day,
when i can go up on stage
and proudly welcome mrs lee to give out the trophies to you ple.
ALL THE WAY!
i believe that track's going to make it (:
i'll be supporting everyone thru out!
hope and faith.
i must believe.
and now i truly regret not taking them seriously
but was fooling arnd instead
but its all too late
cos its jus 2 more days
before the race starts
so its far too late to train hard again
im unprepared=/
im surely going to screw my hurdles.
i cant even jump properly
too short too short =(
and 800m.
i havent been building up my speed!
arghs. i onyl realised i needed to train on fri
when i rushed to queenstn aft sci pj
just to train.
all alone. it was so scary
cos all around me were guys.
and thus they were staring at me jump hurdles.
i felt super inferior.
crap.
and yest.
after i returned home at 30
from nanyang poly mib course
i immediately went to run
it was a painful experience
i sprinted so hard my lungs were bursting.
and this morning.
i trained at 1030
the sun was scroching at me
and i was so breathless
that process was bad
and i hope i will not get lactic acid on tues
im really scared :(
but all the same,
i wanna congratulate all those who got into semis or finals!
im really proud of you people!
its like on thurs night
when i recieved the news tt most qualified
i was overjoyed =D
tho i could not go support them
and fri, 4by1 qualified too!
i was keeping my fingers crossed.
hurhur. track spirits going high
i hope this can be maintained
yes, everyone derserves all they got
and im proud they've brought glory t the school
so keep on going.
and dun ever give up.
im waiting for the day,
when i can go up on stage
and proudly welcome mrs lee to give out the trophies to you ple.
ALL THE WAY!
i believe that track's going to make it (:
i'll be supporting everyone thru out!
hope and faith.
i must believe.
the girl next door;
Monday, July 04, 2005
today's a horrible day.
been a long time since sir talked t me.
im sorry.
i havent been doing my job at all.
sigh and i guess,
now i really became the
enemy of the people.
pouts-
=(
been a long time since sir talked t me.
im sorry.
i havent been doing my job at all.
sigh and i guess,
now i really became the
enemy of the people.
pouts-
=(
the girl next door;
Sunday, July 03, 2005
ive been online since 8am
but only now then can i start blogging =/
been so busy doing council stuff
duty rooster, sub comm, write up for invest...
oh no. i can just imagine the huge workload
true enought, it going to b really stressful.
but i wonder if the other EXCO members r feelin th same way too.
or is it just me?!
for the past week,
ive been laggging greatly in my studies
not completing my hw
always so tired during chinese lessons.
and always seem to doze off.
but why?!
i should sleep earlier from now onwards.
and i dunno why but etime i reach home
im always so lethargic that i cant do my hw.
its really a bad habit to fall aslp on the sofa/table.
and i wanna kick the habit off.
sigh-
so the routines continues..
lessons,recess,lessons,lunch,lessons,meetings,
track,dinner,sleep,hw,sleep and it starts again..
so boring! =/
next week have so many tests
all of which, i aint prepared.
im just going to die if this countinues
and last night my mum just told me
better not left my position affect my studies.
i pray it seriously doesnt,
else ill just be stripped off or smth?!
Nationals is next week.
but my event only starts on the 12th.
it should be a good thing i guess?
but there's orals on the 8th.
not prepared once again.
and my hurdles yesterday, was crap!
timing was totally horrendous
lynette! u can forget about getting into finals already!
i should just throw a white towel.
800m?! another gone case.
my event. now it has become my hated event.
king! i dun mind letting u run instead! =/
i've no confidence in myself.
simply bcos i haven been trng hard.
and certainly havent reached my peak.
tmr's timetrial for a full 400m hurdles.
sigh i always regret.
for not taking things seriously, right form the start
but all is too late already.
i told myself upteen times to work harder
but did i?
yes, its time for some self reflections?
i thought and thought
about all ive done.
whtr i deserved all that im getting.
im still feeling sore about house.
but oh wells. i know Krystle really going to do a great job!
anw, mrs wong asked me to be backup helper.
haha. i shall be positive =))
maybe when u are optimistic
then only life will be better
and more enjoyable.
whtr im going to succeed in track,
hmmmm im really negative abt it.
but ill give it my best shot.
and i wanna be STRONG.
i dowana cry if i lose the race.
i wanna CAHNGE.
past few times, i bound to break down
each time i dun reach pb
or dun qualify.
so now, i hope it will be different!
i wanna be a NEW lynette.
heard alot of feedback.
and i know, i must be FIRM
and STERN
else ple will just continue mocking at me.
but the fact is, i dun want to beHATED
ms shervon, so sorry.
the science project.
ill try my best to complete it asap.
together with nicole.
sorry we havent been doing it.
we're really busy..
this entry seems so depressing!
but NO! lynette's happy alright!
:) yes im happy!
im elated!
i wanna be that GOOD girl.
that ROLE model (:
but only now then can i start blogging =/
been so busy doing council stuff
duty rooster, sub comm, write up for invest...
oh no. i can just imagine the huge workload
true enought, it going to b really stressful.
but i wonder if the other EXCO members r feelin th same way too.
or is it just me?!
for the past week,
ive been laggging greatly in my studies
not completing my hw
always so tired during chinese lessons.
and always seem to doze off.
but why?!
i should sleep earlier from now onwards.
and i dunno why but etime i reach home
im always so lethargic that i cant do my hw.
its really a bad habit to fall aslp on the sofa/table.
and i wanna kick the habit off.
sigh-
so the routines continues..
lessons,recess,lessons,lunch,lessons,meetings,
track,dinner,sleep,hw,sleep and it starts again..
so boring! =/
next week have so many tests
all of which, i aint prepared.
im just going to die if this countinues
and last night my mum just told me
better not left my position affect my studies.
i pray it seriously doesnt,
else ill just be stripped off or smth?!
Nationals is next week.
but my event only starts on the 12th.
it should be a good thing i guess?
but there's orals on the 8th.
not prepared once again.
and my hurdles yesterday, was crap!
timing was totally horrendous
lynette! u can forget about getting into finals already!
i should just throw a white towel.
800m?! another gone case.
my event. now it has become my hated event.
king! i dun mind letting u run instead! =/
i've no confidence in myself.
simply bcos i haven been trng hard.
and certainly havent reached my peak.
tmr's timetrial for a full 400m hurdles.
sigh i always regret.
for not taking things seriously, right form the start
but all is too late already.
i told myself upteen times to work harder
but did i?
yes, its time for some self reflections?
i thought and thought
about all ive done.
whtr i deserved all that im getting.
im still feeling sore about house.
but oh wells. i know Krystle really going to do a great job!
anw, mrs wong asked me to be backup helper.
haha. i shall be positive =))
maybe when u are optimistic
then only life will be better
and more enjoyable.
whtr im going to succeed in track,
hmmmm im really negative abt it.
but ill give it my best shot.
and i wanna be STRONG.
i dowana cry if i lose the race.
i wanna CAHNGE.
past few times, i bound to break down
each time i dun reach pb
or dun qualify.
so now, i hope it will be different!
i wanna be a NEW lynette.
heard alot of feedback.
and i know, i must be FIRM
and STERN
else ple will just continue mocking at me.
but the fact is, i dun want to be
ms shervon, so sorry.
the science project.
ill try my best to complete it asap.
together with nicole.
sorry we havent been doing it.
we're really busy..
this entry seems so depressing!
but NO! lynette's happy alright!
:) yes im happy!
im elated!
i wanna be that GOOD girl.
that ROLE model (:
the girl next door;
LYNETTE ♥
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