my dirty little secrets.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
He told us all he expected from us is just FOCUS.
And that's exactly what I lack :(
But I WILL still fight on.
And that's exactly what I lack :(
But I WILL still fight on.
the girl next door;
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
EXACTLY 3 MORE WEEKS.
That's the time left to Nationals Cross Country. It's definitely not much, 27 days and it's not every day that I'll train. Come the last week, training would also have tapered down. Are we even prepared? I really don't like to hear how strong the girls team is this year, how so much is expected of us. Look at SWIFT, and the recent 4by800m race. Maybe it's just a form of motivation for us, instilling in us the hope that we're really up to standard. But to me, the disappointment is much greater when we don't meet up to expectations. I'm dragging my feet to trainings lately, which is so unlike me! As time draws nearer, I truly wish to be more spurred on to push myself to my limits. No doubt it's true I've improved by leaps and bounds with the trainings in NJ. My 800m timing has improved by 10sec. Turf City timing has also improved. So what i really lack now is the strong mentality. The mindset to fight till the finishing line. I'm surprised at how i fought so hard for 800m on sunday. I really didnt know how my legs managed to allow me to sprint the last 100m. And now, i really wish to discover that fighting spirit in me, the want to win. Time's running short, and i need my passion for track like in the first 2 months.
Today's just a moody day, call me emo whatever I dont care. I feel like a rubberband being stretched thin, on the verge of snapping anytime soon. I cannot carry on with this facade anymore. My mother finally mustered up her courage to ask me what she wanted to know for so long. I wouldn't say I lied, I just spared her the details that would have provoked further questioning. She satisfied with what I've answered and I seriously hope that would be the end of it. I came online to do my PI for PW. But i'm distracted so that means I can't concentrate. And the first thing I found out was that Cindy's leaving Spore for 4 years in Aust. There's still a few more months before she leaves, but I'm already feeling so upset. It just makes it worst because today has really been a bad day. Why must all my good friends leave Singapore? First was Syeila, who's still in Dubai I presume. We promised to keep in contact via email, but after a while, I guess the emails just stopped since we were each busy with our own stuff. So how sure am I that this time it wouldn't be a case of history repeating itself? Cindy, we had better ensure our emails are always ongoing!
I know school's going to be bad tmr cos Suyi's going for leadership symposium and that means no more buddy in class :( Plus trng's going to be tough with 400m intervals. Crap, can I not go to school tmr?
That's the time left to Nationals Cross Country. It's definitely not much, 27 days and it's not every day that I'll train. Come the last week, training would also have tapered down. Are we even prepared? I really don't like to hear how strong the girls team is this year, how so much is expected of us. Look at SWIFT, and the recent 4by800m race. Maybe it's just a form of motivation for us, instilling in us the hope that we're really up to standard. But to me, the disappointment is much greater when we don't meet up to expectations. I'm dragging my feet to trainings lately, which is so unlike me! As time draws nearer, I truly wish to be more spurred on to push myself to my limits. No doubt it's true I've improved by leaps and bounds with the trainings in NJ. My 800m timing has improved by 10sec. Turf City timing has also improved. So what i really lack now is the strong mentality. The mindset to fight till the finishing line. I'm surprised at how i fought so hard for 800m on sunday. I really didnt know how my legs managed to allow me to sprint the last 100m. And now, i really wish to discover that fighting spirit in me, the want to win. Time's running short, and i need my passion for track like in the first 2 months.
Today's just a moody day, call me emo whatever I dont care. I feel like a rubberband being stretched thin, on the verge of snapping anytime soon. I cannot carry on with this facade anymore. My mother finally mustered up her courage to ask me what she wanted to know for so long. I wouldn't say I lied, I just spared her the details that would have provoked further questioning. She satisfied with what I've answered and I seriously hope that would be the end of it. I came online to do my PI for PW. But i'm distracted so that means I can't concentrate. And the first thing I found out was that Cindy's leaving Spore for 4 years in Aust. There's still a few more months before she leaves, but I'm already feeling so upset. It just makes it worst because today has really been a bad day. Why must all my good friends leave Singapore? First was Syeila, who's still in Dubai I presume. We promised to keep in contact via email, but after a while, I guess the emails just stopped since we were each busy with our own stuff. So how sure am I that this time it wouldn't be a case of history repeating itself? Cindy, we had better ensure our emails are always ongoing!
I know school's going to be bad tmr cos Suyi's going for leadership symposium and that means no more buddy in class :( Plus trng's going to be tough with 400m intervals. Crap, can I not go to school tmr?
the girl next door;
Sunday, March 25, 2007
So the first week of school has passed really quickly. But it was a good way to start the term! :) Have not gotten into the studying mood YET, since I've been slacking around in the grandstand with my classmates almost everyday this week. I am happy in my new class not that I was sad in my old class either!! :D Haha we had outing on friday and watched Mr Bean! It's such a lame but funny show and I couldn't stop laughing when he was eating the mussels!!! HAHA, but come to think of it, it's not worth $7.50. Jason was saying these kind of shows should buy the vcd and watch at home. How true. Dinner at Fish and Co at night was filled with laughter too. Played some damn ridiculous game with Kailing and Suyi and ending up hitting my head against the wall for laughing to vigorously! Heh i know that sounds silly. There was a live band playing too which got Kailing all high as usual. She really looks so happy whenever she comes back to Nj to visit us whereas in Hc she's not :( And I must say, talking to her always makes me laugh so much. It's the first time i took 1.5 hours to get home from PS. The 174 bus was moving like a snail. Thankfully we made a right decision to change to 154 at KAP. Else I probably would have reached home at 12midnight =/
4 by 400m race yesterday. We got 3rd!!! :D Haha Thanks Grace for the good lead, and Esther and Shalom for maintaining it! It was the first time I ever ran 400m competitively but a good experience all the same:) Last 100m was atrocious though, i could feel all the lactic acid in my legs so I just couldn't open up my strides! Dave was telling me i need 2 steps to cover the same distance as others in one step. Haha it's not my fault, ive just got small strides [but i discovered my legs are as long as grace's!!] :P But maybe if I have a stronger mentality, I would have fought hard with Hc the last 80m. If only I could maintain my pace throughout! Cos I def slowed down after the 2nd bend. Oh wells. 4 by 800m today. I'm extremely worried =( there's only 6 schools taking part but yet it's still going to be a tough race. First belongs to SSP, so we can try to fight for 2nd or 3rd. It's certainly not going to be easy and 2 rounds per person just makes it more scary. I'm really scared I'll slow down drastically after the first rnd! And being the 2nd runner puts more stress on me since our postition would more or less be determined. AHHH.. ALL the Best to all those competing today! :D Let's do Njc proud! Good run for all those who ran yesterday too :D
I saw this picture and starting smiling away! Felissa is such a lucky pig! The balloons are so bloody cute! :D Buy those balloons for me and I'll love you forever! HAHA! :)
4 by 400m race yesterday. We got 3rd!!! :D Haha Thanks Grace for the good lead, and Esther and Shalom for maintaining it! It was the first time I ever ran 400m competitively but a good experience all the same:) Last 100m was atrocious though, i could feel all the lactic acid in my legs so I just couldn't open up my strides! Dave was telling me i need 2 steps to cover the same distance as others in one step. Haha it's not my fault, ive just got small strides [but i discovered my legs are as long as grace's!!] :P But maybe if I have a stronger mentality, I would have fought hard with Hc the last 80m. If only I could maintain my pace throughout! Cos I def slowed down after the 2nd bend. Oh wells. 4 by 800m today. I'm extremely worried =( there's only 6 schools taking part but yet it's still going to be a tough race. First belongs to SSP, so we can try to fight for 2nd or 3rd. It's certainly not going to be easy and 2 rounds per person just makes it more scary. I'm really scared I'll slow down drastically after the first rnd! And being the 2nd runner puts more stress on me since our postition would more or less be determined. AHHH.. ALL the Best to all those competing today! :D Let's do Njc proud! Good run for all those who ran yesterday too :D
I saw this picture and starting smiling away! Felissa is such a lucky pig! The balloons are so bloody cute! :D Buy those balloons for me and I'll love you forever! HAHA! :)
the girl next door;
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Charge(d)
YENFANG!!!! She ran up to me when I shouted her name! (: Haha and that's my biology notes she's holding! 
Amanda, my sec 3 track captain who loves disturbing me together with Sujean.
Oh and once again, Nicole, myself and Carol took a picture at the same positions like the past 2 years! :D The difference is we're no longer in council uniform.
That was the theme for Crescent Council Investiture 2007 (: I was really happy to go back to Crescent, to witness this significant event. Many teachers/juniors didn't recognise me at first! HAHA but im proud to say I now look like a JC student! HOORAY! all thanks to the uniform :D So anyway, investiture brought back tons of memories for me. It was the first time sitting as part of the audience and it was a different feeling altogether. But everything was yet so familiar. How we walked down the aisle from the 7th door, how the same songs were being used for 3 years running, how the exco had to sit on stage without moving through the invest. And how i wish to do it again. When Waiteng gave her speech, Sir turned back and asked "Lynette, u going to cry arh!" Haha no doubt I was feeling that sense of nostalgia, but I wasn't going to cry! 2 years ago, I stood up there really nervous about the appointment. Last yr, I was definitely much more confident, and happy that the one yr term was over. A successful one with no regrets :) I still remember how teachers commented i looked so overjoyed as I walked down the aisle, walking as though I was floating on air. HAHA =D But really, I'm thankful to be given that opportunity to lead council. It was definitely en enjoyable, enriching experience I wouldn't trade for anything else. Although that put me through a whole lot of stress and misery, bearing the brunt of problems always, it really didn't matter when you have a supportive team behind you. Just as we've all agreed, 05/06 Student EXCO is the best we all could ever asked for :) And now, the baton is being passed on to YingMin, who I'm sure will do a good job! For the 3rd year running, it's a tracker again! I wonder if this trend will continue next year again. Talked to Ms Ong and my fellow track capts after invest for a short while. Ms Ong said I've became very bubbly and chatty now!! HAHA i think she had seen me all stressed up back in Crescent, so now i look all TOO happy to her! :D They're inviting me to do a team talk next week! Haha amazing =/ But yes, I really miss the trackkers to bits! Shall let the photos do the talking :)
Usarin, Felissa and I in the toilet when Fel was not properly attired! HAHA (:
YENFANG!!!! She ran up to me when I shouted her name! (: Haha and that's my biology notes she's holding! Amanda, my sec 3 track captain who loves disturbing me together with Sujean. Oh and once again, Nicole, myself and Carol took a picture at the same positions like the past 2 years! :D The difference is we're no longer in council uniform.
This is a very special picture! =DD Ps and VPs of o5/06, 06/07 and 07/08 Student EXCO.
HAHAHA HANI! the one who named me Mightymouse for i can't remember what reason! =X
Priscilla and Kristie made me feel like some superstar! :D They came up to me and asked me very politely "Can we take a picture with you?" Hahah it was quite hilarious and i replied "SURE!" Heh.
Ms Waiteng! =)) My fellow president! I know I look really short here! She's on heels, im not :P
Nicole and i with YueXi. A very diligient leader i must say! =) All the best for your o's!
NJC VS ACJC! Of course Usarin and I were outnumbered. HAHAH 7/13 of my Exco with Mrs Yeo! :)
And this is 13/13 of Student EXCO 2005/2006. They're seriously the BEST leaders I could have ever asked for :D Haha we all look rather different now. Heh that was taken 2 years ago!
So chem test tmr, I'm so dead! I came home early in hope of studying, but I dunno why seeing the notes just make me feel like dozing off. which explains why im blogging =) Haha but well, I ought to FORCE myself to revise. Haha pray it wouldn't be too difficult. Oh well, I shall go for a recovery run first! :)
anyway,
HAPPY BITHDAY AARON! =D Hope you liked the lana cake! (:
the girl next door;
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Over-indulgence.
I think I ate the most yesterday. Haha it's true because I munched almost every hour=/ It began with lunch, which was the much sinful KFC chicken. I protested against it initially, but my brother was going on about the vouchers and blah blah blah, so well, i brought him there eventually. I haven't eaten there this year at all, so it sure felt good, though sinful :P Met up with jie and anthony at CityHall later. Ate 1.5 Subway cookies while shopping, to make up for not eating them on tuesday! Haha. It's really amusing following them around, and my sister kept whining before antz finally agreed to give in and have tea break at New York. I highly recommend that restuarant!!! :) The ambience's great and the aroma was good too! There was a burger which cost $28 and it was ENORMOUS! It's twice the size of my face seriously, hahah meant for four people that is. We shared a plate of Bratswurt sausages and Ceasar salad! Not bad, I'm learning to eat my veggies :) By then, I was extremely full so we had to walk around to digest. We went to Sasa to get my sis's cosmetics and that was where we both embarrassed ourselves =/ She opened this small container of hot pink eyeshadow and shoved it to me. I thought she wanted me to try it out so I dipped my fourth finger into it and HAHA it turned PINK!!! The both of us burst out laughing and i immediately walked away in search of tissue paper. SO malu =X Then it was my sis's turn, she opened a bottle of shampoo to smell and it oozed out, staining her clothes!!! Hahah antz saw the both of us and shook his head in despair. It was such a comical scene frankly. Oh and I saw this SPONGEOBOB towel which was compressed into a square. It was so adorable!!! I wanted to get it but $3.90 for something that looked like tissue! Should not have expressed my thoughts so loudly cos the cashier looked and me and said "It's only $3.90!" Hahah she probably thought i couldn't afford it. TSK. My brother soon arrived and we went to eat ice cream! It's the most expensive ice cream I ever ate. It costs us $14.50!!! But it was very tasty, AZABU SABU was the brand i think. Shall post the picture of it once antz sends it over. Frankly, I'm going to be so envious of my sister's kids. Cos they're going to have parents who spend money on food so freely! And it's good food somemore. Haha that's why I like going out with my sis! :DD Heehee.
Meredith's birthday party thereafter and I almost lost my voice controlling the little P4 kids. Helped to organise the games and the girls were so active! I had 2 of them following me around, one called Rachel and the other was Tiffany's sister. They wanted to play water so Rachel went on her knees as she wanted me to go in the water with her!! =/ SO freaky! Of course i didnt since I didn't even bring extra clothes. But I did get wet eventually, as i had to carry them and dry their clothes under the hand dryer. They were both 24kg!! Haha it must be eons since I was that weight =X Ate alot for dinner as much as I was so full. Barbequed crayfish was so shiok! Jie calls it grandfather prawns and kept bugging antz to cook for us :) So we were like little princess being served! The birthday cake was special this year again. Iced cupcakes which were VERY pretty! But it was far to sweet so i shared one with my brother. So it was a long but happy day yesterday and I fell asleep so quickly.
Was chatting to Yvonne. She's one kanchiong spider. Worrying about block tests already. Haha and this is what she told me : IF ANYONE BULLIES YOU, TELL ME OKAY. I'LL GET MY PARANG BRUDDERS TO PROTECT YOU. Haha thatnks von, but don't worry, my friends mean no harm to me at all! :D
Tmr's the first day of school and I'm anticipating it (: School's going to start real and as much as that's nothing to look forward to, I guess I need to get settled down after so many months of enjoyment. Unfortunately, I'm being posted to S23 so that means making new friends altogether. I really hope Mr Goh is still our CT although chances are very slim. He's one good teacher because he teaches us values in life, something not found in textbooks. HEH.
Off to chiong through my all my untouched tutorials. HAHA (:
Good luck to all those running All-Comers today!
I think I ate the most yesterday. Haha it's true because I munched almost every hour=/ It began with lunch, which was the much sinful KFC chicken. I protested against it initially, but my brother was going on about the vouchers and blah blah blah, so well, i brought him there eventually. I haven't eaten there this year at all, so it sure felt good, though sinful :P Met up with jie and anthony at CityHall later. Ate 1.5 Subway cookies while shopping, to make up for not eating them on tuesday! Haha. It's really amusing following them around, and my sister kept whining before antz finally agreed to give in and have tea break at New York. I highly recommend that restuarant!!! :) The ambience's great and the aroma was good too! There was a burger which cost $28 and it was ENORMOUS! It's twice the size of my face seriously, hahah meant for four people that is. We shared a plate of Bratswurt sausages and Ceasar salad! Not bad, I'm learning to eat my veggies :) By then, I was extremely full so we had to walk around to digest. We went to Sasa to get my sis's cosmetics and that was where we both embarrassed ourselves =/ She opened this small container of hot pink eyeshadow and shoved it to me. I thought she wanted me to try it out so I dipped my fourth finger into it and HAHA it turned PINK!!! The both of us burst out laughing and i immediately walked away in search of tissue paper. SO malu =X Then it was my sis's turn, she opened a bottle of shampoo to smell and it oozed out, staining her clothes!!! Hahah antz saw the both of us and shook his head in despair. It was such a comical scene frankly. Oh and I saw this SPONGEOBOB towel which was compressed into a square. It was so adorable!!! I wanted to get it but $3.90 for something that looked like tissue! Should not have expressed my thoughts so loudly cos the cashier looked and me and said "It's only $3.90!" Hahah she probably thought i couldn't afford it. TSK. My brother soon arrived and we went to eat ice cream! It's the most expensive ice cream I ever ate. It costs us $14.50!!! But it was very tasty, AZABU SABU was the brand i think. Shall post the picture of it once antz sends it over. Frankly, I'm going to be so envious of my sister's kids. Cos they're going to have parents who spend money on food so freely! And it's good food somemore. Haha that's why I like going out with my sis! :DD Heehee.
Meredith's birthday party thereafter and I almost lost my voice controlling the little P4 kids. Helped to organise the games and the girls were so active! I had 2 of them following me around, one called Rachel and the other was Tiffany's sister. They wanted to play water so Rachel went on her knees as she wanted me to go in the water with her!! =/ SO freaky! Of course i didnt since I didn't even bring extra clothes. But I did get wet eventually, as i had to carry them and dry their clothes under the hand dryer. They were both 24kg!! Haha it must be eons since I was that weight =X Ate alot for dinner as much as I was so full. Barbequed crayfish was so shiok! Jie calls it grandfather prawns and kept bugging antz to cook for us :) So we were like little princess being served! The birthday cake was special this year again. Iced cupcakes which were VERY pretty! But it was far to sweet so i shared one with my brother. So it was a long but happy day yesterday and I fell asleep so quickly.
Was chatting to Yvonne. She's one kanchiong spider. Worrying about block tests already. Haha and this is what she told me : IF ANYONE BULLIES YOU, TELL ME OKAY. I'LL GET MY PARANG BRUDDERS TO PROTECT YOU. Haha thatnks von, but don't worry, my friends mean no harm to me at all! :D
Tmr's the first day of school and I'm anticipating it (: School's going to start real and as much as that's nothing to look forward to, I guess I need to get settled down after so many months of enjoyment. Unfortunately, I'm being posted to S23 so that means making new friends altogether. I really hope Mr Goh is still our CT although chances are very slim. He's one good teacher because he teaches us values in life, something not found in textbooks. HEH.
Off to chiong through my all my untouched tutorials. HAHA (:
Good luck to all those running All-Comers today!
the girl next door;
Saturday, March 17, 2007
SWIFT race was disapointing. We all could have done better. The mood before and after the race was of stark contrast. Initially the girls were in high spirits, playing bridge. Therafter, the word 'disappointed' was clearly printed on most of our faces =/ this may be well be the result of having too high expectations on us. The trophies were really pretty this year! We walked past the shiny trophies and Jiahui and I revealed how we didn't know what to expect from our race. Since the morning, I didn't have a good feeling about th race at all. Even at the starting line, I already felt I've long cooled down. Really didn't know where the adrenaline rush came from, that got me chionging. First time in all my races did I have such a good lead, maintaining top 10 pos until the small gate, down the slope. That was the point where Mr Irwan was cheering us on, and told me to stay close. How I wished I could! But my throat began to burn and I developed stiches. Of course I was slowly overtaken. When I ran past him again, his tone was so different from before! He merely said "just go on" and i knew he has lost the hope he had in us already. [I wasn't being paranoid, cos after the race, the other girls shared the same sentiments as me too!] That definitely demoraelised me further. At many points, I rly considered stopping, for fear I would just hyperventilate like last year's SWIFT cross country.But i didn't dare, if i had done so, I cld jolly well dig a hole and hide in it forever cos i'll be letting down myself, the team, my coaches =/ So i guess, I'm glad I completed the race despite being sick afterall =) Nevermind the fact that I didn't run well, such setbacks are necessary. As he said, at least this is not Nationals, run like this and we def can't make it for top 4.
So here comes the surprise. Qiulin, Ramen and I went to change and I was telling them how i wished we could just get those pretty trophies althought we didnt have any runners in top 15. Yes, we were dreaming about it. The whole scene was just so drama cos we stepped out of the toilet and Ramen asked me, "Did you hear NJC?" As usual I couldn't exactly understand what she was saying. Realisation only struck hard when I saw ShuFang gesturing our win! HAHAHA. What a good feeling that was! I literally screamed for joy and ran to receive the trophies! :)) We made it somehow. So i guess the trophies are consolation for our hardwork! And this only proves that we still stand a chance come 18 April. The battle is not lost yet.
Skipped dinner cos I really didn't have any appetite. It was such a big mistake because I felt the hunger pangs at night =/ I should have just forced my dinner down esp after a race which drained away all my energy. Heh and i lost 2 freaking kilograms!! Drats, I dont even want to lose weight! Didn't think I lost any until Ms Vasi commented on Thursday which made me weigh myself. Haha I really thought she passed that remark only because she has not seen me in four months! Initially she barely recognised me! Hah and later she told me how i should be happy that I look young now although I still don't like the idea of being called a lower sec kid =/ That's definitely insulting! Tsktsk.
So anyway, a BIG thank you for all those who dropped an sms/call/tag to ask if I was okay. It sure was heartening to know there're many who care! :) Lynette appreciates all of you! :DD
Tag replies:
Rachel: Help me tell her she's welcome and good run too!! :) We were already taking up alot of the good positions so Haha it rly dint matter giving it up to her! Yup see u soon.
aaron: Thanks yup! :)
carren: Aiyo, why do u still call me mightymouse! Tsktsk. Looking forward to invest this tuesday!
venus: hey thanks, and you too! I hope school work's been going well for you.
waiteng: Hahah yeah I won't. U know how i kicked down those obstacles I had back in crescent yup. Haha hope my notes are of help to you :)
laurel: thanks!
Yenfang: Yo, thanks for ur support! Sorry i ain't free tonight! U train hard to and good luck for All comers tmr :)
So here comes the surprise. Qiulin, Ramen and I went to change and I was telling them how i wished we could just get those pretty trophies althought we didnt have any runners in top 15. Yes, we were dreaming about it. The whole scene was just so drama cos we stepped out of the toilet and Ramen asked me, "Did you hear NJC?" As usual I couldn't exactly understand what she was saying. Realisation only struck hard when I saw ShuFang gesturing our win! HAHAHA. What a good feeling that was! I literally screamed for joy and ran to receive the trophies! :)) We made it somehow. So i guess the trophies are consolation for our hardwork! And this only proves that we still stand a chance come 18 April. The battle is not lost yet.
Skipped dinner cos I really didn't have any appetite. It was such a big mistake because I felt the hunger pangs at night =/ I should have just forced my dinner down esp after a race which drained away all my energy. Heh and i lost 2 freaking kilograms!! Drats, I dont even want to lose weight! Didn't think I lost any until Ms Vasi commented on Thursday which made me weigh myself. Haha I really thought she passed that remark only because she has not seen me in four months! Initially she barely recognised me! Hah and later she told me how i should be happy that I look young now although I still don't like the idea of being called a lower sec kid =/ That's definitely insulting! Tsktsk.
So anyway, a BIG thank you for all those who dropped an sms/call/tag to ask if I was okay. It sure was heartening to know there're many who care! :) Lynette appreciates all of you! :DD
Tag replies:
Rachel: Help me tell her she's welcome and good run too!! :) We were already taking up alot of the good positions so Haha it rly dint matter giving it up to her! Yup see u soon.
aaron: Thanks yup! :)
carren: Aiyo, why do u still call me mightymouse! Tsktsk. Looking forward to invest this tuesday!
venus: hey thanks, and you too! I hope school work's been going well for you.
waiteng: Hahah yeah I won't. U know how i kicked down those obstacles I had back in crescent yup. Haha hope my notes are of help to you :)
laurel: thanks!
Yenfang: Yo, thanks for ur support! Sorry i ain't free tonight! U train hard to and good luck for All comers tmr :)
the girl next door;
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
The worst March holiday I ever had, It can't go any worser.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
the girl next door;
Monday, March 12, 2007
Rest is Vital.
How I wished I could accept that. It sucks travelling all the way down for training only to be chased back home. Bloody hell. I don't understand why each time when I'm nearing a race, I get bogged down by obstacles. A few days before SAA Cross Country, I developed cramps in my calf. A week before Road Run, I sustained an injury in my knee. And now, just 4 days away from SWIFT Cross Country this saturday, I've fallen ill and not allowed to train. It's very damaging to my mental stability somehow, because track has no doubt became an integral part of my life. I seriously wished I wouldn't get so affected by trainings as it just makes me upset. Cried in the bus as I was feeling extremely distraught. I kept gulping down water as though that bottle of water would cure me of my cough almost instantly. I really don't mind doing anything I could to get well as soon as possible. Since Rest is Vital, I guess I'm just going to sleep for longer hours till I recover. My heartrate was 120 counts per minute even before training while Melissa's was 80. How possible is that? Either I was really nervous or I'm just sick. Of course, it's the latter. The heat is giving me a splitting headache and I just feel like giving up all together.
How I wished I could accept that. It sucks travelling all the way down for training only to be chased back home. Bloody hell. I don't understand why each time when I'm nearing a race, I get bogged down by obstacles. A few days before SAA Cross Country, I developed cramps in my calf. A week before Road Run, I sustained an injury in my knee. And now, just 4 days away from SWIFT Cross Country this saturday, I've fallen ill and not allowed to train. It's very damaging to my mental stability somehow, because track has no doubt became an integral part of my life. I seriously wished I wouldn't get so affected by trainings as it just makes me upset. Cried in the bus as I was feeling extremely distraught. I kept gulping down water as though that bottle of water would cure me of my cough almost instantly. I really don't mind doing anything I could to get well as soon as possible. Since Rest is Vital, I guess I'm just going to sleep for longer hours till I recover. My heartrate was 120 counts per minute even before training while Melissa's was 80. How possible is that? Either I was really nervous or I'm just sick. Of course, it's the latter. The heat is giving me a splitting headache and I just feel like giving up all together.
the girl next door;
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Date with Nicole Bestie was awesome =D Havent seen her since the release of O'Level Results if i'm not mistaken and I missed her so much! Lunched at Pepper Lunch and stayed there for quite some time, catching up with each other's lives. Man, I think AC is so damn fun!!! (: Haha, so many Crescentians are in AC, so that just makes it another Crescent. Nice. We began our shopping spreee after lunch. Haha I havent had such a fruitful shopping trip in a long while and it just feels great being able to spend money!! it's the first time i brought over a hundred bucks out so I didn't really think twice when I saw smtg i liked, I just bought it=) Yay, I'm happy with my buys! I'm sure Nicole was too cos she bought alot more than me and HAHA she was carrying so many bags at the end of our shopping trip! Shopping for 8 hours was tiring, and walking around in heels is no joking matter =X Yenfang and Shuxian came to meet us for dinner after their tuition and we dined in at Sushi Tei. Yenfang said I looked like I grew taller!! =D That just made my day cos Mr Irwan said the same thing during trng too! Heehee but the key word is LOOKED LIKE, cos I came home to measure and sadly, I'm still 154cm :( Heh Nicole and I were super shagged after dinner so we found some place to sit while they shop. Haha in the end, we left earlier cos we were too tired to carry on shopping and we couldnt spend anymore money. I returned home with $0.00 in my wallet (excluding the hongbao money my sis gave me), How amazing is that :P
My dearest best friend, NICOLE! <333
Nicole and I posing with the gorgeous Red Ferrari outside Hyatt (:
We were bored on our way to Topshop :)
Nicole, Shuxian, Yenfang, Me. A picture before we went home. Yenfang, Shuxian, Don't be too stressed!! You still have lots of time to prepare for O's! =D JIAYOU!
So here comes the March Holidays occupied with dates, trainings and tutorials. I had better use this time to make sure I remember all that has been taught in the first term! But sad to say, I'm currently down with a terrible cough and flu :( It's making me so sickly that I wonder if it's because I've been drinking too much of cold drinks like Milo and Ribena in school. Quite devastating to fall sick now, considering the fact that there's a mini time trial tmr and a race this friday :( But if i look on the positive side, at least I've fallen sick now and not nearer to Nationals on 18 April. So I'm thankful for that! :) May I recover soon!!!
the girl next door;
Friday, March 09, 2007
A good start, a good end.
So it's the last day of Term one, ending off with NJC Road Run today. Was pretty scared even though it was an intra school event. Butterflies in my tummy during the whole journey to school and it just got worst when i reached school itself. The weather was so chilly and after the 3 rounds of warm up, I still didn't feel warm up =/ Shufang, Melissa and I aimed for top 3 before race began and YAY we all did it :) I was so fearful I started off tooo fast cos of the down slope=/ But somehow or rather, the race ended almost as quickly as it began :) My ending wasn't all that strong but heck, I'm still satisfied with my run :) I never achieved this in Crescent in my four years so it just makes me feel happier achieving it here. Got a pretty medal and $70 voucher from world of sports! Hahah the long-d trackkers were all telling me how im their best friend before prize presentation so i must share the surprise with them. Kept me in suspense for so long before i finally found out for myself. Haha I offered to give them 10each as requested but they refused to take either! HAHA 70 is not enough for a bottle each, so i guess i need to think wisely how im going to spend this huge sum of money =)
Chatted with usarin the whole time before we reached Vil'age for track lunch. I found how so much more about how she feels and realised that she shares the same sentiments as me! :) It has became obvious how our friend has wanted something so much that made the impression we have of her changed. Quite sad. Oh well, and maybe as usarin told me, i should start believing more in myself. Hahah, I don't seem to dare to aim high, but keep putting myself down too! Hee but i guess it's true i've improved alot as compared to the track days in Crescent and it makes me feel good too =) Maybe i've put in alot of hardwork and consistently came for trngs. I dont have my commitment wavering unlike previously. So I shall comfort myself that I made a right decision in staying commited to track =D
Yesterday was another day filled with joys. Early morning i saw mq back in NJ and i screamed! Gave her a big hug cos it was so nice seeing her again! YAY! We can continue traning together! (: School ended at 1.50pm for us so it wasn't a moody thursday! Recieved the news that Ngiam's appeal was also successful. It was such a drama scene cos when I saw him, I shouted his name and ran towards each other. He greeted me with a hug and he was so overjoyed. Who wouldnt be? So my whole class is staying in NJ! Woohooo. Campfire 2 yesterday wasn't as fun and exciting as the first one we had, but nevertheless, I was so happy almost my entire class went, except for aaron and wernchia. It was like a re-enactment of dance party one cos the guys in my class went as high as usual, doing the most silly stuff as yet again =/ We became the trendsetter cos when we sat on the floor doing the leg thingy, everyone else followed suit! It was so hilarious! Did the mass dances and sad to say, I can no longer remember all the steps! :( Haha each point we didn't know how to do, we look arnd only to realise everyone else is also looking arnd! HAHA, it's so nice to trick ourselves that we can always enjoy 24/7 without stuying. But well, i guess this just marks the end of honeymood time and it's back to reality, Lynette.
Retail therapy tmr, I cant wait =D
So it's the last day of Term one, ending off with NJC Road Run today. Was pretty scared even though it was an intra school event. Butterflies in my tummy during the whole journey to school and it just got worst when i reached school itself. The weather was so chilly and after the 3 rounds of warm up, I still didn't feel warm up =/ Shufang, Melissa and I aimed for top 3 before race began and YAY we all did it :) I was so fearful I started off tooo fast cos of the down slope=/ But somehow or rather, the race ended almost as quickly as it began :) My ending wasn't all that strong but heck, I'm still satisfied with my run :) I never achieved this in Crescent in my four years so it just makes me feel happier achieving it here. Got a pretty medal and $70 voucher from world of sports! Hahah the long-d trackkers were all telling me how im their best friend before prize presentation so i must share the surprise with them. Kept me in suspense for so long before i finally found out for myself. Haha I offered to give them 10each as requested but they refused to take either! HAHA 70 is not enough for a bottle each, so i guess i need to think wisely how im going to spend this huge sum of money =)
Chatted with usarin the whole time before we reached Vil'age for track lunch. I found how so much more about how she feels and realised that she shares the same sentiments as me! :) It has became obvious how our friend has wanted something so much that made the impression we have of her changed. Quite sad. Oh well, and maybe as usarin told me, i should start believing more in myself. Hahah, I don't seem to dare to aim high, but keep putting myself down too! Hee but i guess it's true i've improved alot as compared to the track days in Crescent and it makes me feel good too =) Maybe i've put in alot of hardwork and consistently came for trngs. I dont have my commitment wavering unlike previously. So I shall comfort myself that I made a right decision in staying commited to track =D
Yesterday was another day filled with joys. Early morning i saw mq back in NJ and i screamed! Gave her a big hug cos it was so nice seeing her again! YAY! We can continue traning together! (: School ended at 1.50pm for us so it wasn't a moody thursday! Recieved the news that Ngiam's appeal was also successful. It was such a drama scene cos when I saw him, I shouted his name and ran towards each other. He greeted me with a hug and he was so overjoyed. Who wouldnt be? So my whole class is staying in NJ! Woohooo. Campfire 2 yesterday wasn't as fun and exciting as the first one we had, but nevertheless, I was so happy almost my entire class went, except for aaron and wernchia. It was like a re-enactment of dance party one cos the guys in my class went as high as usual, doing the most silly stuff as yet again =/ We became the trendsetter cos when we sat on the floor doing the leg thingy, everyone else followed suit! It was so hilarious! Did the mass dances and sad to say, I can no longer remember all the steps! :( Haha each point we didn't know how to do, we look arnd only to realise everyone else is also looking arnd! HAHA, it's so nice to trick ourselves that we can always enjoy 24/7 without stuying. But well, i guess this just marks the end of honeymood time and it's back to reality, Lynette.
Retail therapy tmr, I cant wait =D
the girl next door;
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
My mood was as unpredictable as the weather today.
I was high throughout the whole day and didn't even feel sleepy despite the lack of sleep (: To make things better, school ended at 1.50pm for the very first time!! It's nice having no lessons till 4.30pm :) The girls thought i went crazy as we sat at the grandstand chatting away. I laughed the whole time till my sides aches so badly. Waited for Ngiam to come back and screamed when i saw him!! Okay fine, i miss him! He's like those little boy to us girls. HEE.
After training I became super sad! Saw Kailing crying and i really felt like crying with her too. We sat there and I listened to her rant, a problem shared is a problem halved. It was all of a sudden that i felt a huge burden on my shoulders and I placed myself in the shoes of my friends, making me feel worst than ever :( Well, at least Thomas cracked me up somehow as we walked out of the schoolgate. I definitely felt much better laughing it out :) He said some stuff about friendship and it has got me thinking about many many things...
It's really depressing being posted to a school you don't wish to be there. And the first 3 months just makes things worse. So perhaps it has been a wise decision to abolish it next year onwards. Seeing all my good friends no longer in NJ upsets me. I MISS NGIAM, MIAOQUN, KAILING! :( I hope ngiam and mq's appeal cases will be successful!! But yeah, i guess kailing will stay in hc and i think that's best for her too. Oh well. We just have to move on.
I was high throughout the whole day and didn't even feel sleepy despite the lack of sleep (: To make things better, school ended at 1.50pm for the very first time!! It's nice having no lessons till 4.30pm :) The girls thought i went crazy as we sat at the grandstand chatting away. I laughed the whole time till my sides aches so badly. Waited for Ngiam to come back and screamed when i saw him!! Okay fine, i miss him! He's like those little boy to us girls. HEE.
After training I became super sad! Saw Kailing crying and i really felt like crying with her too. We sat there and I listened to her rant, a problem shared is a problem halved. It was all of a sudden that i felt a huge burden on my shoulders and I placed myself in the shoes of my friends, making me feel worst than ever :( Well, at least Thomas cracked me up somehow as we walked out of the schoolgate. I definitely felt much better laughing it out :) He said some stuff about friendship and it has got me thinking about many many things...
It's really depressing being posted to a school you don't wish to be there. And the first 3 months just makes things worse. So perhaps it has been a wise decision to abolish it next year onwards. Seeing all my good friends no longer in NJ upsets me. I MISS NGIAM, MIAOQUN, KAILING! :( I hope ngiam and mq's appeal cases will be successful!! But yeah, i guess kailing will stay in hc and i think that's best for her too. Oh well. We just have to move on.
the girl next door;
Sunday, March 04, 2007
I'm aching all over from weights training yesterday =/ Now i just feel like lazing in bed the whole day. Heh I've got this feeling I'm going to get buffier soon, which i don't want!!! =X Anyway, RGPS had their sports day at NJ yesterday!! It's been 5 years since I graduated from that school, but I still miss it all the same. Seeing the small little kids run down the track, made me reminsce of the wonderful times I had in raffles! :) I still miss the prawn mee!!! Haha, back then, sports day wasn't something i looked forward too, since i had no running blood in me then. I was from chinese dance!! Frankly, I do miss dancing quite a fair bit. And when i look at myself in track, i always question why i even chose this CCA in sec 1. HAHA, till now i do not have the answer. Oh i saw Mdm Wong, my primary 6 form teacher. She's still in yellow house. I contemplated going up to say Hi, but decided against it, since she would probably not rber me after so long. Besides, i used to tie 2 ponytails in primary school up till p5!! Haha I really have grown since then :) Nevertheless, I still love RGPS. I think it is the nicest uniform I would ever get to wear, simple because it has a pinafore. Hee. Speaking of uniforms, look what i've got from Nicole's blog.
Crescent's new school rules are really funny HAHA. 1. Only 4 buttons are allowed to be shown and the rest of the blouse must be tucked in. 2. School socks must be 2cm above the ankle. 3. No student is allowed to enter/leave the school skirtless.
Okay I was a culprit of rule no. 3 because I always wear shorts to school during the holidays. My skirt is way too long and it's just not nice wearing it with pe shirt or whatsoever. HAHA, my socks are considerably high so i wouldn't get caught even if it was implemented:P But oh man, I seriously wonder who thought of such weird school rules =/
So it's going to be the end of Term 1, with one more week of school left! I'm looking forward to the school holidays cos I'll be meeting up with so many of my friends! :D 7 days just isn't enough. But I'll make the best of it :) I'm itching to shop seriously. I don't seem to have any homework to do this weekend somehow and I'm bored! Sujean called me yesterday and asked me to teach her chemistry. That silly girl was super funny as usual. She asked me the chemical equations how to get some of the gases like oxygen, carbon dioxide etc, but when i gave her the answers, she went "LYNETTE! How come you can still rber the answers! How come i dunno!" Haha I still take Chemistry Sujean!!! :) Well, if she asked me about biology, I probably would not remember much. Hmmm i think I can consider giving tuition already :P
Posting results are going to be released this tuesday. I hope my class can remain as a class since all can stay in NJ. Else it's making new friends again in Term 2. But the bond may not be as strong since we won't be involved in Orientation 2. Heard Orientation 2 won't be as fun since it would just be learning of mass dances, cheers and settling admin stuff. I kind of fogotten our mass dances already :( Only remember some steps. Heh oh and i pity those 2 intakers who came from schools which already had their cross-country. It would only mean they have to run twice since our Road Run is this friday. HAHA.
Crescent's new school rules are really funny HAHA. 1. Only 4 buttons are allowed to be shown and the rest of the blouse must be tucked in. 2. School socks must be 2cm above the ankle. 3. No student is allowed to enter/leave the school skirtless.
Okay I was a culprit of rule no. 3 because I always wear shorts to school during the holidays. My skirt is way too long and it's just not nice wearing it with pe shirt or whatsoever. HAHA, my socks are considerably high so i wouldn't get caught even if it was implemented:P But oh man, I seriously wonder who thought of such weird school rules =/
So it's going to be the end of Term 1, with one more week of school left! I'm looking forward to the school holidays cos I'll be meeting up with so many of my friends! :D 7 days just isn't enough. But I'll make the best of it :) I'm itching to shop seriously. I don't seem to have any homework to do this weekend somehow and I'm bored! Sujean called me yesterday and asked me to teach her chemistry. That silly girl was super funny as usual. She asked me the chemical equations how to get some of the gases like oxygen, carbon dioxide etc, but when i gave her the answers, she went "LYNETTE! How come you can still rber the answers! How come i dunno!" Haha I still take Chemistry Sujean!!! :) Well, if she asked me about biology, I probably would not remember much. Hmmm i think I can consider giving tuition already :P
Posting results are going to be released this tuesday. I hope my class can remain as a class since all can stay in NJ. Else it's making new friends again in Term 2. But the bond may not be as strong since we won't be involved in Orientation 2. Heard Orientation 2 won't be as fun since it would just be learning of mass dances, cheers and settling admin stuff. I kind of fogotten our mass dances already :( Only remember some steps. Heh oh and i pity those 2 intakers who came from schools which already had their cross-country. It would only mean they have to run twice since our Road Run is this friday. HAHA.
the girl next door;
Thursday, March 01, 2007
It's more than just regret.
Madness training, but beneficial. A pity I didn't complete the workout and it left me feeling so horrendous=/ 3 times 1km, all out. I met the timings set by Mr Irwan for the first 2, so that was a good thing. But after the first set, Crystal told us about the girl who passed away after running 2.4km recently. Was so freaked out by it that it partly explains why i din push on for the last set. I din dare to over-exert, I was just afraid:( It may have well be paranoia, but i think i lost my fighting spirit too. Din even see any motivation to try to keep up and i just gave up. Big mistake, because i regret it so much now. Mr Irwan asked me if i was angry with him after trng, why would i be? I was angry with myself, disappointed with my lousy runs. And how i wished i wasn't so easily affected by performance at trngs. It truly sucks. Maybe i would have felt much better if i talked to someone. But i guessed it was all fated cos my house phone is not working. Tsktsk. Heh perhaps it's true i need a psychiatrist as Felicia says :/
Madness training, but beneficial. A pity I didn't complete the workout and it left me feeling so horrendous=/ 3 times 1km, all out. I met the timings set by Mr Irwan for the first 2, so that was a good thing. But after the first set, Crystal told us about the girl who passed away after running 2.4km recently. Was so freaked out by it that it partly explains why i din push on for the last set. I din dare to over-exert, I was just afraid:( It may have well be paranoia, but i think i lost my fighting spirit too. Din even see any motivation to try to keep up and i just gave up. Big mistake, because i regret it so much now. Mr Irwan asked me if i was angry with him after trng, why would i be? I was angry with myself, disappointed with my lousy runs. And how i wished i wasn't so easily affected by performance at trngs. It truly sucks. Maybe i would have felt much better if i talked to someone. But i guessed it was all fated cos my house phone is not working. Tsktsk. Heh perhaps it's true i need a psychiatrist as Felicia says :/
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