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Sunday, April 29, 2007
It's sunday once again :) Sweet. Anyway, met up with Nicole for dinner last night!! Finally a chance to catch up after so long, i missed her so!! I realised that we've at least made it a point to meet up once a month so that's a good thing! It's amazing how much there is to say to each other cos we spent the whole night at nydc in Holland village. Nice place :) The food was good and the cake was SO yummy!!! I'm certain I'm going back there to have another slice of those Boo-Boo and Chocolate Addiction cakes. JC life sure is hectic for the both of us, with the many projects coming along. But we're still having fun so life goes on! :D Stayed till ten, and her parents sent me home. Thanks :) Discovered a similarity between her mum and mine, Cos when we went up the car, she asked "so what did u girls do, yak yak yak?" Hah and when i came home my mum asked me the same question too. What i did, and why we had so much to talk about. Haha, I sure had a good time with Nicole yesterday :) even if it was only dinner :)
YongJian and Nicholas are coming over to my house later for chem. When i told my mum those coming are all guys, she spent the next few minutes questioning why i'm the only girl in my group! Heh it's only cos suyi has camp so she can't come!! Oh well, my PW group has 4 girls and 1 guy so i'm sure she wont make any noise then :P So many varied assessments due this term, and it's kind of taxing how we need to find time in our busy schedule to meet up to discuss. At least for most ple, SYF is over so CCA is less frequent, but for me, Nationals is coming up and training resumes tmr. But I'm looking forward to it! :) Past week without training made me feel as if there's nothing to keep me busy, haha.
YongJian and Nicholas are coming over to my house later for chem. When i told my mum those coming are all guys, she spent the next few minutes questioning why i'm the only girl in my group! Heh it's only cos suyi has camp so she can't come!! Oh well, my PW group has 4 girls and 1 guy so i'm sure she wont make any noise then :P So many varied assessments due this term, and it's kind of taxing how we need to find time in our busy schedule to meet up to discuss. At least for most ple, SYF is over so CCA is less frequent, but for me, Nationals is coming up and training resumes tmr. But I'm looking forward to it! :) Past week without training made me feel as if there's nothing to keep me busy, haha.
the girl next door;
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I'm catching up! :)
No training this week so I came home straight after school for 2 consecutive days! But sadly, I miss trainings, laughing it out with the other XC girls. Boo, I can't wait for monday :)
Mel, thanks so much for the little gift which cheered me up so much! LOVES! :D
No training this week so I came home straight after school for 2 consecutive days! But sadly, I miss trainings, laughing it out with the other XC girls. Boo, I can't wait for monday :)
Mel, thanks so much for the little gift which cheered me up so much! LOVES! :D
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 22, 2007
A sorry will probably be of not much use anymore. But hearing the truth coming from you definitely sent me to tears, realising that the problem lies with me. All these while when I was having fun, don't think I didnt think of you. I constantly prayed I would receive a reply, hoping you'd update me on how things were going on. But it never came. So i resorted to asking others about you and of course I did find out how stressed you were. I completely understand that you didn't want to worry me, that's why you didn't tell me a thing. But as a friend, I really wanted to know my dear! I initiated the chats, but frequently turned out to be a failure as it leaves us with one word answers, nothing more to say. So the trust has been broken once again, nothing I do or say could probably salvage it this time round. Lack of communication breeds misunderstanding, seriously. It's hard to sustain something based on feelings, letters which no longer exist. But I thought we were the special ones, who survived through all odds in the end. Seems like I'm wrong, and this feeling of losing it is terrible. Maybe I'm not worth your time and concern no more, but be happy my friend, that's the least I could ask from you.
the girl next door;
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
It's over. All over.
Nevermind it wasn't a pB.
Nevermind i didn't come in top 20.
But i seriously mind not getting team 4th.
I haven't cried as badly as I had today, because this is the very first time I felt so close to winning the team 4th position.
But we still ended up with a 5th :(
It's really devastating to know the kind of effort we've all put in during the past 5 months have all been "wasted" by just one race.
We thought we have improved, but i guess the fact remains that our competitiors are improving as well, and even more.
Nothing can aptly describe how I feel now.
I was satisfied with my run after the race, I really given the best I could, I gathered all my energy for the last 400m. And I truly wished there were competitors ahead to overtake, because it just felt like I was running as fast as I could just to cross the finishing line. The whole world came crashing down when the results were out. Mr Irwan just said bad news, and we knew the answer. I felt so bloody disappointed, so mad at myself. I wept for so long because I really couldnt control my emotions! And just when Im about to stop, I received hugs and words of encouragement that made me break down again. BOOHOO. I think this disappointment is going to last for a few days at least. Post cross country syndrome =/
Nevertheless, a big thank you to all those who consoled me. thanks cindy for the lovely purple flower, I really loved it :) And the council too. You've no idea how touched I felt when i saw the many councillors at turf city. There was easily 80 of them! Seriously, never had that much support from the school before. Thank you councillors for taking time of to watch us run :)
Cross country season ends today. There's nothing to expect from Track season.
Nevermind it wasn't a pB.
Nevermind i didn't come in top 20.
But i seriously mind not getting team 4th.
I haven't cried as badly as I had today, because this is the very first time I felt so close to winning the team 4th position.
But we still ended up with a 5th :(
It's really devastating to know the kind of effort we've all put in during the past 5 months have all been "wasted" by just one race.
We thought we have improved, but i guess the fact remains that our competitiors are improving as well, and even more.
Nothing can aptly describe how I feel now.
I was satisfied with my run after the race, I really given the best I could, I gathered all my energy for the last 400m. And I truly wished there were competitors ahead to overtake, because it just felt like I was running as fast as I could just to cross the finishing line. The whole world came crashing down when the results were out. Mr Irwan just said bad news, and we knew the answer. I felt so bloody disappointed, so mad at myself. I wept for so long because I really couldnt control my emotions! And just when Im about to stop, I received hugs and words of encouragement that made me break down again. BOOHOO. I think this disappointment is going to last for a few days at least. Post cross country syndrome =/
Nevertheless, a big thank you to all those who consoled me. thanks cindy for the lovely purple flower, I really loved it :) And the council too. You've no idea how touched I felt when i saw the many councillors at turf city. There was easily 80 of them! Seriously, never had that much support from the school before. Thank you councillors for taking time of to watch us run :)
Cross country season ends today. There's nothing to expect from Track season.
the girl next door;
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
So tmr's 18 April,
the stakes are there,
but the girls are losing faith.
Can we just believe in ourselves, for this one last time?
We really MUST fight till the end.
the stakes are there,
but the girls are losing faith.
Can we just believe in ourselves, for this one last time?
We really MUST fight till the end.
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 15, 2007
3 more days to 18 April.3 more days to the race we've been training hard for.
Just as much as I'm already in a frenzy of emotions, I will keep taking deep breaths and calm myself. This race is going to determine so much and I really don't want all my consistent trainings to be wasted. I want it to be another good year, I don't want us to be disappointed. So so so, ALL THE BEST TO NJC XC GIRLS AND BOYS! :D Show others what we're capable of, show others our determination in this battle. We're going to do your best to do our school proud! :) Run your hearts out and no regrets thereafter!
And not forgetting, my dearest crescentians,
JIAYOU for NATIONALS too!! I miss all of you and really look forward to seeing you girls on wednesday. Do your best and bring glory to Crescent Track :) I'll be supporting you!!!
The will the passion the glory, Creztrack 2007
the girl next door;
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Unhealthy diet today.
Haha look at the list of the rubbish I ate today:
1. A cup of super concentrated Ribena with jelly
2. Pepper Lunch- Hamburger Steak Set (but i finished ALL my veggies!!) and a cup of super sweet iced peach tea.
3. Strawberry jam filled doughnut from Pop-Dough
4. Chewy-Baked Apple Museil Bar
5. Pizza Hut for dinner
6. Supper- some nachos cheesebread and garlic bread
Okay, I conclude I seriously ate so much junk today that I feel so FATT! =/ I shall resist anymore temptations until this wednesday is over (:
Ohh and check out our new Nj XC tee :) I must say its one of the nicest school related tees I ever had! And to make things better, it fits nicely :) So no complaints about too long shirts anymore. Thanks Thomas for the wonderful design!!
And I'm upset with you for being so indifferent, for erecting this invisible wall between us where true feelings cannot pass. U hurt me so, I wonder if you realise. Now I wish I could return to 2 years ago, where memories were that fond, when we were that close.
the girl next door;
Friday, April 13, 2007
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! :D
It's the first time I got to go home straight after school today!! (: Though I ended at 4.30pm, it just feels really good to step out of school. No trainings, no meetings and no discussions for any projects. YAY. And even better, the weekends are already here!!! Haha I feel like I get so easily contented lately. Lunch break was "suaning Lynette time" today unfortunately. But it definitely lifted my spirits after the terrible timetable we have on friday. Stupid Ngiam kept going on about me looking like a primary four kid!! =X And just when I thought Zac was nice enough to say "give me chance" he called me a primary five kid!!! WAH super insulting!! But the compliment came when they said I should well be happy that I look young (: And although i may look small, I am as mature as a university 2! :D Haha that's so extreme. But I'm just glad I've such classmates to break the monotony of the boring school life. Ohh, and today for both my bus journeys, I accidentally slept on someone's shoulders. So embarrassing! =X But that's just the problem when I fall asleep on the bus, because my head is probably so heavy that it moves about! Heee, out obviously I can't ever win Aaron!! Each time he falls asleep during lectures his head moves round and round! And the guys are so evil cos they always laugh at him. Then again, they mean nothing, so no worries Aaron!! (:
PI is due on tuesday =/ Though I'm more or less done with mine, I still need to cut down by 64 words!!! And that's highly impossible beacuse I've already ommited all the verbs and linking words. Any further means compromising on the details. But I guess there isn't a choice since we cant submit a PI more than 520 words. RAHH. There's still the varied chem assessment proposal due next week. Hopefully we get to find the 3 molecules to demonstrate the VSEPR Theory soon enough. But no stress, I will take everything easy :)
It's the first time I got to go home straight after school today!! (: Though I ended at 4.30pm, it just feels really good to step out of school. No trainings, no meetings and no discussions for any projects. YAY. And even better, the weekends are already here!!! Haha I feel like I get so easily contented lately. Lunch break was "suaning Lynette time" today unfortunately. But it definitely lifted my spirits after the terrible timetable we have on friday. Stupid Ngiam kept going on about me looking like a primary four kid!! =X And just when I thought Zac was nice enough to say "give me chance" he called me a primary five kid!!! WAH super insulting!! But the compliment came when they said I should well be happy that I look young (: And although i may look small, I am as mature as a university 2! :D Haha that's so extreme. But I'm just glad I've such classmates to break the monotony of the boring school life. Ohh, and today for both my bus journeys, I accidentally slept on someone's shoulders. So embarrassing! =X But that's just the problem when I fall asleep on the bus, because my head is probably so heavy that it moves about! Heee, out obviously I can't ever win Aaron!! Each time he falls asleep during lectures his head moves round and round! And the guys are so evil cos they always laugh at him. Then again, they mean nothing, so no worries Aaron!! (:
PI is due on tuesday =/ Though I'm more or less done with mine, I still need to cut down by 64 words!!! And that's highly impossible beacuse I've already ommited all the verbs and linking words. Any further means compromising on the details. But I guess there isn't a choice since we cant submit a PI more than 520 words. RAHH. There's still the varied chem assessment proposal due next week. Hopefully we get to find the 3 molecules to demonstrate the VSEPR Theory soon enough. But no stress, I will take everything easy :)
the girl next door;
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm still not there yet :(
The time trial was meant to guage our fitness now. It was meant to be an encouragement for us for the upcoming National Cross Country. It was meant to convince us that We have what it takes. Unfortunately, it wasn't even a close to 100% effort on my part. But i don't want to find any excuses to explain my poor performance today. I just can't understand how I could motivate the other girls to stay positive, not to give up at this point in time. How I asked them if they were feeling okay after the run. How i could even joke and crap around. HAHA, and so I wish I can just tell myself not to lose hope anymore. Its only 8 more days left and definitely We ought to stay optimistic come what may. Expectations are high this year, but no way is that going to pressure us in any way. I will run my best for the team an for the school (: YAY, optimism :D
Art tapestry is keeping me busy. It only means reaching home at ten on meeting days :(
The time trial was meant to guage our fitness now. It was meant to be an encouragement for us for the upcoming National Cross Country. It was meant to convince us that We have what it takes. Unfortunately, it wasn't even a close to 100% effort on my part. But i don't want to find any excuses to explain my poor performance today. I just can't understand how I could motivate the other girls to stay positive, not to give up at this point in time. How I asked them if they were feeling okay after the run. How i could even joke and crap around. HAHA, and so I wish I can just tell myself not to lose hope anymore. Its only 8 more days left and definitely We ought to stay optimistic come what may. Expectations are high this year, but no way is that going to pressure us in any way. I will run my best for the team an for the school (: YAY, optimism :D
Art tapestry is keeping me busy. It only means reaching home at ten on meeting days :(
the girl next door;
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Mel and I had a really long chat with Mr Irwan after training today. We learnt so much more about ourselves, realised the kind of person we both were. He can seriously become a psychologist already. But he told us things from his perspective, and that made me think more about what I want in life too. I was pretty much amused when he said I will become a good mother in future! HAHA =D I remember how my friends used to tell me this in lower sec too, since I could cook and always wash my dishes. But he passed that remark just by observing me and how I treated my teammates?? Haha quite a funny link I must say, but well, it's nice to be compliemented occasionally :P Although I still don't understand how I am considered reserved! =/ Always saw myself as a noisy person, but maybe not as noisy as others. Heh.
It rained super heavily here at my side and woke me up from my afternoon nap. The thunders were damn freaking loud and scary! Seriously, i entertained the thought that it may well be the end of the world =/ What a silly thought i know, but hey the climatic change really calls for concern now. I've been following closely regarding global warming and the disastrous effects of it. Afterall, it is us living in this earth and it is ultimately our responsibility not to damage it further. Sea level rising, low lying coastal islands on the verge of being submerged. It quite a scary thought if you were to think of it, and I hope that all human actions would not to harm the earth in any way. Okay, im beginning to sound like some kind of environmentalist =/
Oh well, better get back to tutorials :( I still have 3 more to go! :(
It rained super heavily here at my side and woke me up from my afternoon nap. The thunders were damn freaking loud and scary! Seriously, i entertained the thought that it may well be the end of the world =/ What a silly thought i know, but hey the climatic change really calls for concern now. I've been following closely regarding global warming and the disastrous effects of it. Afterall, it is us living in this earth and it is ultimately our responsibility not to damage it further. Sea level rising, low lying coastal islands on the verge of being submerged. It quite a scary thought if you were to think of it, and I hope that all human actions would not to harm the earth in any way. Okay, im beginning to sound like some kind of environmentalist =/
Oh well, better get back to tutorials :( I still have 3 more to go! :(
the girl next door;
Friday, April 06, 2007
I'm such a glutton :( Feasted so much today!! Anthony treated my family to lunch at Jumbo and he ordered 2 lobsters!!!! HAHA i havent eaten that for many many years! But then again, my sis is right to say both my bro and i dunno how to enjoy expensive food. We don't like lobsters, wo don't like birds nest. All the better, we get to save money! =) Ate ice cream from AZABU SABO again!! :D As much as I've promised myself to refrain from junk food, cold drinks etc, but yet I'm still consuming them!!! But from today onwards, i promise myself I won't indulge anymore because Nationals is just 12 days away=/ And this year, it means so much more to me.
I must say school was a pleasure this whole week :) Surprisingly, I was 100% awake during all my lectures and understood for the very first time what was being taught! 3 cheers for Lynette! :) So i realised that as long as i get to bed by 11pm, I can stay pretty awake in school. Training wasn't too bad either. 3 * 1km didn't turn out as badly as it sounded. But i really need to learn to open up my strides =/
Thomas just sent me a ridiculously funny email that cracked me up :D Hahah thanks! My grandma ended up calling me crazy cause I was laughing at the computer! HAHAHA.
Anyway, GOOD LUCK to the sprinters and throwers for National Juniors which begins tomorrow. I'm sure all of you will do well so JIAYOUU :D
I must say school was a pleasure this whole week :) Surprisingly, I was 100% awake during all my lectures and understood for the very first time what was being taught! 3 cheers for Lynette! :) So i realised that as long as i get to bed by 11pm, I can stay pretty awake in school. Training wasn't too bad either. 3 * 1km didn't turn out as badly as it sounded. But i really need to learn to open up my strides =/
Thomas just sent me a ridiculously funny email that cracked me up :D Hahah thanks! My grandma ended up calling me crazy cause I was laughing at the computer! HAHAHA.
Anyway, GOOD LUCK to the sprinters and throwers for National Juniors which begins tomorrow. I'm sure all of you will do well so JIAYOUU :D
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 01, 2007
My dad ticked me off for not joining council AGAIN :( He made it seem like that's my biggest mistake for not being part of the council in NJ. Sadly, it has made me regretful too :( Drats, that's why I dislike it when he talks to me whenever he's not in a good mood. TSK.
the girl next door;
It's April Fools Day Today.
HAHA so everything that people say today, must be thought through. I got tricked the first thing I woke up today =/ Nicholas sent me an sms and seriously scared the hell out of me. Thank goodness it was only an April's Fool joke :) Haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIYING! :) I think it's cool to have a birthday on April's Fool =P
Tmr's Sheng's birthday! Ning and I went out with her for dinner at New York last night :D I love New York seriously. The ambience nice. The food is good. The waiters/waitresses are friendly. There's free cotton candy! HAHA :X Before dinner, ning and I searched high and low for some cute little presents for Sheng. We each bought the hearts charm keychain and one for sheng too! 30minutes spent at Diva, $30 spent there too! It's really nice meeting up with my lower sec pals once again!! :) So thankful we're still keeping in touch even after we changed classes in upper sec, and changed schools now in Jc. Haha so HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SHENG!!! I hope you like the gifts we've gotten you this year :) And the cute birthday card too! :) LOVESSS!
This is the adorable birthday card we picked for Sheng :)
Time trial tmr =/ Most unfortunately, I'm down with a cough! But I've discovered the reason behind getting cough so frequently this year. It's the results of drinking too much cold drinks!! Haha because NJ sells nicer drinks than Crescent, I spend money on drinks when I previously don't do so! I shall resist the temptation of bubble tea for 2 more weeks since I can't afford to fall sick anymore! :) Haha optimism on my part, negative thoughts shall no longer be entertained :)
HAHA so everything that people say today, must be thought through. I got tricked the first thing I woke up today =/ Nicholas sent me an sms and seriously scared the hell out of me. Thank goodness it was only an April's Fool joke :) Haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIYING! :) I think it's cool to have a birthday on April's Fool =P
Tmr's Sheng's birthday! Ning and I went out with her for dinner at New York last night :D I love New York seriously. The ambience nice. The food is good. The waiters/waitresses are friendly. There's free cotton candy! HAHA :X Before dinner, ning and I searched high and low for some cute little presents for Sheng. We each bought the hearts charm keychain and one for sheng too! 30minutes spent at Diva, $30 spent there too! It's really nice meeting up with my lower sec pals once again!! :) So thankful we're still keeping in touch even after we changed classes in upper sec, and changed schools now in Jc. Haha so HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SHENG!!! I hope you like the gifts we've gotten you this year :) And the cute birthday card too! :) LOVESSS!
This is the adorable birthday card we picked for Sheng :)
Of course we had to take a picture for memories :)
Just like most girls, we enjoy taking photos! :) HAHA.
Our blueberry pancake with chocolate ice cream dessert! They even gave us maple syrup although it was already so sweeet :)
Time trial tmr =/ Most unfortunately, I'm down with a cough! But I've discovered the reason behind getting cough so frequently this year. It's the results of drinking too much cold drinks!! Haha because NJ sells nicer drinks than Crescent, I spend money on drinks when I previously don't do so! I shall resist the temptation of bubble tea for 2 more weeks since I can't afford to fall sick anymore! :) Haha optimism on my part, negative thoughts shall no longer be entertained :)
the girl next door;
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