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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Running test at 7am this morning =/
Okay I improved by 35m as compared to my first 60s running test but I so wanted to hit the 700m mark! Grr at least it felt good after the test. But i wished improvement could be much faster. Seeing my peers like Chihua and Yiyan having improved so much, I will not deny that hardwork does pay off. But sometimes you just feel so robbed of your time and can't help entertaining the thought of letting go of everything. Been sacrificing lots of my time solely for training and I always ask myself if all this really is worthwhile. I'm tired and wish for the season to be over quickly. Not that the passion is running low, it's just that I can't seem to get myself motivated when everyone arrives at different times, start at different time, end at different time. So much for looking forward to YLTC camp next week. Now I certainly wished I didn't have to go. Missing one whole week of training is enough to bring me back to basics once again. Knowing that there's only one more month left isn't helping either. So it is with guilt and worry that I'll be off for this 5 day camp. But on the bright side, I'll be away from comfort zone, away from where I can be connected. Reminds me of the OBS camp back in sec 3, how everything was nothing but fun. Oh well, just attend the camp and enjoy. As for track, worry later. I need a breather anyway, been tired of whacking all those speed workouts, getting all those dizzy spells.
Seriously, I NEED to go shopping badly :( Or maybe, I just need to go out and have fun.
Okay I improved by 35m as compared to my first 60s running test but I so wanted to hit the 700m mark! Grr at least it felt good after the test. But i wished improvement could be much faster. Seeing my peers like Chihua and Yiyan having improved so much, I will not deny that hardwork does pay off. But sometimes you just feel so robbed of your time and can't help entertaining the thought of letting go of everything. Been sacrificing lots of my time solely for training and I always ask myself if all this really is worthwhile. I'm tired and wish for the season to be over quickly. Not that the passion is running low, it's just that I can't seem to get myself motivated when everyone arrives at different times, start at different time, end at different time. So much for looking forward to YLTC camp next week. Now I certainly wished I didn't have to go. Missing one whole week of training is enough to bring me back to basics once again. Knowing that there's only one more month left isn't helping either. So it is with guilt and worry that I'll be off for this 5 day camp. But on the bright side, I'll be away from comfort zone, away from where I can be connected. Reminds me of the OBS camp back in sec 3, how everything was nothing but fun. Oh well, just attend the camp and enjoy. As for track, worry later. I need a breather anyway, been tired of whacking all those speed workouts, getting all those dizzy spells.
Seriously, I NEED to go shopping badly :( Or maybe, I just need to go out and have fun.
the girl next door;
Sunday, May 27, 2007
I dont believe this.
13 competitors for today's Allcomers 800m event. Out of which, I'm the oldest since the rest are all from secondary schools. And that just makes it worst, more scary in fact. I'll be running against my juniors, Sujean and Amanda!!! =/ Grr seriously, I did say I don't want to run cos I havent fully recovered yet, can't I just not run? It's going to be a very mentally challenging run for me. And I pray my morale will not be brought down because of today's race. This sucks.
13 competitors for today's Allcomers 800m event. Out of which, I'm the oldest since the rest are all from secondary schools. And that just makes it worst, more scary in fact. I'll be running against my juniors, Sujean and Amanda!!! =/ Grr seriously, I did say I don't want to run cos I havent fully recovered yet, can't I just not run? It's going to be a very mentally challenging run for me. And I pray my morale will not be brought down because of today's race. This sucks.
the girl next door;
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
It's not that difficult to be happy :)
Life's never a bed of roses so just think happy thoughts and don't dwell on the unhappiness. Just look at this adorable card Suyi got me which sure made my day! Thanks babe! U may not be the one who drew it, but its the thought that counts and I love it! I certainly can't imagine life in school without u either :D
I finally watched Spiderman 3 today and it was good!! :) Went PS to watch it with Jamie, Aaron and Nicholas. I must say I'm quite a scaredy cos the many sudden changing scenes jolted me outta my seat. Worst of all we were seated at the very last row, so it sure did send my imagination running wild. Nevertheless, the money was worthwhile and I don't mind watching it again!! :) Provided if it is screened on TV. Heh next movie to watch, SHREK 3!! Childish it may seem, but I like! HAHA. Rushed off for tuition after the movie and in the process my bag was damaged!! :( It was quite upsetting considering the fact it isnt all that old, but it was so ridiculous. Why must they have those granite boulders at bus stops?!? It disfigured my poor little clip on my bag. Boo hoo.
Anyway, I was informed that I need to come up with a speech for Crescent Speech Day today. Okay since there is 2 more months before 28 July, I've got ample time to work on it. But i really want to be able to come up with a catchy last phrase, just like how the valedictorians of the past 2 batches did! I still rber last yr Spohia said "Today let us be proud of Crescent, Tomorrow let Crescent be proud of us." And 2 years ago, PeiYi said "Onward with zeal and zest, Forward we of CGS." So it's my turn now to think of something! Haha I hope I'm up to this challenging task ;)
Life's never a bed of roses so just think happy thoughts and don't dwell on the unhappiness. Just look at this adorable card Suyi got me which sure made my day! Thanks babe! U may not be the one who drew it, but its the thought that counts and I love it! I certainly can't imagine life in school without u either :D
I finally watched Spiderman 3 today and it was good!! :) Went PS to watch it with Jamie, Aaron and Nicholas. I must say I'm quite a scaredy cos the many sudden changing scenes jolted me outta my seat. Worst of all we were seated at the very last row, so it sure did send my imagination running wild. Nevertheless, the money was worthwhile and I don't mind watching it again!! :) Provided if it is screened on TV. Heh next movie to watch, SHREK 3!! Childish it may seem, but I like! HAHA. Rushed off for tuition after the movie and in the process my bag was damaged!! :( It was quite upsetting considering the fact it isnt all that old, but it was so ridiculous. Why must they have those granite boulders at bus stops?!? It disfigured my poor little clip on my bag. Boo hoo.
Anyway, I was informed that I need to come up with a speech for Crescent Speech Day today. Okay since there is 2 more months before 28 July, I've got ample time to work on it. But i really want to be able to come up with a catchy last phrase, just like how the valedictorians of the past 2 batches did! I still rber last yr Spohia said "Today let us be proud of Crescent, Tomorrow let Crescent be proud of us." And 2 years ago, PeiYi said "Onward with zeal and zest, Forward we of CGS." So it's my turn now to think of something! Haha I hope I'm up to this challenging task ;)
the girl next door;
Saturday, May 19, 2007
SICK SICK SICK.
So I've fallen ill again, probably due to all the screaming on Sports Day and the accumulation of fatigue over the past 2 weeks :( And to add onto my already unpleasant life, I banged into the railing at bukit panjang bus interchange last night. It was so careless on my part too, cos I was looking at the bus signage while walking. Hence failed to see the railing which poked right into my left leg!! OUCH. It's really bruised right now that I can't go for my intended long run :( If only we had eyes on our legs! Then we can see what's below our current eye level. Hahah okay, I'm talking nonsense;)
I shall not rant about the miseries of school life because my holidays are here! :) SISC next week at NJ, so we need not attend school! My teachers call it the consolidation week, since we're required to complete all our tutorials and revision exercises in preparation of CT. Hah please bless me with PASSES!!! :D It's so different to have exams after a holiday break. Back in secondary, now it's probably the time to enjoy cos exams are over and holidays are spent shopping! HAHA though i remembered how upset I was because of my results at this time last year.
Anyway to those who are considering applying for NJC DSA, remember the deadline is on the 1st of JUNE! Print the application form from nj website (:
So I've fallen ill again, probably due to all the screaming on Sports Day and the accumulation of fatigue over the past 2 weeks :( And to add onto my already unpleasant life, I banged into the railing at bukit panjang bus interchange last night. It was so careless on my part too, cos I was looking at the bus signage while walking. Hence failed to see the railing which poked right into my left leg!! OUCH. It's really bruised right now that I can't go for my intended long run :( If only we had eyes on our legs! Then we can see what's below our current eye level. Hahah okay, I'm talking nonsense;)
I shall not rant about the miseries of school life because my holidays are here! :) SISC next week at NJ, so we need not attend school! My teachers call it the consolidation week, since we're required to complete all our tutorials and revision exercises in preparation of CT. Hah please bless me with PASSES!!! :D It's so different to have exams after a holiday break. Back in secondary, now it's probably the time to enjoy cos exams are over and holidays are spent shopping! HAHA though i remembered how upset I was because of my results at this time last year.
Anyway to those who are considering applying for NJC DSA, remember the deadline is on the 1st of JUNE! Print the application form from nj website (:
the girl next door;
Monday, May 14, 2007
NO PAIN NO GAIN.
Training was tough but beneficial. Painful but satisfactory! :D 600m*6 followed by 200m*6 is certainly no joke. But I'm just so glad I completed it and ran within the expected time. YAY. Ran with Ashwyn and I kind of followed closely to his pace, perhaps that was what made me run faster :) 200m*12 tmr, I'm pretty excited!
Training was tough but beneficial. Painful but satisfactory! :D 600m*6 followed by 200m*6 is certainly no joke. But I'm just so glad I completed it and ran within the expected time. YAY. Ran with Ashwyn and I kind of followed closely to his pace, perhaps that was what made me run faster :) 200m*12 tmr, I'm pretty excited!
the girl next door;
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Social Worker in future?
Haha seems like that's may well be the path I'm heading too cus I've been spending lots of time doing social work. Thw whole of yesterday in fact :) Spent the morning at Boys Town, looking at the place, thinking of ways to refurnish the music room and study room so that they boys would have more joy when they go to these room. And so, we've decided to paint the walls with LOUD colours, instead of the normal blue and white which is prominent everywhere in Boys town. I'm pretty much excited to work with them since Mr James is so much more sincere than then the person in charge of Bishan Home who I met up with previous week. Looking forward to see the 'revolution' of these 2 rooms by the end of this year! :) Spent the afternoon at KAP, not to mug, but for 2 meetings! Tapestry and PBC. Saw NJ soccer girls and guys there which make me so envious cos they whole group were having lunch after trng tgt. I wanna join a team sport!! okay that's a side track. But anyway, thanks jasmine and rasul for accompanying me till PBC mtg started at 6! :) I would have been really lonely without their company. So for PBC, Peace Connect is my VWO. Haha i think i'm getting so busy with all these major projects which all occur until the month of august! Somehow or rather, at least there isn't the dread to attend the meetings etc, there's a joy instead! I think that's my way of returning to society :D
So with the busy schedule, i'm so glad this is the last week of school for NJ! :) We have SISC on the 10th week so no school! YAY. But that only means I really need to start revision of CT which are up when school reopens. Feeling the stress this week out of the blue, yet I can still amaze people with my early sleeping habits. Jasmine and Fedora finds it amazing how I can cope with trngs 4 times a week, meetings for tapestry and PBC and of course schoolwork. HAHA how can I cope? I wonder too. It's so terrible cus last week I slept around 1030am everyday! I just couldnt concentrate past the 10pm mark. Guess I must have been really drained out already. Thinking of past memories isn't helping either. Went back to Crescent on friday for a short while and I really wanted to stay there forever. I dont show what I feel cus I dowant to make u sad. I din want to distract you so I din even do what I thot would be better-a letter. It's so untrue that I don't care! :( BOO.
Anyway,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! :D
This is like one of the few family pictures I could find since my parents don't like taking photos! Have a splendid mothers' day MUM! :) Buffet dinner at Jap restaurant later! YAY.
Haha seems like that's may well be the path I'm heading too cus I've been spending lots of time doing social work. Thw whole of yesterday in fact :) Spent the morning at Boys Town, looking at the place, thinking of ways to refurnish the music room and study room so that they boys would have more joy when they go to these room. And so, we've decided to paint the walls with LOUD colours, instead of the normal blue and white which is prominent everywhere in Boys town. I'm pretty much excited to work with them since Mr James is so much more sincere than then the person in charge of Bishan Home who I met up with previous week. Looking forward to see the 'revolution' of these 2 rooms by the end of this year! :) Spent the afternoon at KAP, not to mug, but for 2 meetings! Tapestry and PBC. Saw NJ soccer girls and guys there which make me so envious cos they whole group were having lunch after trng tgt. I wanna join a team sport!! okay that's a side track. But anyway, thanks jasmine and rasul for accompanying me till PBC mtg started at 6! :) I would have been really lonely without their company. So for PBC, Peace Connect is my VWO. Haha i think i'm getting so busy with all these major projects which all occur until the month of august! Somehow or rather, at least there isn't the dread to attend the meetings etc, there's a joy instead! I think that's my way of returning to society :D
So with the busy schedule, i'm so glad this is the last week of school for NJ! :) We have SISC on the 10th week so no school! YAY. But that only means I really need to start revision of CT which are up when school reopens. Feeling the stress this week out of the blue, yet I can still amaze people with my early sleeping habits. Jasmine and Fedora finds it amazing how I can cope with trngs 4 times a week, meetings for tapestry and PBC and of course schoolwork. HAHA how can I cope? I wonder too. It's so terrible cus last week I slept around 1030am everyday! I just couldnt concentrate past the 10pm mark. Guess I must have been really drained out already. Thinking of past memories isn't helping either. Went back to Crescent on friday for a short while and I really wanted to stay there forever. I dont show what I feel cus I dowant to make u sad. I din want to distract you so I din even do what I thot would be better-a letter. It's so untrue that I don't care! :( BOO.
Anyway,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! :D
This is like one of the few family pictures I could find since my parents don't like taking photos! Have a splendid mothers' day MUM! :) Buffet dinner at Jap restaurant later! YAY.
the girl next door;
Sunday, May 06, 2007
It's one of those I wish "next week would be a better week" again. Boo. I've realised how my mind hasn't been entirely on what I was supposed to do as seen from this eventful morning. I had to send some info to my PW grp members and only succeded on my third email cos i accidentally pressed the cancel button on the first 2 ocassions. Then I had to submit some survey thing for H3 application and I did it in Ngiam's KM acct =/ Screamed when i found out cos I typed my IC and name in his acct! Haha so in the end, submitted his in my KM acct. Mrs Chiew is so going to question us what went wrong with us. HAHA. And my dad's flying off to China in 2 weeks for my relative's wedding so I'm on a mission to complie pictures that have my uncle's face in it! That's when I started looking through all the photos that were taken, and recalled my sister's wedding in 2005 :) That was 2 years back, so long ago..
And now, I need to work on the press release for Art Tapestry which is coming up really soon! Dont' really know how to go about doing so cos it's such a big thing! =/ Haha i can't imagine seeing something written by me that appears in the Straits Times. But well, there's always a first time to everything! :)
And now, I need to work on the press release for Art Tapestry which is coming up really soon! Dont' really know how to go about doing so cos it's such a big thing! =/ Haha i can't imagine seeing something written by me that appears in the Straits Times. But well, there's always a first time to everything! :)
the girl next door;
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Why can't we accept the way things are and just run?
Yes I'm sad. And I don't understand why we always make assumptions.
Assumptions that are not at all valid.
Yes I'm sad. And I don't understand why we always make assumptions.
Assumptions that are not at all valid.
the girl next door;
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Life's too short to be concerned about being short (:
Heh I was on my way home today and viewed this short flim about 2 boys who were very short for the age. But one tried means and ways to grow taller (but failed) as he felt ostracised, while the other accepted his height and was very happy! Okay, I know this is random but i just thought the flim was pretty interesting :) Haha. Anyway, today was such a queer day =/ Many uncommon stuff happened somehow. I reached school when the first bell rang, thankfully wasnt late. Got 10/28 for my physics test! Failed but satisfied :) Sat down and talked to mq after so long cos she was busy with council. Mel said smtg which made me happy. Joshua came up to me to complain abt his hand and how angry he was for waiting for nothing at all. And there's truth in his statement that one tends to tone down ALOT when they come to NJ. Really, it's so true. Quite sad huh :( and Jiahui acceded to my request to do long run with me! HAHA. But throughout the day I somehow kept drifting away, thinking about unnecessary things which worry me for nothing. So i came home feeling so terrible, losing my appetite for dinner although I was starving. And it seems like studies somehow isnt really my top priority cos i spent 1+ hours talking to Ngiam on the phone! Hearing things from a different perspective did convince me that all those thoughts of mine were not due to paranoia, but smtg which others have began to realise too. Oh well, talking definitely cheered me up to some extent, ranting out all that I previously couldnt have done so :) Thanks Ngiam! Heh and I miss KAILING!!!! :( Haven seen her this week, so the journey to school has been long and boring. I no longer have anyone to spice up my life in the early hours before school. I hope she takes the bus tmr with me! :)
I'm scared for heats this friday =/ Boohoo, i havent ran 800m since SPH relays and my fitness now sucks like crazy.
Heh I was on my way home today and viewed this short flim about 2 boys who were very short for the age. But one tried means and ways to grow taller (but failed) as he felt ostracised, while the other accepted his height and was very happy! Okay, I know this is random but i just thought the flim was pretty interesting :) Haha. Anyway, today was such a queer day =/ Many uncommon stuff happened somehow. I reached school when the first bell rang, thankfully wasnt late. Got 10/28 for my physics test! Failed but satisfied :) Sat down and talked to mq after so long cos she was busy with council. Mel said smtg which made me happy. Joshua came up to me to complain abt his hand and how angry he was for waiting for nothing at all. And there's truth in his statement that one tends to tone down ALOT when they come to NJ. Really, it's so true. Quite sad huh :( and Jiahui acceded to my request to do long run with me! HAHA. But throughout the day I somehow kept drifting away, thinking about unnecessary things which worry me for nothing. So i came home feeling so terrible, losing my appetite for dinner although I was starving. And it seems like studies somehow isnt really my top priority cos i spent 1+ hours talking to Ngiam on the phone! Hearing things from a different perspective did convince me that all those thoughts of mine were not due to paranoia, but smtg which others have began to realise too. Oh well, talking definitely cheered me up to some extent, ranting out all that I previously couldnt have done so :) Thanks Ngiam! Heh and I miss KAILING!!!! :( Haven seen her this week, so the journey to school has been long and boring. I no longer have anyone to spice up my life in the early hours before school. I hope she takes the bus tmr with me! :)
I'm scared for heats this friday =/ Boohoo, i havent ran 800m since SPH relays and my fitness now sucks like crazy.
the girl next door;
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY NICOLE!!! :D
Did a collage for you with the photos of both of us! HAHA be honoured because majority of my photos have you in them :) We've spent tons of time together, shopping, mugging, council, lazing around and I look forward to more wonderful times spent with you bestie! :D It sure was good having you around through my secondary school life. You may be tall and I may be short, but I'm really gald we're friends because we do share the same interests! SHOPPING AND SPONGEBOB! HAHA and although AC and NJ are a distance away, we must still meet up frequently alright. Continue to have fun in AC and shopping the next time we meet yup! :) Have a splendid 17th birthday darling! LOVES!!
the girl next door;
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