It has been a hectic week, and next week will be just as hectic.

Things haven't exactly been going my way this week sadly, work has just been so stressful. I hardly understand why I'm going the extra mile to do so many things for the company when I'm just a part-timer. Maybe it's just in me, to give my best in everything I've been assigned to do. But I realised while that may be a positive trait, it may not be all that good. I find it totally unfair when part-timers are doing all they could to ensure every programme is delivered to the best and yet full-timers seem unconcerned about the way things would turn out. It irritates me more to find myself doing every single thing for the project, working OT because I know I should complete it and yet people can just leave office punctually perhaps because they can hardly find anymore things to do. But that's just rubbish because the least they could do is to lend a helping hand to us. Our boss recognises our effort of working till 8pm the past 2 nights and even returning to work on Saturday when we are not paid to do so. And the reason why we're doing so is to ensure we are prepared for the whole week of programmes we have next week. I think I have always been so stretched by work and the final straw was on Thursday evening when I was suddenly thrown with some terrible attitude and tasks. I just broke down and it was so bad especially after my boss keeps telling me it isn't worthwhile doing all these. All along I've never asked for a pay rise, or never said 'no' to anything that I was asked to do even when I had to use my own time to get some things completed. And that exactly is the problem because when you're nice you simply get taken advantaged of and people are hardly appreciative of what you do. They just know they don't have to worry cos I'll get things done. After all that has happened, I know I've gotta change to ensure there won't be a second time this happens. There's so much frustration in me and unhappiness about the system in the company really and letting part of it out on Thursday really made me feel much better after the 2 months I've been working here. Thanks dear for coming to hear me out. Seriously, despite going through so much stress, so much frustration etc I don't wanna quit just yet. Perhaps it's because I want to help the company and make sure things get sorted somehow, don't ask me why. It just doesn't make sense for a part-timer to think so much of the future of the company when others don't seem to care. I guess it's because we don't wanna see our boss suffering alone in time to come? I've really no idea, but from now, I know I need to learn how to say no...

Whatever unhappiness I've experienced while preparing for programmes, I gotta admit the happiness and satisfaction obtained from coaching outweights the sadness thankfully. Friday was the last of 6 sessions we conducted at Parkview Pri to groom them into confident public speakers. It was such an enjoyable experience and I will sure miss those lovely kids. Esp the adorable boy (the one in front of me in the picture below)in my class :)